Title: What My Heart Desires
Author: Marik chan
Type: Romance/Drama
Rated: R
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh!
Warning: This story is Yaoi meaning a malemale relationship! You don't like it then what the hell are you doing here? Flames are not tolerated and are used to roast various Yu-Gi-Oh characters! I do accept suggestions and critic!
Summary: Marik gets beat by his Yami. Badley! And only wishes to be fe freed from it with death. Yami Mariks boyfriend, Bakura, and Ryou, Mariks best friend are beginning to get on to it. When Bakura finds out will he help the hikari or take his loves side? Eitherway Marik still loves the albino...
Warning: Lemon in this chapter! Don't like then skip! I warned you so don't flame for it because I wont show you any sympathy!!
Yami Marik chan: LEMON!!! Haha more like rape! You phsychopath!
Marik chan: Hey you are my Yami ok?! Who else did I get from?
Yami Marik chan: Yeah sure ok!!
Thanks to:
Kasbaka: I insist that you keep reading and this! And reviewing!! Im glad you like it!
Swtdreams07: Im sorry...I know that wasn't very good...I winced to while writing that scene... im gonna try and make it better in later chapters. In this chapter im afraid im gonna have to make it worst!!! (Crys)
YMC: Damn hysterical Hikari!!!
Chibi B-channie. Its so sad isint it? And pretty angsty! Im glad your still reviewing!!
Hoshi-Yuki: Well its gonna take a little while longer till they figure it out. Ryous really close though. Actually he already knows he just needs proof.
Chibi MousieandA.k.aBlue: Aww dont stop being a fan from Yami Marik...So hes a little brutal in this story...hes still a cool guy isint he? And yes there will be better days!! Or so he hopes...
Angel of roses: Wow!!! Such a sweet review!!! Thankyou (hugs)
Sanosuke-and-megumi-fan: GAH!!! You killed one of my main characters!! Oh boy...thats not good...what am i gonna do without a Yami Marik lol!!
Crystal-eyes200: Thankyou for reviewing! I know its sad... i wince every now and then too...poor Marik... (cuddles him) You should cuddle him to.
Y.Bakura/Y.Malik Fan: I feel sorry for him too!!!! (Crys) Well yeah he is pretty mean but not this mean!!
Chapter 4
So much light
And warmth
Where am I?
Im afraid to open my eyes
Yet...
I don't feel any pain
Am I dead?
Oh gods please say im dead!
Marik opened his eyes to find himself in his room. The curtains were open so that the suns rays were shining through to him. Why was he here? And where had the pain gone?
He removed the blanket looking down on his almost naked body. Only his leather boxershorts were on (MC: Drools). He was bandaged. But how? Who did this?
He slowly sat up in bed looking around for his Yami but didn't see him anywhere. Maybe he was gone?
As he got up out of bed he had to hold himself up by the wall. Were his ribs broken? No...they couldn't be. He reached the hallway and went down one step when "HIKARI!!" Yami Marik smiled blocking his way. "Your up early." "Good morning..." Marik replied weakly trying to back away unnoticingly. "Where ya going?" His darker half asked grabbing him by the wrist and pulling the light in for a kiss.
As the yami pulled away Marik looked around for an answer. "I was um..." "You were?" „I was...looking for you!"He finally stammerd. "Oh. Is that so?" He asked scooping the teen up in his arms. "Hai!" He said immidiatley cuddeling. "Mhm." Yami Marik smirked at his obidient slave.
As he put the light back onto the bed and straddeld him he couldn't help but notice the light shivering coming from Marik. "Whats wrong Hikari?" He asked. "Scared?" "N...no im just " "Well then we can take care of that." Yami Marik said leaning closer to him so his mouth was near his ear. "The doctor said I was supposed to take it light on you. But since you were looking for me and disobeyed me yesterday..." he said slowly letting his voice trail off so he could bite the skin on Mariks neck making new dark red spots appear.
No... I don't want to be hurt again! Not this tretourous pain again!Please...
Oh Ra spare me...
He had to fight back the hot burning tears as his Yami undressed himself and made his way down his body touching him again. He didn't want to be touched! He hated it when his Yami used him! But what was he supposed to do? He was nothing...
Master...You are my Master...
I am your slave...
Do as you wish...
He felt his Yamis tounge glide over the skin from his stomach were the bandages didn't cover it. Not liking it at all he closed his eyes and clenched his teeth together. "Mhm...are you impatient Hikari?" "No I..." "If your not impatient then why are you making such a face?" "I..." "If you cant hold it out any longer then say so. I was trying to take it slow on you this time but obviously you want it the hard way today." The yami grinned now ready to push inside of the Hikari.
Oh gods...
Please not again...
"Well then!" He slammed roughly inside Marik moaning as it tightend around his member. Marik not able to hold back his cries any longer let out a loud scream.
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"Bakura...I think Yami Marik hits his Hikari." Ryou said as they were sitting on the couch watching tv. "What?! Wherd you get that from?" "Well I know its hard to believe at the moment because hes your boyfriend and all but...when I saw Marik at the sleepover party he had so many cuts and bruises...I asked him about them and he had so many different reasons for them. I asked him about the same scar twice and he gave me two different reasons." "But Ryou...I just don't think Yami Marik would do that...I mean...I know Marik does look pretty bad...but I just cant imagine him hitting Marik like that." "But Bakura! I know its hard to believe at the moment because you love him but...where elese would Marik get such scars and bruises from?" "Maybe he is telling the truth." "Bakura!" "No Ryou! Just drop it!" Bakura said getting up and leaving the room.
He knew Yami Marik could get violent at some point but he wouldn't just beat Marik, would he? Bakura had to admit he had urges to become violent as well but he never did. But how could his boyfriend hurt such a sweet precious boy? For gods sake he was beautiful why would he want to break something like that? OK now his little crush was getting out of hand. He shouldn't be thinking like that! He had a boyfriend and for christs sake Marik was way to young and weak. He had the urge to beat Marik once or twice before...but then again he had the urge to cuddle the boy and love him. Maybe because Ryou and Marik were so weak that it was just... "DAMN!" he swore letting himself fall onto the bed.
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"WHY DON'T YOU EVER LEARN!" Yami Marik yelled slapping the boy under him. "Im sorry!" Marik cried holding his cheek. "Well you know what? Sorrys just not gonna cut it this time!" He said fiercly slapping the teen again. "I've told you countless times to stop yelling! And you cry and yelp! Havent I tought you enough?!" he said now shaking Marik. "Im...im sorry!" He said again trying to stop the tears that flowd non stop. "Stop crying!!" Yami Marik yelled furiously while slapping and shaking the hikari non stop. Marik tried stopping but it all came out as muffeld choked sobs. "Fine! I'll give you 10 minutes time to make it up to me! And while your thinking you might as well clean your face up!" his Yami said while getting up and leaving the room to go downstairs and watch some tv.
Marik sat on the bed for a moment sobbing. It all just hurt so bad. He gets beat so often...new bruises...new scratches...new scars...so much blood was shed. But what did it matter he was nothing... Just a pathetic weak Hikari!
He dragged himself to the bathroom looking into the mirror. His face looked horrible. He had dark bags under his eyes which were swollen and red. His cheek was bruised and he had a lump on his forehead. His hair was a mess and his body looked like it had been through hell and back. And that it was.
Turning on the water and splashing it on his face he stood over the sink trying to catch himself. How was he going to make it up to his Yami now? Ofcourse he knew what the darker half wanted...but he didn't want to get hurt again. But then again did he have a choice?
Limping back to his room heent to his dresser putting on the goldbands around his neck, arms, wirsts and ankels as he slipped on the beige kilt. (Sorta looks like a mini skirt except its made out of cloth and and not that tight. Oh hell if you guys want a picture of Marik in the outfit im describing write it in a review and ill send it to yas!!)
He snuck down the stairs hoping that Yami Marik wouldn't catch him. He took a look at the teen and saw him sitting on the couch glaring angerly at the tv. ,Yeah...hes still mad..., Marik sieghed in his thoughts.
Gods...How I wished I knew what real love felt like...
He went down the rest of the stairs and walked over to the furious Yami standing in front of him. Yami Marik looked up at him. "Hikari..." he said flatley. Marik came up to him and sat on his lap pulling him in for a deep passionate kiss. He cringed when his yami let out a moan in his mouth and then made the kiss more fierce.
Oh Ra... Here it comes...Marik trying to ignore the tears that were dreading to fall but he still returned the kiss and ran his fingers under his Yamis shirt pulling it off. "Mmm." Marik moaned trying to make it sound like he was enjoying it. Immidiatley he was thrown onto the couch and felt a hand slide under between his legs. He didn't want to be touched by Yami Marik but what was he supposed to do? He would only get beat black and blue. While they were making "love" Marik sometimes wished it was Bakura...
"Cry for me my little Hikari..."
Marik moaned hating himself that his body betrayed him. He hated it but his body was showing something else.
Yami Marik started kissing his way up to Mariks ear and nibbeld around it before shoving his tounge in as he continued to stroke Mariks desire. "Yami!" Marik moaned clutching onto him still trying to fight back hot tears.
Im nothing... So weak...So much pain...
Gods please spare me this pain!
Yami Marik quickly disposed of their clothes and was now kissing his way down Mariks neck occasionaly nipping at it. He slowly moved down to his chest and started to nurture his Hikaris nipples. Marik bit his lip holding back a cry as he felt short pains everytime the Yami bit down. "Whats wrong Hikari? Your so still..." he growled. "Gomen..." Yami Marik bit down again making Marik try to muffel the cry with a moan as he arched his back making the twos hips grind together for a short moment.
That was a mistake. Yami Marik immidiatley began to continue the process while smirking. "Arent we impatient today." "H...hai...Take me!!" Marik cried returning the movements. "Well then..." Yami Marik pushed into the tight opening this time softer. Again Marik tried moaning instead of shrieking.
Ra...Just let me die in the process...
I don't want to be hurt anymore...
I cant do this anymore...
He heard Yami Marik moan in delight. He just couldn't hold back his tears anymore and so he let them fall still clutching to his Yami.
The pain that he was spared from this morning all returned with full force. His ribs ached and his heart hurt. He was just a toy.
"Aww...Hikari whats wrong? I'm already going easy on you. No need to cry." Yami Marik said tearing Marik out of his thoughts. "I just...um..." "Don't you even think about lying to me!" Marik tried leaning up to hug his Yami but was forced back down. "Am I hurting you Hikari?" he asked angerly now thrusting harder into his Hikari. "N...no love!" "Well then cut the hystarics!" he replied slapping the already bruised cheek of his light. Marik tried to get his tears under control. When he knew he was failing he pulled the Yami into a breath taking kiss.
Yami Marik rode into Marik more fiercly. "Well arent you gonna cry out? Hm? You are good at it." The Yami said. "No." "But I want to hear you cry." "I...I cant." "You cant or your just to afraid?" "I...I cant." "Well what about now?" Yami Marik asked slamming in harder and bitting down on his neck again. Marik bit on his bottom lip and clutched the Yami closer. "No...I wont." "Mhm..." Yami Marik grinned at his Hikari. "How obdient my light can be." He said stroking the soft bruised cheek. "And you just make me hurt you so much." He said running his finger over Mariks lips. Marik slowley started to kiss his fingertip while taking his hand in both of his and now kissing the other fingers. "My small precious Hikari..." Marik winced as he felt Yami Mariks other hand stroke his cheek tenderly and began to wipe away the drops of tears that still clung to it.
He felt as his Yami slowed the pace and was now moving inside of him with slow soft rhythmic movements. Marik opened his mouth pushing one of his Yamis fingers in his mouth and sucked on it. He heard as the dark moaned with delight and thrust into him. He took in another finger and began to nurture that one to. Again he heard a low moan escape his Yamis lips. He took the fingers out of his mouth and leaned up to kiss Yami Marik.
Ra why must I do this?I want to be loved...
But who would love a nothing?
Im so alone...
Again tears started to stream down his face.
Yami Marik began to taste the salt and stopped kissing the hikari. "Whats your problem now?" He growled. "I...just..." "Well?!"
Marik had no idea what to say. If he told the truth he would get beaten again and the pain would get worst but he couldn't think of a lie at the moment.
"TELL ME!!" He heard the demanding voice. As he opened his eyes he saw his Yami was preparing to swing at him. "I just feel so happy to be in your arms that I had to cry! For joy!!" he cried out shielding his face.
Yami Marik lowerd his hand. "Well then why didn't you say that sooner?" He asked placing his arms under Mariks back and hugging him close. Marik did as he was taught and wrapped his arms around the other teen crying silently.
Soon Yami Marik shudderd to a climax and colapsed upon his Hikari falling asleep after a few deep breaths.
Marik held the teen close and wailed. But quietly afraid to awake the sleeping teen.
Finally he cried himself to sleep with the still sleeping Yami on top of him.
MC: I hope I didn't have to many spelling mistakes! I dint really proof read!! So review please! 3 reviews and the next chapter shall be posted!!!