In this chapter it skips about a year. So if you're confused, I'll explain everything in my author's note. But I would think you'll understand once you start reading? Yes

Warning: Spoilers as always. Pairings; Mostly Kranna

Choices Of An Angel
Chapter Seven: Eternal Suffering
Yuan's POV

"I killed her, damnit, I killed her with my own hands..."

"She begged you to Kratos, you had to. It was best for you, her, and Lloyd, I'm sure Lloyd will be fine and you'll see them again,"

"Yuan, thank you, but that will never happen"

I was lying again to him. I knew he would never see his son again, and there was no hope Anna would ever come back. Only in his memories. All I could feel was sympathy and angers towards Kvvar. It had only been a short year with the three before Kvvar had transformed Anna into a monster and sent her out to kill Kratos and Lloyd. I could have stopped it, but Kratos told me not to interfere, which was a mistake I would never be able to live with.

"Do you want me to go rid of Kvvar?" I asked bitterly, as Kratos sat down in the house. He didn't seem well at all, but totally depressed, it was so unlike him. These past years had been the only time when I had seen him this happy. Kratos raised his head and gave a expressionless sigh.

"No, I'll do it myself," He spoke standing up, but then weakly fell to the ground. Rushing to his side, I was able to help him up. I shook my head in protest to him going to fight against Kvvar at his weak condition.

"No you won't, you're to weak," I spoke helping up back up to the seat. He closed his eyes and didn't respond at all. After a long few minutes he finally opened his eyes and replied to me.

"Then I will, when I feel ready to," He spoke with anger. Kratos was never one to act like this. To see him like this hurt me more then when he had fallen in love with Anna. Shaking my head I passed him a drink.

"Then until that time, I'll take care of you," I suggested. Kratos looked at me with a slight smile. He was trying to show a sign of thanks but it was hard at a time like this.

"Thank you Yuan, and I will stand by what I told you," He spoke taking a sip weakly. His eyes were blood-shot and he seemed so fragile. Like something that could break at any moment.

"Which was?" I had honestly forgotten what he was trying to make me remember. I shook my head wanting to know what Kratos was thinking. He set down his cup and looked at me, with a fierce stare.

"When I told you I'd never leave your side I meant it, I will never betray you like Mithos did to us. And I thank you for all your kindness over the years," It hurt him so much to talk even when Anna was dead. I knew it wasn't his fault, but he'd hold himself guilty of her death for his eternal life.

"As do I," I spoke sharply. I tried to make him feel better but all he could do was drift in and out of two minute dreams. I smiled, trying to show him I still cared for his well being, even if this care wasn't love. "I will never abandon your friendship Kratos, I care about your well-being too much"

Katos gave a weak smile at me. He seemed better to know that I was there by his side during this rough time through both our lives.

"Thank you Yuan, thank you so much," He spoke, holding back all his pain. It was truly flipped from those thousand years ago when I lost Martel. But Kratos had had a son and a family. I never was able to do that.

"You're welcome, and you know that," I replied, trying to stay positive. Kratos nodded sharply and leaned against the table.

"I swear, if it wasn't for you, I don't know where I'd be," Kratos admitted. I felt a pang of pleasure from his confession of need for me. I grinned.

"You'd be attempting to kill Kvvar, but you would get your own self killed," I pointed out. Kratos shook his head if he had meant something different.

"No, not that. I mean if you hadn't have stayed with me all these years, I doubt I would still have my soul..." He spoke almost in a whisper. I tilted my head, I could tell those words were from his heart. It seemed this conversation was hurting him.

"But Mithos never took our souls," I spoke trying to understand what he meant.

"No, I meant I would have never been my self, if it wasn't for you," He spoke, regardless of his weakness. I sighed and nodded.

"Let's just hope you never do lose your soul," I spoke meekly. I tried it as a joke but all I got was a tired smile from Kratos.

"I'm going to take my leave for tonight, Good Night Yuan," He spoke withdrawing to his room. His small part of the world where he could console himself. I sighed and looked down.

After he said those words, I felt all the old feelings swell up inside of me again. The feeling that I wanted Kratos back. The feeling that I wanted to be with him forever, and live out this life together.

"I just hope you stay worthy to your promise," I whispered to myself. Kratos had been cursed an eternal life, and now he understood how hard it was to live without your love of your life. It wasn't so simple, it wasn't easy at all, it was an eternal suffering.

Author's Note:

I'm SO sorry it's so short! I promise the next chapters won't be. I am changing my mind of the length of this story. I might write scenes from the game as chapters and explain the bond between them. The last chapter will be a final note. Of course, you'll just have to see what I mean, eh?