Carth didn't know why he had reacted as he did. It went against everything he had wanted to do, everything he had promised her. Now, as he sat alone in his room, he silently wished he had handled everything differently.
Pride kept him from going back to her, apologizing, gathering her into his arms.
Dammit, she's laid a lot of stuff on me the past few days. How did she think I would react?
His mind raced, trying to piece everything together, incorporating this new information into the scenario.
So she hadn't been pregnant when Bastilla saved her. She found out after we returned from the Star Forge, that's why she left. She should have just told me!
Why Onasi, so you could react just like you did now? No wonder she felt so alone, like leaving was her only choice. Things could have been different. Would I have reacted the same? She knew me, how could she not tell me.
Our relationship had been new, to both of us, would I have trusted her explanation? You don't even know how you would have reacted, how do you think she felt?
Realization dawned on him, Force, I sent her off, I'm the reason she left.
I didn't make her feel secure enough, all my stupid trust issues. And now, I failed her again. How can I be so, so, gamorrean pig headed!
He rose to leave, shoving his pride away. He took a few steps towards the door and then it hit him. She said believed!
She had only said that she BELIEVED Malak was the father. Force, could it be? Was it possible?
He staggered back, stumbling over the desk. He fumbled to pull out a chair. A look of pure bewilderment crossed his face as he sank into it, almost falling as he caught just the edge of the seat.
FORCE, could they be MY kids!
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"Ma'ma you are sad again" They were both waiting for her when she returned to her room.
"I'm fine" she gave them a painful smile.
Aaron moved slowly from behind his sister, "You used to be sad before too, back home, but I didn't know what it meant. Now it's stronger. Ma'ma, is this our fault?"
"No, no, don't ever think that" she moved over to him, concern crossing her face. "There are just a lot of things happening right now and your powers are growing. That is why we need to get you to the Jedi Temple, so you can both begin the next phase of your training."
She gathered them in her arms. "I have never been very good at controlling my emotions, you are both so much stronger then I could ever be. I am sorry if I am confusing you both with the emotions. Please, do not worry, I am fine."
She wondered how much she should tell them, they were so young. But soon she would not have the chance.
"Remember how I told you that every Jedi battles with the dark side on a daily basis? Well, sometimes there are other things you battle with, things that don't come easily. For me, it is emotions. Do you see why it requires so much training to become a Jedi Knight or Master? This is why you will both need to concentrate hard on your lessons and respect your Masters. They have achieved what the rest of us can only try for." She paused.
"I believe, in time, you both will be able to become Masters. Something I will never be able to do." She looked at their faces, filled with alarm at this revelation.
"That is not my destiny, but I believe it can be yours." She scooped them into her lap, hugging them closely before continuing.
"Once, I fell to the dark side and did awful, awful things. I do not want that for you, either of you. Please remember, once you go far down that path there is no turning back. It was only by a bizarre twist of fate that I survived. Someday, you will hear the story." Her thoughts turned to Malak, their father. "I lost many people close to me. Every day I pay the price for what I did, that is my penance. Please do not repeat the same mistakes as your" she caught herself, she had been ready to say parents, "mother."
She felt drained and leaned back onto the bed, gesturing for the children to snuggle up next to her. "Let's get some rest."
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The fighters came from nowhere and Juhani lost precious time in her delayed reaction.
"Carth, I am on my way back with one of the scouts. We have encountered some fighters and I am on a vessel that has no weapons. I will meet you at the following destination." Her fingers flew over the controls as she tried to send off her coordinates with the message.
The scout looked up, shocked at the personal way the Jedi had addressed the Commodore. Interesting he thought. He quickly punched something into his wristband then feigned sleep once more.
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Carth was still sitting in stunned silence when the message came through. He ran to the cockpit immediately, ordering the droids to try and pinpoint where the message had originated from. Meanwhile he entered the destination codes that Juhani had supplied into the ships computer.
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Revan searched frantically for the communicator, but she couldn't remember where she had put it after moving Juhani's belongings to her new quarters. She stopped to regain control and let the force guide her to its location.
As she pressed the button she noticed the message was from the Jedi Council.
"Going badly things are, into hiding we must go," She heard the Master speak, her mind racing furiously.
"Masters, Juhani is helping complete the Republic mission now, we will be enroute to Coruscant as soon as she returns."
She was cut off by Master Vrook, "There will be no Jedi here when you return."
He was followed up by Master Kavar, who explained a bit more, "A new dark force is seeking out all Jedi, they wish to destroy us. We must all go into hiding, to preserve what few of us are left. Find your new path Jedi Knight Revan, and take care of your younglings. They have become even more valuable to the galaxy."
A final message before it ended, "On your own now, you are. Disappoint not, you must. Trust the Republic you cannot."
"May the Force be with you."
And then it was over. Revan stood in complete shock. Her mind was racing frantically. Could it be true? But it must! OH FORCE!
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THE END
or
To be continued….
What do you all think? I've left a lot of room for a future story.
But if I do continue it will stray terribly from KOTOR 2, even more then it has already.
I leave this up to you, the readers.