Haaha! Thanks Genki. You so totally pwn. Sorry Origin for scaring you Im OO I didn't mean to creep you out, I was just hyper that day. Well like I promised everyone, there won;t be anymore yaoi scenes, I doubt. But Yaoi feelings of angst. I managed to get that one kiss in, and that was murder itself. I really love this pairing but yaoi scenes are so hard for me. I know you know the feeling? Anyways, this is basically a chapter about how Yuan feels about Kratos, and his sudden 'changes' to his attitude and life-style. This basically is what Yuan feels like when Kratos meets Anna, although he has no damn clue x3 And after that yaoi scene from last chapter, the pari kept their feeling to themselves, but still yearned for each other. Creepy, yes? Ok I'll shut up and start with the story. Please enjoy this angsty chapter! And I demand reviews!

Choices Of An Angel
Chapter Six: Truth About Him
Yuan's POV

After our incident together, we didn't dare bring up our feelings for each other again. I would think that Kratos was afraid to admit something he never wanted to happen. And especially seeing he never had loved anyone before. But I didn't want it to end, damnit. I didn't want us to grow distant and back to the old, annoying friendship we once had. I wanted more, but that was something I knew Kratos would never give in to, for his odd reasons, I still want to know.

It was mid-day, telling by the way the sun set in the sky, and my clock in my wall, just in case, heh. I was feeling entirely groggy after staying up countless nights trying to think or make sense of Kratos' unusual actions lately. What I mean is he keeps disappearing for days at a time, but claims to be out on business. Business he says, he doesn't want me caught up in. He's a lying ass, if I do say so. I just can't believe after our talk he would start lying to me again. I tried to change, tried to turn into the person Kratos wanted out of me. But it was all useless.

Today, Kratos had been gone for his longest period of time, a full week. Of course I was worried and didn't get any sleep, but I knew nothing would come to harm him. It was just one of those gut feelings.

After his long absents, I had grown close to Noishe. Half the time Kratos would leave him. It wasn't like him at all, and I felt bad for the poor mutt. That wasn't like me at all.

"Noishe," I called, yawning as I looked out the front door. No reply. Ugh, where did he go now? Noishe had a horrible habit of wandering off when Kratos left for long times. I sighed and went back in the house and slammed the door with furry. I sat down at the kitchen and closed my eyes, tired. But as I sat there, pondering ideas, I thought of a way to find out what Kratos was up to. It was a bit cruel, but I had to know what was getting to him, what was making him so distant from me.

"This is the last time," I spoke bitterly as I walked into his room and glanced around for his diary. No where, where the hell did he keep it? I sighed and sat at the edge of the bed and looked, trying to think where he would keep it. After a thorough search for it, I gave up miserably, and laid down on the bed and starred at the ceiling.

It had been a few hours before a bang on the door woke me up. I cracked open an eye and got off the bed and yelled.

"Leave me the hell alone," I spoke slamming Kratos' door. Another knock made me feel like killing whoever wouldn't leave. I twitched uneasily and walked over to the door and flung it open.

In front of it stood a skinny, odd looking man. He wore a wierd erray of clothes, and had a sword, sheathed that is, on his side. My heart sank, maybe Kratos really did scurry away for business, business of the shady sort. I glared at the man, but he didn't speak.

"What?"I spoke glaring, almost ready to slam the door. The man cleared his throat and spoke in a deep voice, almost like Kratos' but had one of those funky accents, defiantly from Slyvarant.

"I am here to see Yuan and Kratos Aurion," He spoke starring at me. This man was odd, and annoying to. I shook my head and clenched my teeth.

"What do you want," I hissed through my teeth. The man looked startled, but not afraid. With a few moments passing, he spoke once more.

"I have come here for an arrangement on an organization Kratos spoke of a few months ago against Cruxis," He spoke, seeming like he was dead-set on doing whatever he wanted. I gave a suspioucus shrug.

"Kratos never told me of this," But yet again, Kratos never told me anything now-a-days. The man looked at me, now filled with more determination.

"I am taking it you are Yuan?"He asked. He starred and spoke almost afraid of what he was saying. "Your A. half-elf living with a human?" Ugh, I hated when people pointed out the obvious. I gave a sharp nod. The man cleared his voice.

"I think it's best for me to introduce myself to you. I am Botta, a half-elf who's been in contact with Kratos, like I said, a few months ago. We were planning on creating an orginzation against the revival of Martel called the Renegades," I looked at him. I knew he wasn't making this up. It was true I was against the revival of Martel, I wanted her to have her eternal rest, the thing she deserved so much, even if it meant I would never see her again...

"But I can come back later," Botta spoke uneasily. So he was a half-elf also. I looked at him, intrigued that Kratos would choose another half-elf to team up with.

"Would this organization be made up of entirely of half-elves?" I asked, a little worried about that fact. Botta shook his head.

"No, not entirely. Even humans posse skills we can not learn, so it's best to have a few in our team," He told me. I sighed, now annoyed Kratos hadn't warned me of Botta's arrival.

"How am I supposed to believe you have actually talked to Kratos?" I asked uneasily. For all I know he could be one of Mithos' chess pieces in this twisted game he had created souly for himself. Bott stuck a hand in his pocket and extended Kratos' diary. My heart dropped.

"He told me to hold on to this and give it to you when I arrived," Botta spoke. It seemed like he wanted to say more. I knew it was Kratos' diary from that time so so long ago. I cut him off before he could speak again.

"Yes. Yes, very well. I'll take it and could you come back when Kratos is present?" I asked bitterly taking the one piece of information from Botta. Botta nodded.

"I respect your wishes," and with that I slammed the door. Ugh, that was pure annoyance. But at least I had Kratos' journal in my possession, I sighed and tried to open it but he had placed a extremely powerful spell on it. Was it that hard to trust me anymore? I was starting to wonder how Kratos felt about me...

Whatever it took, I would undo this lock. I tried every counter spell I knew. Nothing worked. Kratos had put his heart and soul into this spell, and that made me even more frustrated. What was that important to hide from me? The one who he claimed to have had feelings for?

I put the diary, disdainfully in his room and locked the door with rage. I sat in the kitchen and closed my eyes tightly. I was starting to lose whatever little attraction I had for him. It was so hard to admit it, but I knew I'd never leave him, and prayed he'd never leave.

It was about two more hours before Kratos came in through the front door. I glanced up but then ignored him. He walked over as if a puppet and sat down and placed a hand on his head, as if something was bothering him. Something he'd probably never tell me anyway.

I looked up and noticed his hair was oddly, un groomed and he seemed frustrated and groggy. A different groggy then how I was feeling. I knew that feeling, but didn't say anything, in thoughts it wasn't what I suspected.

"Did a man come by here?" Kratos asked. So the first thing he asked after leaving for one week was if Botta had came. It angered me that he didn't once stop to ask how I WAS.

"Yes," I spoke bitterly. Kratos starred at me but didn't say anything. He seemed to have a different re action to himself.

"I see, then I would expect you put the book he carried in my room?" He asked yawning. Another thing that made me even more pissed. He cared so much for that journal, more then me, and that was a boiling point.

"Of course," I spoke cruelly. I felt like leaving the room and slamming a door a thousand times but didn't. I never wanted things like this. I wanted to be with him, damnit...

"Thank you Yuan," He spoke. And I knew it was over. He never said my name with desire of love. That time long ago when he did seemed so long ago from where we stood now. He seemed so distant from me, which bothered me.

"Right," I muttered. Still he didn't ask how I was. I closed my eyes and began to ignore Kratos' odd appearence. All I wanted was just to go back to normal, just to hold him, and that was my strongest desire lately.

"Yuan, I have to tell you something..." He spoke uneasily. My eyes lighted up. A little to jealously, but in hopes that he would go back to normal. But dread got the best of me as he gulped and walked over to the door and opened it.

"You bought a new door?" I asked, trying to see if he really was back to normal. No cheerful response, no response at all. I frowned and dis regarded what I had just said. Kratos looked out the door and spoke softly.

"It's ok, you can come in," He spoke. My blood ran ice cold. I was about to stand up in shock but still wanted to see what Kratos was hiding. Noishe walked in, ok Noishe was with him. Alright that wasn't that bad, but following the familiar face was a human. I frowned and became alarmed.

"Yuan, i know how you'll re act," Kratos hissed. My eyes darted from the human to him. She had long brown hair and soft brown eyes. I wasn't judging her all on her race, but for what i feared Kratos was about to say.

"What the fuck may I ask is this supposed to be? Is this a joke, what are you hiding. You might as well tell me damnit," I hollered. The human seemed alarmed and hid behind Kratos and Noishe. Noishe growled at me, more in attempts for me to stop.

"Yuan, calm down and listen! I met her at Kvvar's ranch," I wouldn't let him go any farther until I got a few things off my chest, then he'd explain, then I'd blast him how I was feeling.

"Oh great, I wonder how Kvvar is taking this, smooth move Kratos," I groaned, now starring at my old friend. Why was he doing this. What was he doing?

"... We fell in love a long while ago," Kratos began, and looked over at the human. I snarled bitterly and waited for more. Love, how could he toss that term freely around. I thought we were in,... love, but was I just oblivious to this secret for so long?

"Her name is Anna and I've been searching for a way to free her from her exsphere, hear me out Yuan, I never wanted this to happen but..." He began and looked at the human with a strange look. He didn't have to say anymore. He had betrayed me in the worst possible way. I starred in alarm and yelled directly at Kratos.

"You humans are all the same! You lied to me Kratos," I hissed and ran out the back door slamming it. I leaned against the house, almost in tears. Damnit, why did this happen. I shook my head. The only chance I had to be happy again was destroyed yet again. I sighed meekly and clenched my fists.

"Damnit Kratos..."I moaned. I would never trust a human again, never. Kratos opened the door and closed it and sat down next to me. I glared angrily at him. He didn't seem that happy as well.

"...Yuan, I'm sorry, but you have to understand," He spoke trying to make me feel better. What a weak attempt. I shook my head and didn't want to hear anything else.

"How long Kratos, how long have you lied about her," I hissed, wanting to kill him. Kratos looked at me, knowing how much this hurt. Or did he know?

"A few years now," Kratos spoke uneasily. That's all I needed to know. He had been lieing for a year now, a year straight to my face. I couldn't stand this, and clenched my fist.

"I can't deal with this anymore, I'm leaving this house, I hope you enjoy your new life," I spoke bitterly as I stood up and began to walk. Kratos got up as well and stopped me. Why did he toy with me so much?

"Yuan, don't be so rash," He spoke. I turned around sharply. Rash? I'd show him rash.

"Rash! Are you calling me rash! Think about what you've done. Think about what Mithos and Cruxis will do when they learn of what you've done." I snarled, wanting to leave and end this life of lies. I didn't want anything to do with Kratos anymore. Nothing what so ever.

"She had my son Yuan," Those words sent a shiver down my spine. I couldn't bare to hear anymore. I felt like I was in a trance and couldn't even stand the words he was throwing at me. Son? A son, damnit, all I ever felt for him was lost, lost and destroyed.

"...Damint Kratos," I spoke angrily. That's all I could say. I looked over at him, he seemed to happy for the human he called Anna to be with him. I glared at him, he seemed happier then when he was feeling for me.

"Yuan, please help us hide," He pleaded. Everything had changed. Everything, and I felt like a lie. I shook my head.

"I can't do that," I replied coldly. Kratos seemed alarmed but knew what I was thinking.

"Please don't let old feelings fog your life," He spoke. Old Feelings? So he admitted what he had felt, one of the only things that could possibly save me from this darkness and eternal life was really gone.

"Damnit Kratos, you told me you'd never leave," I felt like crying but I would never show those feelings towards Kratos any longer.

"Yuan, I'm not leaving," He placed a hand on my shoulder and I sighed. I couldn't well refuse. I shook my head.

"How old is... your son?" I spoke, those words still left a bitter taste on my tonuge.

"Two," Kratos replied. That must have meant Kratos had been with Anna for over three years. I sighed and nodded.

"Then I can take it he can talk? What his name?" I asked, trying to understand what Kratos was feeling.

"Lloyd," He spoke, almost content with speaking of his son. I sighed and nodded once more.

"Then I'll help you hide, but I'm not promising anything.." I spoke. I could tell Kratos seemed overjoyed. He gave me a softened smile and spoke content towards me for the first time in so long.

"Thank you Yuan, thank you so much"

Author's Note;

Yuan heart is broken. poor yuan! I'm still here for ya! Anyways, I am thinking of oh do or say two more chapters. That'd be Eight Chapters in all. That sounds nice. I'm not telling you my plans yet, I have my own set plan, mwahahah! Please Review tho!