1CHAPTER 10
A/N: This is where it is rated for maturity. Hope you enjoy. I love all the reviews I get Thanks.
When Emma felt Jay's lips press against her mouth. His warm soft mouth.
She had told him she would scream if he tries anything with her, he even mocked her before the kiss.
'I thought you were gonna scream'
Her mind was telling her that she should stick to what she said. She should push him away and scream.
She should do anything to get away.
Anything but enjoy this kiss.
When she felt Jay's hands slide from her shoulders to her bare back, her whole body went liquid inside.
Jay felt her skin turn hot. She flushed in all the tender spots.
His rough hands on her bare smooth skin felt like sand paper ripping satin.
She didn't care, she loved the way his hands felt on her body. He knew it hurt when she made a hissing noise against his mouths.
When he moved his hands to go back to her shoulders, Emma shook her head and grabbed his wrists to keep his hands in place.
She whispered against his lips, "I love your hands." she made a small moaning noise as she rubbed his shoulder blades encouragingly.
Jay had more confidence with that.
'She gave me permission'
He placed one knee between her thighs to bring her body closer to his and deepened the kiss. She ran her hands over his back and up to his head knocking his hat off his head so she could run her hands through his hair.
She loved his hair. It was the silkiest hair she had ever touched or seen. She couldn't get enough of touching him.
She couldn't get close enough.
She stepped back and broke from the kiss.
Immediately he thought she was gonna start to yell or something, "Emma... I'm so sorry. I-..."
She had turned around and grabbed his hand from behind. Pulling.
"Emma?"
She kept pulling him towards a door which he had no idea, he was SO confused.
"Emma where are going?"
They opened the door and were heading down the stairs to that basement where they were that first time. The light were down low and there was music still distantly playing. It was something softer now.
"Emma? I'm confused."
She shook her head and led him down the stairs. "Is Jay scared?"
"Shut up Emma. I have no way to figure you out."
By then they were towards the back of the room standing in front of a plush leather couch.
He snatched his hand away from her and grabbed her by the shoulders, surprising her by his roughness, but she still placed her hands on his shoulders and looked up at him.
He shook his head looking at her like she was crazy.
"Emma what is your problem? First you say to stay away from you and I do. Three weeks I stay away but then I thought I would go crazy." he closed his eyes tight, which Emma had come to appreciate finding it one of his sexiest qualities.
"Jay?"
"Emma. What kind of boyfriend leaves you alone to close a store by yourself. If you were mine, I would never leave you."
At the mention of Craig, something in her snapped back to reality, she pulled away from him shaking, she was so mad at herself.
"You see Emma, your two different people. One minute you hate me then one minute you act as if your gonna seduce me."
She turned her back to him wrapping her arms around herself. She shook her head. "SHUT UP!"
"No Emma I will not shut up."
He grabbed her and turned her to face him and pulled her body against his.
"Emma either you want me or you don't!"
She struggled to get away from him but his grip got tighter. "LET me GO!"
"EMMA!"
With his free hand that wasn't holding her he grabbed her chin and forced her face up and kissed her hard.
She struggled hard but he just held her tighter, he knew she wanted him because her breathing had turned into a soft pant while she still struggled.
"Do you want me Emma?"
He kept repeating over and over while kissing her.
She reached her hand back and slapped him hard and he released her.
"YES!"
"YES OKAY! Is that what you want to hear. Do want to hear that you are all I think about and all that want. The only guy I want...YES!"
She grabbed her stomach as in pain and sunk down to the couch and started to cry.
Jay stood there staring at her before he sat down next to her quietly.
She leaned back in the couch and started laughing hysterically. "GOD, I can just hear Craig now, he is gonna kill me."
He shook his head.
"Jay?"
He looked at her then, seeing something, "He isn't your boyfriend is he?"
"No"
"Why would yo lie to me then, your not like that."
"Jay, I haven't been myself for a while and Craig has helped me become ME. I needed a reason to say no to you. BECAUSE I want you. BECAUSE I need to want you and BECAUSE I NEED you."
At that last part he looked up and saw a tear run down her cheek.
He leaned over and grabbed her embracing her. They wrapped each in the others arms.
"Emma...Emma... my brave brave Emma. Mine."
He kissed her then. Softly. She pulled back laying on the couch pulling him down on top of her.
"Jay?"
"Emma, I won't hurt you ever again. I-... I care too much. I should never had hurt you in the first place."
He squeezed his eyes shut tight. "Emma I'm so sorry."
"Jay, I need you. Like I needed you then. I need you more now."
He leaned down and kissed her softly, shifting so that his body was laying fully on top of her.
"Emma? Are you...?" he swallowed loudly, "I mean do you want me to...?"
"Jay..." , she trailed off looking away and biting her lip nervously, "Jay, I want you to be my first, yes."
Jay sat up on his knees and pulled Emma up to a sitting position. He reached over and slowly unties the bow at her neck never breaking eye contact. Smiled sweetly up at him. His heart ached for her.
She leaned up and kissed him and grabbed the hem of his shirt and started to pull up. He put his arms up to help her. When it was gone she ran her hands over his smooth chest and abdomen. The only hair he had was a on the trail that led down his stomach. She traced her fingers down and up.
He looked down at her and lat the straps slowly fall from her shoulders and the whole front slip past her breasts and hit her waist.
His breath caught. He had felt them in the basement yes. But he had never seen them. He traced the back of his fingers along the tips of her nipples then from the upper slope to the round fullness of the underside.
She bit her lip and closed her eyes.
He put is head in the middle of her chest and listened to her heartbeat. She ran her fingers through his hair and whispered his name.
He kissed the tip of one nipple before going to the other one. He sat up and leaned to grab the sides of her dress. He looked at her and smiled before pulling it over her hips and down her legs; he placed on to table in front of them and leaned over her again.
He traced little invisible lines across the hem of her pink low rise bikini panties. He kissed her softly when she giggled, "It tickles."
He laughed and it vibrated the both of their bodies causing her to tremble more.
He sat back up and undid his belt buckle and button then zipper.
The more he undid the more scared she became, she wanted this though. She wanted him badly.
Over the speakers Baby by Wyclef Jean started to play.
'I wanna love ya'
'This is something I can feel deep in my soul'
At the sound of that she smiled. Glad she was in the mood for Wyclef when she made this cd.
He tossed his pants on the table with his shirt and her dress.
'Lay your body next to mine'
He stretched over her and started to kiss her gently. Her lips, across her jaw and along her collar bone; slowly while gently grinding into her. She had placed her thighs on either side of his hips and could feel him getting bigger.
'How is that suppose to fit in me'
At the feel of how big he really was she started to become more antsy.
She ran her hands along is back and down over his butt lightly caressing and rubbing him into her more indicating she was ready.
He pulled back and looked her in the face and she smiled shyly telling her he was ready.
He reached over to his jeans and grabbed his wallet and pulled out a condom.
"Emma, I want you to know that I'm..."
"I know Jay. I know you would never do this if you weren't sure."
"I have to say it."
"I know you're clean"
"No Emma. You don't understand."
He was talking while he was pulling her panties off and tossing them. Talking while doing so he was distracting her form being scared. He had to be honest with her.
He took the condom out of the wrapper and pulled his hips back as he rolled it on.
He position himself to her entry while looking at her. His heart ached. She was scared.
But she was his.
As he placed the tip to her and started to push. "You are giving me something that no one will ever have and I want you to know that..."
He pushed the full length in all at once and stopped for her to adjust.
At the tight squeeze and ripping pain, Emma sucked in a breath and a strangled cry caught from her throat and she jerked. Not sure what to do. She wanted to push him away. She started writhe in pain.
"... I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Emma."
He kissed the side of her neck and looked at her, "I love you Emma."
She let the tears fall from the corner of her eyes and she wrapped her arms around him to pull him closer. He kissed her neck and ran his tongue along her jaw, placing tender kisses in each spot his tongue touched.
When he felt her body relax around him and legs lose their tense hold on his hips, "you ready? You okay?"
She shook her head yes and kissed on the mouth to tell him to start.
He started to move slowly to get her accustomed to the feeling and get her into a comfortable rhythm.
When she started to move with him he picked up his pace, moving so that she started to moan. Her uncomfortable breathing turned into moaning and that set him to motion more till he felt her body tighten and her thighs grip his hips and when her back arched he knew she was coming.
He picked up his motion and started to roll his hips and soon she was writhing and clawing his back moaning his name. Soon he felt the tightening and her body shaking and he then felt that string snap and he was soon coming with her.
She relaxed as his body collapsed on top of her. He turned so that she was laying across him. He wrapped her up in his arms and pulled her tight against him.
They lay there in silence for a few minutes. She was running her finger tips across his chest while he lay there smiling up at the ceiling.
"Jay?"
"Yeah baby?"
"I... I love you too"
He smiled big and pulled her up higher on his chest kissed the top of her head.
"Emma?"
"Yeah?" She looked up into his eyes kissing him lightly on the lips.
"I love you."
He kissed her and kept saying it while he started to tickle and kiss her. He rolled over on top of her and kept tickling and kissing her while repeating words of love to her.
She giggled and was still giggling when they stopped wrestling. He was laying on top of her caressing her face and looking her in the eyes.
"Jay? Will it always hurt in the beginning?"
"No. You will get use to the way I feel and then it will always feel good."
"Oh... are... are... Jay are we together... or... are we... are we gonna ... I"
"Emma. I'm in love with you. I know what I want in life. I never knew till I met you that I wanted a life. I was just living like I was gonna die tomorrow. I don't want that anymore. I want you and I want you to want me."
He laughed when he saw her smile.
"If you want I can sing the whole song to you... but I'm serious. I want your friends to like me and I especially want your parent to except me. Emma I'm gonna be eighteen in a month and I want to be still be with you. I love you and one day I ..."
She looked at him anxiously waiting for what she thinks is coming hoping.
" I hadn't planned on kissing you when I came here tonight, I had come here in the intention to explain to you how I felt. That I wanted to be better just so I could have you. I didn't plan this, but I'm glad cause I know you love me too. Emma... I'm gonna marry you one day."
She laughed and pulled him down to her tighter kissing him and telling him how much she loved him and soon was rubbing him and wanting to show him how much she loved him.
A/N: I'm not sure if that was OOC or AU cause you never know how people are when they are in a passionate position. The roughest people are known to very tender also. So there you go.
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