Coruscant
Carth was just finishing up in the fresher when the com beeped. He strolled over and punched the button to activate the message.
"The admiral sends her regrets but will not be able to see you this morning" the message sounded.
Damn, he thought.
"The meeting has been rescheduled for 13:00 hours, Are you able to comply?"
He held in the button, replying that 13:00 would be fine. As he let go of the button he slammed his fist into the wall.
Now that he had made his decision, any delay just made him angry. As if by waiting a few more hours he was sacrificing something more.
Dammit Onasi, get a grip! He thought. You've been waiting four years, it's just a few more hours, and, heh, it's not like she's waiting for you at the end of the meeting. What the hell are you thinking!
Wild thoughts ran through his mind: "She left you" "How important do you think you were to her?"
But NO, dammit! He knew, he KNEW! They had stayed together for 2 months after being hailed as Saviors of the Galaxy. That was NOT a dream, not an illusion. He had FELT her love, they were happy, dammit.
SOMETHING made her leave and it wasn't ME, that was about the only thing he seemed sure of at this moment.
He'd been over it a thousand times before. The time leading up to her departure.
"Carth, the future is blank, I cannot see it. I cannot see us, I do not know what awaits us." She replied, standing in their newly appointed living quarters.
"That's okay beautiful, I see my future and she's standing right here. Besides, what good is the future if you already know what it holds – and right now I want to hold you" He grabbed her into his arms and looked down at her with loving eyes. His hand came up to brush her cheek as a lone tear rolled down, then he leaned in, just brushing his lips against her cheek, where the tear had been. He looked into her eyes and then turned his gaze down a bit, before he closed his eyes and kissed her.
"You are everything to me Revan, and that is all the future I need" He ran his hands up her back, pulling her closer to him. "The past is the past, the future, well, heh, I've already told you how I feel about that, but the now, let's get to the now" he leaned in and kissed her with a hunger, pulling her even closer to him as his hands ran across her back. She reached up, grabbing his head, pulling him in closer to her kiss. The past, the future, the now, all became meaningless as they let themselves feel their love for one another.
That wasn't the response you got from someone who wasn't happy with you. He knew that, dammit. Something made her leave and it wasn't him. But what else could it be? He was privy to all the info SCREECH came across. There was no looming threat. Inevitable threats, yes, but nothing that would have caused her to run off like that in such a rush. Without anything more than a passing note to say she had gone.
The holo was left on the pillow where she slept. He'd come to think of it as a sick gesture. How dare you tell the person you love that you were leaving them, NOT because of them, but for a greater good? And to leave it on the pillow of the bed where you slept. It's meaning had crossed and criss-crossed in his head a thousand times.
It was personal, why else on the pillow. But why, what had possibly been going through her mind! It was like she hadn't wanted to leave but was forced to, which was joke. Revan never did anything she didn't want to do, not even for him.
That was it, nothing else. Everything else had been more of the same. The occasional talk with Mission or Canderous. A bit more time with Juhani, but that was to be expected, since Revan had been the most prominent Jedi in her life since her fall to the dark side. Short outings with Jolee and Bastilla. And him. He had consumed most of her free time, well, when he could.
"Why Revan" he asked himself for the eight-millionth time. "Why did you leave? Why did you leave the Jedi, the Republic, the crew, but most importantly, why did you leave me?"
"What did I do, or what did I not do? Why did you tell me to keep the Republic strong, was that just a game, a distraction, to keep me from looking for you?" He was lost in his thoughts until the comm beeped.
He arose, saddled with guilt, and punched the button to receive the message, "SSA Onasi, the Admiral requests your company immediately, the high soldiers should be arriving at your door any moment" And he was not kidding, what sounded like the butt end of a pistol banging against his door sounded before the short speech had ended. "Oh boy" thought Carth, "there goes my transfer request."
"They're here now T6-Y7, I will accompany them to the Admirals quarters, inform her I shall be arriving momentarily"