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Chapter 12- It's my life
Once we become involved with pain, there is a natural instinct to end it, but the question that we ask ourselves is how?
She put her scissors down and rushed to the bathroom. She opened the door to the medicine cabinet and there it was. A bottle of pills. She took the pills in her hands and opened its childproof lid. She put the whole bottle of pills in her hand and took the tiny plastic cup on the counter below the sink. She starthe door opened without any hesitation. She looked in and her eyes saw nothing, only the darkness and of the house and the feel of the cold air conditioning cooling off the house.
"Amy" She called as she steeped in apprehensively…
"Amy" Amy stopped to hear her name being called out somewhere in the house, but it was so quiet that Amy thought it was just her mind messing with her. She looked back at her self in the mirror one last time…
"Amy" Serena said again going down the hard wooden halls of the house until she saw the bathroom light on underneath the door…
Knock- Knock
"Amy" She called as she steeped in apprehensively…
"Amy" Amy stopped to hear her name being called out somewhere in the house, but it was so quiet that Amy thought it was just her mind messing with her. She looked back at her self in the mirror one last time…
"Amy" Serena said again going down the hard wooden halls of the house until she saw the bathroom light on underneath the door…
Knock- Knock
The knock on the door was so sudden that Amy spilt the water in her soggy plastic cup on the floor and onto her jeans as some of the pills in her hands fell to the hard wood floors, making tiny little droplet sounds as they hit.
"Amy it's me Serena, are you alright in there?" Serena said putting her ear to the door. Amy didn't answer as she opened the door for Serena in a hurry. Serena saw her scared face as she saw the pills scattered on the floor before Amy hugged her, almost squeezed her in her horror of what she was about to do.
"Amy are you ok?" Serena asked holding onto her friend.
"I just want it to stop, make it stop" Amy said crying hysterically.
"God I want it to end Sere" Heavy sobs came out of her voice as she held onto Serena's body slipping down to the cold floor. Her knee bone rubbed hard against the floor as she slipped still holding onto Serena. Serena knelt down on the floor to be at Amy's level as she weeped in Serena's lap.
"I want it to end Sere, it wont end" she said faintly between her sobs.
"Amy it's going to be alright" Serena said stroking her friends hair as gently as she could even though her hands were shaking with terror. Amy was going to kill herself, if Serena wasn't on her way to see her. The what ifs started to go through Serena's head as Amy still laid on the cold floor wanting for it all to end. Suddenly Amy's mood changed as she got up from Serena's lap and started to scramble for pills on the floor and putting them in her mouth.
"It's got to end" She started to say like a crazy lunatic as she searched with wide eyes in the bathroom for more and more pills to swallow.
"No Amy" Serena said pulling back her friend who looked like she was possessed by the devil, though in reality was only fighting against her pain.
"Amy stop" Serena said holding her friend back from retrieving any more pills on the floor as Amy kicked and screamed in Serena's grasp.
"No, no, no" She said again and again to herself as heavy tears of pain and sorrow fell down her face. Slowly Amy started to calm down as she cried soft tears in Serena's lap. She closed her eyes slowly only seeing the light in the bathroom flicker as Serena kept her in her lap. Serena looked at her friend who was sleeping in her lap and started to cry…
The truck on the street honked its horn as Rei blew the smoke out of her mouth from her cigarette. She through it onto the ground and smashed it with her foot as she pulled her purse over her shoulder and started to walk down the street. As she walked down the street she saw a black car following her. She thought it was a guy who wanted something from her as he pulled up next to her. She stopped and watched the window roll down to reveal Darien.
"Get in" He said as she looked at him and opened the door to get in. He drove down the street as both were silent, until Rei finally spoke.
"I killed Thomas" she said with soft, yet scared eyes.
"Rei, you had no right…"
"He tried to kill Lita, Mother fucker wasn't going to get away with it"
"So what are you going to do now Rei?" Darien asked her as he looked back between Rei and the road in front of him.
"I don't know, stay out here for a while, earn some money. I know this guy who lives in Portland and he said I could stay with him for awhile"
"So you're just going to run away"
"Well what fucking else am I supposed to do. I don't have any thing that's keeping me here"
"I think your being a coward Rei. You're like my little sis ever since you moved hear back in junior high, and I've seen you bad, but Rei this is ridiculous. Your dirty, your hair looks like it hasn't been washed in days, and Rei your eyes"
"What's wrong with my eyes?" She asked defensively while looking at her eyes in the visor mirror in the car. She looked and didn't see anything.
"Rei," He said slowly, "their dead" Rie looked into the mirror and saw that her eyes were dead. They seemed to not be alive, like someone had already taken her life.
"I'm sure you could stay with Sere for awhile and get an actual job" Darien suggested as Rei continued to stare in the mirror and remember the poem she wrote a couple of years ago.
Mirror, mirror on the wall, who is the fool among us all,
Mirror, mirror will I fall tomorrow, or continue to live in life's sorrow
Mirror, mirror, on the wall, who is the saddest of us all,
Mirror, Mirror will I become scared and curl in a ball
Mirror, mirror on the wall you're the problem of us all
We look at you and you trick us that we are someone else and now that I have looked at you every day I can't find myself in this world of misery and pain
So mirror, mirror on the wall, one day it will come to an end, and you wont lie to me any more
"Rei did you hear me" Darien asked her as she snapped back into reality.
"Yeah, I'll look into it then" Rei said as she looked at her self in the mirror still.
"Thank you" Darien said with a smile, hoping that Rei would be alright.
"No problem" She said thinking of her poem still, especially the last stanza,l as she closed the mirror in the visor.
Well I'm sorry if it was so short. I wanted to update for you guys, and yes i will be putting some romance between Serena and Darien, DON'T WORRY. But please keep reading, it's only the beginning. (gasp) lol.