The pair pulled apart slowly and looked into each others eyes with an identical look of surprise on each of their faces. Both of their mouths were hanging open and there was a few seconds of silence before Harry spoke first...
'What the bloody hell was that?' Hermione looked at him and he had the strangest look of complete and utter shock on his face that she burst out laughing. He looked at her for a second looking very hurt. 'Was I that bad?' He asked with dead seriousness.
This only made Hermione laugh more. 'No,' she gasped, struggling to breathe 'I was laughing at your face. You looked so surprised.'
Harry relaxed and smiled back. 'Well, aren't you suprised?' he asked with a tone of mocking in his voice, 'I know, you've been planning this for months, haven't you. This whole time travel thing has been one big, evil plot to ensnare me!' Harry could barely finish this joking accusation for laughing so hard.

They moved apart and just looked at each other for a second.
'I think that was a mistake,' Hermione said in a tone that said that she didn't think it was a mistake, she knew it was.
'Oh, thank God you think so too,' said Harry gasping a sigh of relief. 'So...still friends?' she enquired, tilting her head to one side.
'Always,' said Harry with a wink and pulled her into a hug.

God, he's just so sexy!
The group were still sat around the fire, about 45 minutes since Harry and Hermione had left and James was talking rather animatedly about something that Lily wasn't really listening to.

She had a horrible knot in her stomach whenever she looked at him now and was currently trying to avoid his gaze by taking a great interest in the game of chess that Sirius and Remus were playing, though if questioned she wouldn't even be able to tell you who was winning.

Her mind was in turmoil. It was almost like she had two little people in her head battling with each other over whether or not she should take him back. At the moment the person who was saying 'no' was winning but was finding it progressivly more difficult to hold his own. The bottom line was that yes she did love him and she wanted him more than anything else in the world, her body physically ached at the thought of never being able to hold him or touch him ever again, but she was scared. More scared than she had ever been in her entire life. What James had done to her had hurt her so much that she just wanted to curl up in a little ball and die, and she wasn't sure that she could handle going through that again. If she took James back and he broke her heart for a second time, she thought that she simply wouldn't have the strength to carry on and she couldn't risk that.

She loved him so much but she knew she couldn't be with him.

All of a sudden her chest felt a bit tight and she decided, she had to get out of here, she just had to get away from him.
'I'm hungry,' she said suddenly, 'I'm going to run down to the kitchens and get something to eat.' She got up to leave.
'Wait,' said James' voice, making her freeze in her position with her back to him and squeezed her eyes shut tight, 'I'll come with you, I'm starved.'
No, no, no, he cant come, I'm leaving to get away from him. What is he doing?
She just nodded and left the portrait hole with him following her.

She was walking as fast as she could in an attempt to loose him but he was keeping up easily. Neither of them said anything for a long time before suddenly he stopped walking and grabbed her arm.
'Lily, I know you hate me and I know you'll never forgive me, but I still love you and I always will and so if you ever want to give us another go I'll be waiting.'
He said this very quickly and it took Lily a moment to process it. She was suddenly very aware that he still had his hand on her arm.
'James, no.' She was shaking her head but he was still moving his face towards her.
'I love you, Lily.'
'No, you don...' But before she could finish her protest his mouth was on hers. Oh how she loved it. With his arms around her she felt so warm and safe but no...
She pulled away.
'James, no.' He hung his head without a word.
Now, walk away Lily. Go on. Just leave!
She couldn't.

Her legs just didn't seem to work.
Much to James' surprise she grabbed hold of him around the neck and pulled him towards her kissing him deeply and passionately, loving him so much.

'No!' Lily suddenly came to her senses and pulled away from James. She couldn't do this, it was wrong. 'I can't do this again,' she gasped and turned and ran. Muttering curses to her self as she did.
How could I be so stupid?
'Lily,' James said weakly as she fled around the nearest corner, his fingers moving to his lips where hers had just been.

James didn't move for quite some time. For just a moment there he had been happy again. He had thought that she would take him back. It had been a long time since he had been truely happy but when Lily had kissed him then he forgotton every bad thing that had ever happened to him and that was going on in the world. It was the he opposite of a dementor attach. All he knew was him and her. And that was James' idea of heaven.

But now...it had been ripped away from him again. All he felt was empty, that horrible pain in his heart had returned along with every bad feeling he had had since him and Lily broke up. Right there and then in that corridor, in plain view of everyone that may walk passed, the strong, popular, mighty James Potter...cried.

Lily kept on running until she was outside and then she kept on running until she reached the lake, where she collasped on the floor in tears. It was the very same spot where she had cried after the talent show but she was far too upset to realise that.
What was she thinking? She had given in in a moment of weakness.
Oh God, why do I have to love him so damn much?
She then went silent as though waiting for an answer. But none came.

She didn't need one anyway, she knew why she loved him. Because he was perfect, he was everything that she ever wanted. He was clever, good looking, kind, loving, funny, caring, he had a beautiful heart and he looked at her in a way that made her insides melt. But she could never take him back. As much as she loved him, he didn't love her. He couldn't love her and do what he did.
Oh, but it hurt so much. Just being apart from him was bad enough but having to spend every day around him was even worse. She didn't know how she was going to handle this.

Sirius, Em, Remus and Peter were all sat in the common room just talking idlely when the portrait door slammed open and Lily ran in, she didn't even look at them she just ran ran through the room and up into her dorm room.
'That was odd,' said Remus, 'wonder what happened.' The others shrugged and turned back to their conversation. It was barely 3 minutes later when the door opened again this time Hermione came in with tears in her eyes followed by Harry who looked equally distraught. Both of them didn't say a word, not even to each other they just headed up to their seperate bedrooms.
'What on Earth is going on here today?' exclaimed Em, 'has someone died and no-one has told us?' Once again the others simply shrugged and turned back to their conversation but Sirius barely got out his first joke when once again the portrait hole opened and James entered looking like he was in total shock. He was staring vacantly into space and just walked up into his room.
'Ok,' said Remus, 'We got to find out what's happened. Em, go and find out what's up with Lily and Hermione and me, Padfoot and Wormtail will check with the boys. Meet back here in 20 minutes.'
Em and Peter nodded at their missions and without another word stood up and went to where they should be.

Sirius however stood still for a moment, 'Did no-one else notice that they didn't bring back any food?' He huffed but shrugged and followed his friends upstairs.

'Ok, someone has got to tell me what the hell is going on, right now!' James and Harry looked up as Sirius entered the room in a very Sirius-like fashion. They were sat on their seperate beds and didn't look like they were speaking to each other before the others entered.
'Nothing,' they both muttered together. Remus raised his eyebrows at then giving them that dont-you-dare-lie-to-me expression.
'Ok,' said Harry, not wanting to anger a werewolf, 'There is something but I can't tell you what it is so don't stand there nagging me and going on because we're all allowed our secrets, aren't we Remus?' Harry knew that secrets were a weak spot of Remus' seeing as he had to keep one everyday of his life.
'Eh...well...yeah, course,' stuttered Remus, 'But what about you Prongs, what happened.'
James looked up from where he was lay on his bed. 'Lily kissed me.' He said simply. There were lots of 'wows' and 'that's great's' from around the room but James silenced them all, 'and then she ran away in hysterics.'
'Oh,' said Sirius.
No-one else said anything, they didn't know what to say.

Meanwhile in the girl's dorm
'What happened Lils?' asked Em. Hermione was hovering nearby, she had already refused to tell them what was wrong and so Em given up and moved on to Lily.
'I kissed James.'
'What?'
'What?' Hermione had joined the conversation at this news, forgetting her own situation momentarily.
Lily nodded.
'So, are you two back together then?' asked Em timidly.
'And then I ran away in tears.'
'Oh, Lily, why do you do this to yourself? You obviously love him. Just take him back.' It was Hermione who said this, glad that the conversation had turned from her.
'Because I don't trust him and as much as I love him it doesn't matter because he doesn't feel the same way.' Both girls opened their mouths to argue but they simultaneously shut them again. There was no way they were going to convince Lily that James did in fact love her because after what he did she no longer believed it and they had tried to make her believe them so many times before that they were starting to lose hope that she would ever believe it.
'It just hurts so much.' With that tears came to Lily's eyes and she broke down, 'It's just not...

Boy's room

'...fair,' James finished,'Why wont she believe me?' With that James broke down and cried not caring that there was a room full of people who were all now staring at him with scared expressions on their faces. The only thing he cared about was gone.

'You know what guys, I think we should go to Hogsmede for a few hours, everyone seems very tense and I think we could all do with the break.' Everyone looked up when Remus spoke. They were now all in the common room again, they others had had to literally drag the two miserable couples down from their rooms, an hour ago.
'Sounds like a plan,' said Sirius jumping up.
'Yeah, it might be fun to get out of here, we'll go and have a drink in the three broomsticks,' said Hermione, her spirits suddenly lifted slightly. Harry, Em and James both nodded in agreement.
'I don't think I'm gonna go,' said Lily.
'Oh no you don't,' said Sirius, 'You dont have a choice.'
'No, I'm not in the mood.'
Sirius raised an eyebrow and just stepped forward taking hold of Lily around her waist and he proceeded to pick her up over his shoulder and carry her out of the portrait hole, with Lily shrieking for him to put her down.
By the time they got to the bottom of the stairs that lead up to Honeydukes, Lily had quietened down and was looking fairly bored with her chin rested on her hand as Sirius carried her on.
He put her down outside of the shop and the group headed towards the Three Broomsticks. It was very cold and by the time they arrived they were welcome for the heat.

'Sirius, that's not physically possible,' insisted Hermione.
'Oh but it is oh nieve one.' Hermione shook her head, not believing a word he said.
Remus laughed, 'I'm going to get the drinks in, someone help me?'
Em said she would and the pair got up and walked to the bar.
'Seven butterbeers please Rosie,' asked Remus. The pretty girl behind the bar jumped as she heard his voice behind her back.
'Hey, what's wrong,' asked Em, looking concerned.
'Oh, I don't know, love, I just have this bad feeling something is up tonight.' Em narrowed her eyebrows. 'Probably nothing though,' continued Rosemerta. 'I'll get your drinks.'
She moved around behind the bar and collected the drinks they wanted, just then there was a ear-piercing scream from outside and she dropped the bottles. They shattered on the floor at her feet but she barely noticed. There was a look of horror on her face but hers wasn't the only one. Everyone in the pub had an intentical look of fear...

A/N Hey guys, soz dnt hav time to do review responses bt i wana thank everyone for their support and plz R&R