Carth was sound asleep when the door alarm went off. Still groggy he stumbled to the door, shirt still absent from his body. Sleep left him immediately as he ushered Revan inside, trying to hide the grin that was trying desperately to escape his mouth.

"I'm sorry to disturb you Carth, I just thought that perhaps we could finish our conversation. I also believe you have some questions, not that you haven't already had your fair share of them." She was trying, but seeing him there, his well toned chest baring itself to her, sent waves of excitement coursing through her body.

Her legs moved before her mind had a chance to argue and she found herself standing in his room, the door closing quietly behind her.

The room was large compared to hers and didn't feel quite as dingy. His desk held stacks of data pads, all neatly arranged. Two chairs and a small table filled the southern space. The bed was a few feet from her and she noticed the covers had been tossed aside. He must have been sleeping.

He moved to a seat, gesturing for her to take the other, "I'm glad you came."

She didn't move, afraid to walk any closer to him or enter the room any further.

"The boy you saw, he is mine Carth. I'm sorry, I didn't know how to tell you. I didn't know how you would feel about having someone so young on your ship, I remember how you were about Sasha and she was older and I just didn't know how to begin. I tried, well not very much, but I…"

He stood up, moving towards her, "It's okay Rev, I'm not angry about him. I just wish you would have told me, before."

She was bewildered, did he know? No he couldn't. "His name is Aaron." She didn't know what else to say.

Carth continued to move towards her, "If you thought I wouldn't understand you were wrong. I'm just sorry that you didn't talk to me, before leaving." He stood directly in front of her now.

"Carth I don't know what you know, or what you think you know but I have to tell you…"

"Sshhhh" his arms moved as he embraced her, his hand bringing her head into his sturdy chest.

She didn't shy away this time. Instead she allowed herself to fall into his hold, feeling every touch, every gesture. His arms felt so comforting and she needed that now. She knew she shouldn't be allowing this but she couldn't help herself. All her pain and agony felt like it was being washed away. She sobbed softly, her voice muffled by his body, "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry."

They stood like that for what seemed like hours. Finally, when her sobbing had stopped, his hand moved to raise her face to his and he looked directly into her eyes. "I love you, do you still love me?"

She wanted to tell him yes but she fought with herself. He waited patiently, his eyes never wavering.

She took a deep breathe and the feeling of his body against her chest, pressing closer as she took in the air, made her melt. She held the breath, afraid of the loss when she left it go. But the feeling did not go away, he had pulled her closer with the arm that was still draped around her waist. He held her tight and was waiting for her response.

She couldn't speak, couldn't say the words, instead she found herself reaching out to him. She wrapped her arms around the back of his neck, one hand moving up through his hair, pushing his head towards her. She looked up, her lips trying desperately to find his.

Pure exhilaration filled her as their lips met, passion giving way to anything she was trying to prevent. His hands were caressing her, moving up until they held her face. They paused for air before their lips became locked again. This time it wasn't so tender as they both kissed each other hard. Hunger for one another overtook them and they stumbled towards the bed.

Revan's arms were moving, her hands covering every inch of his backside as they fell on the bed. She gasped for air and Carth moved to kiss her neck, shivers running through her, she wrapped her legs around his and pulled him in closer with her arms.

His hands moved all over her body as they continued, everything else forgotten. She tried desperately to get control of herself, "Carth."

He was kissing her again, longing evident in his reply, "Mmmmmm".

She wanted to stop but she couldn't, she had gone too far already for that to even be an option. She let four years of waiting have their day as Carth began to unfastened her robes.

The galaxy forgotten, everything else forgotten, they fed the passion that overwhelmed them.

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It feels so good to be in his arms again.

Her thoughts were interrupted when he spoke, "Do I take that as a yes?"

Carth was resting on his side, his left arm draped around her body while his fingers caressed her.

She had been lying on her back, vacant eyes looking to the ceiling of the room while she replayed the past hour through her head.

When he spoke she turned her head towards him, a look of confusion spreading across her face.

"Well, before you seduced me, I asked if you still loved me, should I take your response as a yes?" he grinned at her mischievously.

She laughed, she couldn't help herself, she felt too peaceful, so happy. "Perhaps I should make you work for your answer?"

"Sounds perfect" he replied, kissing her softly.

She turned her body towards his, reaching out to run her hand over his face. "I don't want this to end, this moment. I don't want to go back to reality Carth."

"I feel the same way beautiful."

She sighed, not wanting to loose the moment, but knew she had to try to explain everything to him.

"I'm serious Carth, there are things you need to know. I'm, I'm not perfect…"

He laughed, loudly, and she felt a twinge of irritation at this response. "Please, I'm trying to be serious here. You need answers and I'm, well I guess I'm ready to give them to you. But I'm scared too Carth."

"Somehow I find that hard to believe, chalk it up to me seeing you take down hordes of Dark Jedi without flinching, or maybe it's just because I know your weak spots." He started tickling her.

She pulled away from him, "Carth, I didn't want for this to happen, I lost control, I'm sorry. You need to understand some things and I'm trying to tell you."

He sighed, "You're right, I do need to understand some things but I'd much rather leave that for a later time. Right now, I think we both deserve to just enjoy one anothers company. What do you say, truce until tomorrow?"

"No Carth, this shouldn't wait, I should have told you before, before…"

"Before you seduced me?" he grinned, pulling her back towards him as he began kissing her again.

She was a complete fool with him, she couldn't help herself. She kissed him back, playfully at first, until they found themselves caught up in another moment of passion. The kisses became longer, deeper, stronger.

"I should go" she murmured between breaths.

"Mmmmmm"

There it was again, the sound that drove her wild. She rolled him over, deciding this time she would have her way. She began by kissing his lips, then slowly moved down to his neck, to his chest, down his stomach…

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"Did you tell him?" Juhani asked expectantly.

"Not quite, we got um, sidetracked."

"REVAN!" her disapproval was evident.

"Tomorrow, we decided on tomorrow. Now please, I want to spend some time with Aaron and Ariana."

"This is a dangerous game you are playing Revan and I do not approve." Juhani marched off.

Somehow I knew that. Actually she didn't approve herself but she also couldn't deny that she didn't really care. Being with Carth had left her feeling complete. She didn't know at what point it had happened, but the realization that her place was at his side had somehow taken hold. It just felt so right to be with him. No more Jedi code, no more fooling myself.

She thought about trying to see her future through the force but decided against it. From now on, I'm playing by different rules.