Juhani opened her door, an obviously shaken Carth stood before her.

"We need to talk" he voice sounded rushed. "Revan won't and now, well something happened."

"Come in Carth, but I'm afraid I won't be able to tell you much. What happened?"

"We were talking and I thought, maybe, she might finally tell me something, something besides all the lies she's been dancing around. And then this boy, this little boy around 4 years old came in." He looked at her, disbelief playing across his face.

A gasp escaped Juhani's mouth, "Aaron?"

"So he does exist? Good, I was beginning to think I was going crazy, or maybe Revan had played some mind trick on me." Relief crossed his face.

"Juhani, is that Revan's son? He called her mother, well ma'ma actually, with some accent. He emphasized the first syllable" Carth knew he was rambling but he didn't care, he was busy sorting his thoughts as he spoke.

"I think you already know the answer, you don't need me to tell you."

"Yes, yes I do."

"Carth, I cannot tell you what you really want to know. That is Revan's story to tell."

"And if she won't?" his eyes narrowed.

"Then that will be her choice."

With nothing more to say Carth left, resisting the temptation to walk the few steps to Revan's quarters. Instead he returned to his room, exhaustion finally allowing him some of his deprived sleep.

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Revan spent the remainder of the morning with Aaron and Ariana. They meditated for awhile before she spoke of what their new life would be like at the Jedi Temple.

They were filled with curiosity and had many questions. Most were easy to answer, but a few were hard, especially when they asked if she would be there with them.

She spoke truthfully, telling them that she didn't know what would happen, but that usually children who trained to become a Jedi weren't allowed contact with their parents. She reminded them that they already knew this, she had always been truthful with them about their destiny.

They had been sad, but held back from crying. Already, at such a young age, they expressed strong Jedi control over their emotions. Were her teachings the reason or did it came to them naturally?

Her heart was filled with love for the two beings that had defined her life for the past four years and she wondered if they had already surpassed her. She still couldn't control her emotions but they could. Did they even feel for her what she felt for them, but she knew they did, they were just strong, handled it differently. They were true Jedi. She stopped her mind from thinking that this could also be a route to darkness.

Their time was cut short when Juhani entered and told Revan that a council member wished to speak with her. The signal would be arriving in the next few minutes.

"After that, perhaps you should go speak to Carth." Juhani spoke as if it were an order and Revan felt herself getting angry at her. Having no time to address the issue, she turned and went to wait for the call.

While she waited for the transmission she thought to how easily she had been upset since leaving Malachor V. While on the planet she had held off its darkness while raising two children. She had felt like a true Jedi. Now though, back in deep space, she was having a hard time understanding everything. She actually found herself wishing to be back there.

Aside from the children expressing darkness, facing Carth had been her biggest fear and now she was in that very position. Perhaps this was a test. She resolved herself to make sure she passed it, to keep her emotions in line and continue on her Jedi path.

The message came through, startling Revan out of her thoughts.

"Some business to take care of you have"

"Yes Master, I was just with the children now."

"Not children, speak with other you must"

"I'm trying..."

"NO try, just do, before returning you must"

"Yes Master, I'll go now."

She was infuriated; they always made her feel so, so… she calmed herself. She couldn't take the anger she was feeling at herself, for her choices, for her life, out on the Jedi. They had given her a second chance, without them she wouldn't even be alive.

Letting out a deep breath, she moved off to find Carth. She passed by her room, the door open, and gave Juhani an unpleasant glare before continuing on. So much for Jedi resolve, she thought.