Chapter 21: A Serverus Memory

Serverus sat at a desk in a room that had once been a library of some sort. It was dark and the only light came from the large window behind him. He hadn't gone to dinner. He couldn't go. Not with her sitting there, acting so perfect like nothing was wrong, nothing had happened. It made Serverus angry. Angry to the point he wanted to scream, yet he couldn't bring himself to hate her.

The sun shone brightly and most the students where outside enjoying themselves. Serverus was outside but he was not enjoying himself. He sat underneath the shade of a tiny tree. Alone. He was always alone. He was studying for his N.E.W.T.S. A feminine shriek startled him from his studying. Serverus's head snapped up and he could see James Potter carrying Lily Evans toward the lake. She was laughing and yelling for him to put her down. He faked like he was going to throw her in the lake. She laughed and yelled some more. James then turned around and got a devilish grin on his face. He stopped and fell backwards.

"Opps I fell." James said, as a soaked Lily looked at him startled. She tried to look angry but ended up smiling and splashing water on him. Which didn't make any sense, being he was already wet.

Serverus's eyes wandered away from the couple and his eyes fell upon another. Remus and Sarah. He didn't know what it was about the two but that something made all the other girls sigh and look off dreamily. Maybe it was because Remus was a hopeless romantic. Maybe it was because he fed her poetry and muttered sweet little words in her ear when they were alone. Or maybe it was the way the two could sit there and gaze into each other's eyes for hours. All the girls thought it was adorable. It made Serverus want to be sick. Remus and Sarah sat in the shade of their own tree, Peter sat with them. Sarah sat on Remus's lap as usual and the two were smiling and saying cutesy little things back and forth.

Serverus rolled his eyes and noticed another couple coming. Sirius and Faith. How perfect that they should walk by, her on his back and laughing about a joke Sirius had probably just told. Yes. How perfectly fitting. The two sat in the shade with Remus and Sarah just as Lily and James dragged themselves away from the water, clothes dripping. The group began to talk and Serverus switched off between watching them and studying. At one point Faith pointed her wand at Sirius and silenced him. The group gave a tremendous laugh, and even though she was far away, Serverus could clearly hear Faith's roar of a laugh. She had her head thrown back as usual. Sirius looked at the group with a stunned expression on his face. He then got a sly smile and tried to get Faith to change him back. When she shook her head, Sirius pounced on her and began to tickle her causing the group to continue on laughing.

Serverus wanted to be there. Wanted to be one of the 'popular' kids. He most of all he wanted to be Sirius. He wanted to be the one tickling Faith and have her be the one begging him to stop it as she laughed loudly. He could feel anger well up inside him and-

Serverus was brought out of his thoughts by the door opening. It opened slightly and someone walked in. That someone came and sat in the chair in front of the desk. They leaned forward and moonlight hit their face. Faith.

"I've figured something out." She said.

"Oh…and what's that?" he questioned.

"That we're all that's left." Faith said. Serverus just raised an eyebrow.

"Think about it. We're the only survivors. I mean there is Sarah and Remus but they have to take care of each other. Me and you, We have to stick together." Faith said. Serverus was taken aback. Could she really be saying what she thought he was saying? This didn't make any sense.

"As friends of course." She put in. Serverus could feel his heart drop into his stomach and it slowly being eaten away. Of course, she was still loyal to Sirius. Only one more reason for Serverus to hate him.

"I see….and…what if I don't want to do that?" Serverus asked bitterly. Faith looked like she had been struck in the face. Serverus thought it would make him feel better, bit it didn't, it only made him feel guilty.

"Why do you have to be so bitter?" Faith shot back.

"Why do you have to be so childish?" He retorted. Faith just got up and stormed out of the room.

'Good. Leave.' He thought as he began to drift back into his memory

He could feel anger well up inside him and he quickly returned to his studying. He shut out the noises all around himself. An hour maybe two passed when a sharp slap on the back of his head broke Serverus away from his book.

"Whatcha reading Snivillus?" Sirius asked.

"Sod off Black." Serverus said.

"Not to nice is his?" James said with an evil grin.

"Maybe we should teach him a lesson ya think?" Sirius said, returning James's grin.

"Maybe a nice swim in the lake otta do it." James said looking down on Serverus.

"It just might." Sirius said. Before Serverus could even react the boys and grabbed him by the arms and were leading…more like dragging…him towards the lake.

"James Potter set him down!" A loud voice yelled. James looked back at the voice and smiled and said

"But Lilllyyyyyy." In a whiny voice.

"No. Set him down." Lily said sternly.

"Come on James. Lake." Sirius said egging James on. Suddenly someone smacked Sirius upside the head.

"What do ya think you're doing?" Faith asked angrily.

"Nothing." Sirius said with an innocent smile.

"Huh…funny that. Why don't you set Serverus down." Faith said motioning to Serverus.

"Sure thing." Sirius said smiling still. He let go of him just as James did and Serverus landed with a loud thud.

"Sorry about that." Faith said. Serverus looked up and Faith extended a hand to help him up.

"I'll see you Saturday to help you with Charms?" Faith asked.

"Yeah." Serverus said. Sirius came and dragged Faith off. She looked back and came him a comforting smile. Serverus stuffed his hands in his pockets and turned around, returning to his tree.

'Why do I have to be so bitter?' Severus thought. 'She's done nothing to me except be nice and friendly.'

'She also never went out with you.' A voice said in the back of his head. It sounded remarkably like Lucius Malfoy.

'What does it matter though? Shes just another stupid mudblood.' The voice said.

'Is not! Her moth and father were both magical.' Serverus thought back.

'Her mother's parents are muggles. That means she's tainted with their blood too. Mud Blood!' The voice said coldly.

'Maybe I should apologize.' Serverus thought.

'Stop that! She is a mudblood. Worthless. Don't worry about her!' The voice spat.

Faith lit a fire and then threw her wand on the bed when she heard a knock at her door. She cracked the door open and saw Serverus standing there. She opened the door fully and waited for him to speak.

"Listen…I just wanted to say…sorry for calling you childish." He said.

"Yeah. I'm sorry for calling you bitter." Faith said.

"Truce?" he asked extending a hand. Faith smirked and shook his hand.

"Truce." She replied.

"I'll see you tomorrow." He said and then left.

"Your so stupid, making peace with that mudblood." A voice said from behind. Serverus turned and saw Kreacher standing there.

"Master Malfoy will not be pleased with this. Oh no he will not." Kreacher said, his lips curling into a wicked grin.

(A/N: Who is your favorite male character (ex: Sirius, James, Remus, Serverus etc) ?)