For a minute, she almost believes this is meant to be. Its only a second later that she hears a shout and realizes it was never meant to bethis way.
She never meant to kiss him that night at Sirius' house, and he never meant to kiss her back. She wasn't supposed to feel this way because she was in love with Harry, and Remus…
…He needed Sirius.
But with tongues and lips they made it work in a thousand different ways. If only for a night.
When Molly calls out to Ginny, and she pants back that everything's alright, she just broke a dish, Remus will cringe because he promised himself last time it was over.
Then its back to the lips and tongues and all thoughts of forgotten promises flee his mind, and all he can think of is a young, radiating body pressed against him, and he wishes it was an old mans body, with scraggly hair and rough beard.
They'll fight their way up the stairs and through the halls and will fall down on his bed and give each other themselves as a reassurance.
Yes, you are alive.
And when she moves over him all he can think of are the millions of ways he's hurting Sirius by doing this.
And in the morning, when her hair is sill tangled and Remus takes the time to brush it out for her, they will think its meant to be one more time