I Watch Her

by Nicole10

Mulder thoughts at Scully's death bed

Title: I Watch Her
Category: Romance/Drama
Rating: PG
Classification : VRA

Keywords : Mulder/Scully married, Character Death

Spoilers : Up to season 8 to be safe

Summary : Mulder thoughts at Scully's death bed

Disclaimer: Since I own them you all must pay ME for the use of them…oh, wait…that's not me. Don't own them, never will : (
Author's Notes: I don't like the thought of this, but it came to me one day and wouldn't leave me alone.

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Written: 3-4-01

Edited: 8-8-05

I watched her.

I watched her as she dealt with this deadly disease. There was nothing I could do to prevent it. She was awake this time, and I couldn't take away the pain that overcame her body and caused her to cry out my name in wretchedness and she grasped my hand. All I could do was stroke her hair, hold her, and kiss her. I tried my best to comfort her.

I watched as her family came to say goodbye. Tears were swimming in their eyes and beating tracks down their cheeks, but I could not cry. The pain I was feeling was far less than hers. I would live, she would not.

I watched as our child, our little girl of only six came in to say farewell. She told her mother to feel better using that naïve voice that only the innocent posses. Her little arms embraced her mother as she gave her little girl a kiss. My daughter's mother cried hysterically as she said goodbye. Our child had no understanding that her mother was about to leave this earth. I could do nothing to comfort this mother.

I watched as she spoke her last words to me. "Mulder, you have my heart forever." And I spoke to her, "Scully words cannot express how much I…I love you." I felt like making a declaration of love reminiscent of our wedding but felt that words were not needed. "Take care of our little girl, Mulder." "I will," I replied. "I will."

I watched as we kissed for the last time.

I watched as she died. She closed her eyes almost like she sleep had grabbed her for a short time and then her heart flat lined.

I watched as the doctors rushed in to try to save my precious Scully, but I knew it was no good. I left when asked.

I watched as our little girl came to me and I picked her up giving her a big hug. When she asked where her mommy was I broke down crying.

I watched a few days later as I put a rose on her casket and said goodbye to my beloved Scully.

I watched as people tried to comfort me. But they had not lost what I lost. I feel alone.

I watch as everyone leaves our house and I put our daughter to sleep. She looks exactly like my Scully. I caress her face tenderly, with tears in my eyes. I will raise our daughter the best I can, although I don't know how well I'll do without my Scully. I realize my thoughts have been read when I hear a voice answer my question. "Mulder," she says. "You'll do fine, just watch her."

I will watch our daughter forever.

A/N: Please tell me what you think.