Title: What My Heart Desires
Author: Marik chan
Type: Romance/Drama
Rated: R
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh!
Warning: This story is Yaoi meaning a malemale relationship! You don't like it then what the hell are you doing here? Flames are not tolerated and are used to roast various Yu-Gi-Oh characters! I do accept suggestions and critic! Thankyou (smile)
Summary: Marik gets beat by his Yami. Badly! And only wishes to be fe freed from it with death. Yami Mariks boyfriend, Bakura, and Ryou, Mariks best friend are beginning to get on to it. When Bakura finds out will he help the hikari or take his loves side? Eitherway Marik still loves the albino...
Marik chan: La Li Ho!!!! IM BAAAAACK!!!
Yami Marik chan: Oh boy if your fans are gonna continue to let you live for that LONG ASS WAIT!!! (shoves Hikari out of the way) COME ON GUYS!! DONT TAKE IT TOO EASY ON HER!! SHE LET YOU GUYS WAIT SOOO LONG!! TAKE REVENGE!!
Marik chan: He he he (sweatdrop) Yami... your making it worst!
Yami Marik chan: Dont worry Hikari...this is for your own good (smirks)
Marik chan: (shivers)
Yami Marik chan: (smirks wider) Stupid Hikari...
Thanks to:
Yami Marik chan: First of all i wanna thank all of you for being so patient with my little Hikari (smirks at her) and now you will all become your picture and your next chapter. And ofcourse you can all let out your frustration and long ass wait on her! (grins eavily holding the melliniums rod he borrowed)
BloodyNight: Yami Mariks not all that mean...hes just mad because Mariks being a bad little Hikari! Glad you loved the chapter though!
tsesshn: Glad you loved the story! And i hope you keep reviewing! For my Hikaris sake at least!!
Chibi B-channie: Look Hikari its one of your friend you usually write emails with! Whats up with that? You cant let her wait that long!! She loves your fic!!
Hoshi-Yuki: Another great reviewer thats gonna read your story till the end Marik chan! Isint that great!!
kasbaka: Im sure Ryou and Bakura will find out soon enough. Although Ryou allready knows or atleast is getting on to it. The problem is will Bakura believe his Hikari or his lover? Thanks for reviewing makes my Hikari a verrry happy little camper (evil smirk)
carlia: Itll get better! Marik suffers a lot but he doesent die. Not yet atleast! Right Marik chan?
Marik chan: (still sitting in a dark corner shaking)
StrwbryPcky: Well we could all use something new! Not always Joe getting abused by his dad or Seto. Or Bakura abusing Ryou! Were working on the proof reading and the spacing.
swtdreams07: The picture is coming right up! Just dont drool all over it (smiles)
Y.Bakura/Y.Malik fan: Well if you have a hot guy living with you you probably just cant resist. Hes not really cheating on Bakura. Thats his Hikari and Hikaris and Yamis also have a special bond with or without boyfriend i guess you can say. Just look at me and my Hikari! We have a reallll special bond to! (smirks wider)
Chibi MousieandA.k.aBlue: Yup we still have the pic! Be sending it soon!
duo890: Were working on the updating! It may get complicated cause of school! But it will be sooner than this time!
orangeaura868: Its gonna take a little while till things get better! First things are gonna get a little complicated and worst! Gomen Nasai!
Angel of Roses: Hell we got more than 3 reviews! Thank gods for that! Marik chans such a happy camper now! Sorry for the long wait! Its gonna be improving! Ill make sure of that!
UJ: Marik chan! Did you read that your evil! I must be having a bad effect on you! COOL!
Ashley: Thanks for the compliment! Ill be given it out to her! Yup the summary sort of gives some stuff away bot there is a surprise in chapter 7 and 8. And a soon to be lemon between an unknown pair! Can you guess who? Thanks for the cool review! And since you asked for it ill be givin Bakura and Marik a lemon!
987Gina: Torturing Marik is fin! Just as much fin as toruring my Hikari Marik chan! (smirk)
read: So sorry for the long wait! Its hard to update! And yes we had more than 3 reviews! Incest? You think so? They arent related really...dont have the same blood and in this story they are in different bodys they just share a mindlink! Heres chapter 5 for ya though!
Chapter 5
Marik awoke earlier than usual the next morning. Still feeling the warmth of his Yami he looked over to him. He looked like an innocent child when he slept. No sign of bad or evil about him. Maybe that's why Bakura fell in love with him. He doesnt want some weakling like him. No one does. For he is a nothing. A worthless toy only to be fucked and then thrown into a dark corner again.
The tears started to weasel their way down his cheeks again but he caught them and slowly moved to get out of his Yamis grip. Every now and then he winced as pain shot through his body. Not only from his ribs but from last night.
Cringing he got up and took a last look at his Yami before escaping upstairs into his bedroom. He sank to the floor now letting the tears flow freely.
Gods why must I be so used?
Its hurts so bad...
Please let me end this pain now...
Marik stood up and limped to his dresser where he pulled out a sharp silver dagger.
Please let me end this pain now...
He closed his eyes letting the last of his tears drop before holding the dagger to his wrists. "No more!" He cried ready to slice. But suddenly his door swung open and a fully clothed Yami Marik stood in the doorway looking shocked at what he saw. Marik immidiatly dropped the knife and took a step back.
Yami Marik, once out of his shock, took a step forward and picked up the knife. "What the hell were you thinking?" He asked, his voice a low growl.
"I...I..."
"Were you trying to kill yourself?"
"No!"
"YOU LIE!!!" He shouted throwing the knife to the other end of the room. "WERE YOU TRYING TO KILL YOURSELF MARIK?!" Marik knew there was no way out of this one. "Yes..."
"WHY?!" Before Marik could answer he was slammed into the wall. "I ASKED YOU A QUESTION!! ANSWER ME??!"
The end of all bad things will never come for me...
Im trapped.
"IF I EVER CATCH YOU DOING THAT AGAIN YOU WILL NEED A DOCTOR!! AND YOU CAN SAY GOODBYE TO RYOU AS WELL!!" He yelled slapping Marik to the ground.
He was mad. He was really angry. He would be lucky if he could just die right now.
"I don't believe you!" He ranted kicking Marik in his already bruised ribs. "How could you even think about something like that?!" He ranted continueing to kick the Hikari.
"Yami Marik please stop!!" Marik cried out now coughing out blood. Yami Marik kicked him one last time before picking up the cowering boy by his hair. "Don't you ever even think about doing that again! You understand me?!"
"Hai!" Marik cried not being able to contol his tears. Yami Marik glared at him one last time before throwing him to the floor.
"Now put something descent on because were going to Kuras!"
"Yes..."
As soon as the Yami left Marik broke down and cried.
Your kicks...
Your punches...
Why must you be so brutal?
Why cant you just love me instead?
Marik put on something to cover up most of his body. A black turtle neck that sat snuggly on him and a pair of beige pants.
He then went into the bathroom to look at his reflection in the mirror.
What he saw did not surprise him nor did it shock him. His bruised cheek was bulging and his hair was a mess. His eyes were red and puffy from crying and his cheeks were still wet and sticky from it.
He sieghed heavily splashing cool water on his face. It helped but not much...
His Yami came upstairs. "You look a mess." He said taking a brush and running it through the Hikaris hair.
Marik looked at their reflection in the mirror. To anyone they could look like a happy couple. His Yami was smiling slightley as he combed through the golden blonde locks and had one arm wrapped around his waist. Only one thing was disturbing the picture at the moment.
Mariks depressed smile showed a world full of hate and pain. But the outside helped as well. The bruised cheek and the tear stained eyes showed that he was unhappy.
So weak...
So nothing...
So pathetic...
Im nothing...
The dark rich voice tore him out of his thoughts. "I suggest you behave when we visit Bakura."
"Hai..."
"Don't you even say one wrong word to Ryou! You got that?!" Yami Marik growled suddenly pressing Marik closer to him and pointing the brush at his face.
"I wont my love."
"Good..." Yami Marik continued to brush the Hikaris hair.
On the way to Bakuras house they walked in mostly silence. "Whats so great about that Ryou kid anyway?" Yami Marik asked. He knew Ryou was Bakuras Hikari but he never talked much to the teen. Although he felt a certain attraction to the teen every now and then. His features were different than his boyfriends. He had softer more innocent eyes and his skin was so pale almost gohstly but he enjoyed it all the same when they shook hands because it was so petal soft.
"Well..." He was torn out of his thoughts as his Hikari spoke. "He has a really good heart! And hes all you can ever wish for." He felt a glare from his Yami directed at him. "I mean as a friend!!" He quickly added. They arrived at Bakuras house and Marik found himself letting out a sigh he hand no idea he was holding back.
Ryou opened the door his cheery smile plasterd on his face like always.
Gods how I wish I could be like you...
So free...
Without a care in the world...
Oh Ryou...
Please...
Help me.
"Hiya guys hows it, Gods what happened to your face Marik?!" Ryou asked shocked.
"I um..." He felt a cold glare piercing his back. "Ran into a door last night! That's all."
"Howd that happen?"
"Well Yami Marik opened the door and I was standing on the other side and then well smack!"
"Oh...you want some ice to cool it?" Ryou asked not believing it one bit as he let the two teens in.
"Oh no Ryou its ok really."
"I insist!" Ryou said dragging him into the kitchen.
Bakura walked past the two looking confused at first until he saw the bruised cheek. No...Yami Marik wouldn't hit his Hikari. He just wouldn't! He looked up facing his lover who was smirking. "Is something?" Yami Marik asked.
"No! Nothing..."
"Well then come here you sexy bad ass tomb robber."
"Hm hm don't get me started Kirei-chan." Bakura grinned in return.
"I'll have to think about that." Yami Marik smirked pulling the tomb robber in for a kiss.
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"So what happend?" Ryou asked as he made sure that they were alone in the kitchen.
"What do you mean?"
"To your face."
"I told you already I ran into the door that Yami Marik opened."
"Or did he do it on purpose, Marik!"
"No! Why would he do something like that on purpose?"
"Marik..."
"Ryou he does nothing of the sort!"
"Marik I know your Yami abuses you!"
"He does not!"
"Oh yeah? Then whered you get that scratch from?" He asked pulling up the sleeve from the sweater a bit and pointing to a scratch on Mariks arm.
"From...a bike accident. I fell off my bike!"
"You see! That's what I mean! At Yugis sleepover you told me because the neighbors cat scratched you! Then I asked you again and you told me because you scrapped it against a brick wall and now because you fell off your bike! So which one is it Marik?! Or is it because your Yami abuses you!"
Marik looked at Ryou in shock. How did he become Sherlock Holmes all of the sudden?
"Ryou..." Ryou frowned grabbing his friends hand and dragging him out into the living room where the two darker halfs sat. "Ryou no! What are doing?! Let me go!!" He said trying to yank himself away from the albino but it was two late he was already standing in front of the two.
His Yami was obviously not pleased and had a hint of surprise in his face.
"Whats wrong Ryou?" Bakura asked.
"This is whats wrong!" He said thrusting Marik forward. "Hes litterd with scratches, scars, cuts and bruises! You cant tell me that that bruis is from running into a door! Just look at him!!!" Ryou shouted lifting up the black shirt.
Ryou took in a sharp breath seeing the bandages and new bruises. "YOU!!" He pointed at Yami Marik. "I knew it!! You beat him! How can you do this!!" He said lunging himself at Yami Marik.
"Ryou stop!!" Marik shouted. Bakura held his thrashing Hikari back.
"Why do you blame me Ryou?" Yami Marik asked calm as he watched how Ryou thrashed in Bakuras arms.
"Because I can see it in your eyes and the way you look at him! I,"
"That's enough Ryou!" Bakura said.
"But Bakura I know he beats his Hikari!"
"No! He doesent!" Marik cried out.
"You keep it out of this Marik! I know he does it! Your just to afraid to admit it!" Ryou shouted angurly.
Oh gods...
What if they find out?
I cant let it happen!
No one can help me then!
I'll die in the haands of my Yami!
But isint that what I've wanted all along?
,What did you tell him?!, He heard his Yami ask through the mindlink.
,Nothing! I just told him that I ran into the door that you were opening and then he asked about another scratch and flipped out...,
,You had to tell him something!,
Marik wanted to reply but his Yami had already closed the mindlink.
"Maybe its best if we leave." Yami Marik said standing up.
"But Kirei chan..." Bakura protested.
"You can leave allright! But Marik stays here!!"
"Ryou cut it out already!" Bakura snapped.
"Well Hikari I guess its up to you. Do you want to stay here?" Yami Marik asked as sweetly as possible.
Marik would have loved to stay here but the glint in his Yamis eyes and the anger that swept through their mindlink told him it was not such a good idea to say yes.
"No thanks for the offer though you guys but id rather head back home." He smiled the best way he could manage.
"What are you crazy?! What if he kills you?!" Ryou shouted.
"RYOU!!!" Bakura snapped. "That's enough!"
"Come then Hikari." Yami Marik said heading for the door. "Im sorry about his behaivour..." Bakura said as he walked them to the door. "Its not your fault Kura." Yami Marik said pressing his lips against the other.
"I'll call you." Bakura said purring as he felt Yami Mariks hand trail up and down his back.
"I'll be waiting for your call love." He said giving Bakura another chast kiss before leaving.
On the way home the Yami said absoloutly nothing which only made the Hikari shiver more in his skin. "Yami Marik?" He asked after 5 minutes of silence.
He got no answer. "Y...Yami?" He tried again but it failed.
Oh gods...
I've only made it worst!
Im such a disobdient slave!
I deserve my punishment...
Marik looked over at his Yami. There were no signs of emotion on his face. Marik tried taking his hand but he only yanked it away and continued to walk.
They got home in complete silence. Marik shut the door behind him and looked at his Yami who stopped a few paces in front of Marik his back turned. "Um... I," He started but was slapped brutally to the floor.
„What the hell were you thinking?!" He heard his Yami shout. "Did you tell Ryou?! DID YOU?!" Yami Marik asked while tearing off Mariks shirt.
"No I,"
"Then how the hell did he find out?!"
"I don't know!!"
"What have I told you about that answer?!"
"Gomen Nasai!"
"Well sorrys just not gonna cut it this time Marik!!" He said kicking Marik repeatedly in the chest. "Did you show him something?!"
"NO!!" Marik wailed.
"Then why the fuck did he accuse me of beating you?!!" He asked kicking Marik hard in his ribs.
"He just saw a scratch..."
"Oh yeah?! And a scratch is enough to blame me?! Is it?! You know I hate liars!"
"Im not lying..."
"Then tell me what a scratch has to do with it?!"
"I...gave him 3 different answers..."
"3 different answers?! WHY?!! GET UP!!!" He shouted in rage.
Marik did as he was told and slowly got up from the floor wincing as new pain shot through his body. "You did that on purpose didn't you Hikari?!" He asked pressing his lips on his Hikaris petal soft ones who tried to return it.
Yami Marik tore away from him now ripping off his pants. "How the hell did he find out Marik?!"
"I...I..."
"TELL ME!!!" He said punching the Hikari back down to the floor. "Get up!" He ordered again
It hurts so bad...
I cant move...
Is this how my life goes on?
A never ending brutal bloodshed life...
I just want to die...
With or without Bakuras love...
It doesnt matter anymore...
For Im so alone...
So helpless...
So lost...
So weak...
Im nothing...
„Didnt you hear me?! I said get up!" He said kicking the Hikari more.
"I...I cant..."
"Your so weak! And so pathetic! Your nothing! So worthless!!" He knelt down beside Marik and slammed him into the door spreading his legs apart and entering him with force.
"Why did you do that Ryou?" Bakura asked with rage.
"Because I know he beats Marik!" Ryou said also angry.
"He doesent!!"
"Why else does Marik have bandages?!"
"That doesent concern you Ryou!"
"Bakura! I know he beats his featherlight!"
"NO! HE DOESENT!!!" Bakura snapped.
"HE DOES!!"
"NO! RYOU!!!"
"I know he beats Marik!"
"SHUTUP!!!" Bakura growled slapping Ryou with full force.
Ryou looked up at Bakura his face full of shock and hurt.
"Oh gods...what have I done?" He mutterd more to himself also in a deep state of shock.
"Ryou..." He started but was shaking furiously.
"He doesent hit Marik OK?!" He growled storming out of the room.
Ryou held his cheek, his eyes wide, his mind whizzing and his heart throbbing at an unsteady pace.
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"Yami! Please it wont ever happen again!!" Marik cried out as he was still being slammed into the door.
"Ohh no! Your not getting out of this one!" Yami Marik said with a physcho look in his eyes and kept pounding into Marik.
"Yami Marik please..." Marik begged again.
They were in this position for two and a half minutes but it hurt like hell. Tears were streaming down his bruised cheeks, his hair was soaked from sweat and his clothes clung to him. He was hurting all over.
"SHUTUP!!" Yami Marik shouted slapping the teen beneath him again.
Im so weak...
So helpless...
It hurts so bad...
I want to be free...
Free like a bird...
Gods...
Please help me...
Just please...
Help me...
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