Hurray for chapter two. Ok, whatever, I'm continuing whether I get reviews or not. Yep yep, I'm a stubborn idiot! Ahem, I just love this pairing, well more so the characters themselves, I'm not much into yaoi, so don't worry, I won't put that much in it. Erm, Anyways, Let's start!

Choices Of An Angel

Chapter Two: With You By My Side

Katandshadow

"Are you gone and onto someone new? I needed somewhere to hang my head, without your noose.
You gave me something that I didn't have, but had no use. I was too weak to give in, Too strong to lose.
My heart is under arrest again, but I break loose. My head is giving me life or death, but I can't choose.
I swear I'll never give in, I refuse…"

It was a bright morning. A few iridescent rays of sun managed to come in through the curtains that had been put up for privacy. Not much privacy if you counted how many times Kratos has barged into the room without even a thought of MY privacy. It was one of those morning where I didn't want to get up, I just wanted to sleep my life away, somewhere safe and warm where I knew nothing else mattered.

Then there came a knock. It was so familiar I rolled over without a thought. This was Kratos' 'normal' morning routine. How did he find time to style that mess of hair on his head, and then wake me up, cook breakfast (which wasn't ever good, oh might I add) and then wake me up before dawn?

"Yuan, unlock this door now,"

It was my plan. I didn't want him barging in every morning so I locked the door. He was more of a pain then a help. Never leaving me alone for a minute. I snickered in my sleep and closed my eyes again. A few minutes later a jolt from the door sent it smashing down on me. I sprung up in my bed and cussed loudly.

"KRATOS?"

Kratos starred blankly from where the door had been. He shook his head and seemed like he was going to laugh. Of course, I didn't find this funny. I felt like ripping his head off, but that wouldn't solve anything. Well, wouldn't solve ALL my problems with him. Knowing my luck he'd come back to haunt me.

"You had it coming. Didn't I tell you not to lock your door. What if something devasting had happened?" Kratos complained, walking over to pick up the door. I gave him my famous, like-I-care look.

"If something like that happens, don't wake me. I'd rather die," I replied grabbing my pillow, laid back down, and covered my ears. I could tell that Kratos had sighed heavily. He sat down at the edge of the bed. I just wanted him to leave me alone. Was that too hard for his tiny brain to understand!

"Yuan, get up. We have to go somewhere," Kratos replied, angry now. I could hear him un-sheath his sword. Right, he always did that to scare me. I knew he'd never attack me, nor I would to him. But just the thought of us betraying each other felt like leeches at my heart.

"Bring my back a souvenir," I replied coldly, still under my pillow. Kratos groaned and got up and left the room and slammed the door, wait there wasn't a door. He slammed an invisible door. I could hear footsteps going down the stairs. Finally, a little alone time. I stretched out and took the pillow off my face and starred at the ceiling. I sighed and extended my wings from my back.

"Whatever, Kratos," I spoke to myself. I got up and picked up the door and put it back into place. After a few moments, I had changed from my night clothes to my normal ones. Although I had no intentions to leave the house. More then likely Kratos had gone off already.

"Wonder if he left Noishe," I yawned and made my way down the stairs. Damn, we had to do something about this creaking. It was like a chainsaw sound, but more calmer. I made my way into the kitchen and sat down. This annoying feeling of grogginess never seemed to go away.

"Awooo"

I glanced from where I sat out the open door. I stood up and peaked around the door frame to see Kratos talking to Noishe. Not wanting to let him know I was there, I watched in silence. Kratos extended a hand to the protozoan and Noishe replied with a soothing bark. Although Kratos had always claimed he hated pets, I knew he loved Noishe more then anything. I sighed and went back into the kitchen, oblivious now of Kratos.

"…." I remained silent as I starred down at Kratos' coffee mug and empty plate. I was so costumed to eating breakfast with him, I wasn't used to the sudden change. But, right now I was more mad then anything else at a certain auburn hair man.

I took his plate and pushed it far away from where I sat. I wasn't hungry. That was unusual, to say the least. I was always one to eat, no matter how much Kratos' cooking sucked. It was a mix between a kind gesture and the need for food that made me eat it. Although I found Kratos annoying at times, I would never forget what he had done a few months ago for me. I thought of what could have happened if he hadn't have brought me out of Mithos' Castle. I would be one of Yggdrasill's pwns.

"You're awake,"

I glanced over and saw Kratos at the door. I didn't reply, but pretended to ignore him. Kratos gave a stern look at me and and I sighed.

"What bug climbed up your ass?" I asked bitterly to Kratos. He didn't seem offended, but more so annoyed with my rash behavior this morning. I starred at him, as if I wanted him to laugh. "It's a joke, lighten up," I muttered looking back down at my own mug. Kratos walked over and sat down across from me. I probably would have smacked him if he sat down next to me.

"Is something bothering you, Yuan?" He asked, almost in a whisper. I didn't look up at him, just starred at my mug. Yea, something was, him. But I guess I would complain if he wasn't here too.

"No…"I replied. I still didn't look him in the eye. He could always tell when there was something wrong. Always…

"Liar," He replied grabbing his mug from where I had pushed it to. I glanced up at him, finally, and sighed.

"I said it's nothing," I was a bit angry at his constant nagging.

"So what is 'it'," Kratos asked. Damnit! Did he have to analyze everything I said. That was one of the things I hated about him. I shook my head angrily.

"Where did we have to go anyhow?" I asked with a sigh. A slight smirk rolled across Kratos' face. He just had to toy with me. Always had to.

"I've heard news about a society that wants to join with Cruxis to fight alongside Mithos to dominate the worlds," He began. I raised an eyebrow. So it was business, it was always business with Kratos. I slowly spoke, uneasily.

"I have something I wanted to ask," I said uneasily. I had never asked him this before, but I'm sure even Mithos had wanted to know this as well.

"What is it?" He asked, with a bit of interest. I sighed and looked at my mug.

"Why did you join up with us?" I began. Kratos tilted his head in puzzlement. I didn't look up when I spoke.

"Us?" He asked. So Kratos was either dense or he wanted me to say the name that killed me. I glared at him trying to explain. He didn't get what I was trying to tell him.

"Mithos and the rest of us," I managed to explain without saying her name. I looked back up at Kratos, hoping for some sign of sympathy towards me, but no.

"Oh you mean Martel, Mithos and you," He spoke. There it was, a pang of hurt blasted through me. How could he just play with her name. Just throw it around without any good intent. I felt like killing him at that moment.

"How could you speak of her in vain, you damn bastard!" He yelled standing up with furry. Kratos didn't react, but motioned for me to sit back down. Why was he acting like a foolish parent with on feelings. He never loved anyone.

"Yuan, calm down. You have to learn to accept what happened, and move on with your life. And to answer your question, I was a mercenary merely looking for some extra money," He spoke watching me. I flinched once more. What a selfish piece of crap.

"So it was for a greedy reason," I hissed at him, wanting more then ever to end my eternal damnation. Kratos starred blankly at me. He didn't understand what I had to live with. The feeling that I let her down.

"At the time… yes, but if it came down to it, I would have stuck by your side no matter what the cost,. "He spoke, finally in sympathy. I couldn't tell if this was a twisted lie or something he actually meant. I relaxed a bit.

"… And yet you still stay by my side…"I looked down almost not wanting him to see me like this. I had reacted foolish to his pure intentions. It was true, he never left my side for an instant. And to think of him leaving, it burned a whole in my heart.

"Yuan, like I said, I'll stand by you, and make sure you'll be ok," Kratos murmured silently. I looked over at him, with a look of thanks. So many times had he saved me from the darkness of myself. So many times…

"Has someone taken your faith? Its real, the pain you feel. The life, the love, You die to heal. The hope that starts, The broken hearts. You trust, you must…Confess"

Author's note:

Better then I expected, I am so grinning! I love Yuan and Kratos! Review please. I beg of you!