Chapter 4: Broken

If I have known the consequences of my action, I shouldn't have looked for it. I shouldn't have thought of finding the missing piece in me would complete my life, would make me happy. I was wrong, very wrong. I don't feel complete at all, all I feel is that…I'm broken. Broken than ever!

"Why? Why is this happening to me!" Sakura asked herself.

She was there at their house, locked in her room for more than an hour now. Touya asked her why is she went home early, she just said she isn't feeling well. Kaho insisted to stay to take care of her but she didn't agree. She told them she just need to rest and so she went straight in to her room.

"I thought you'll never forget your love for me Syaoran. I thought that even the Sealed Card can never erase my memory in your heart. But why?" she said between those sobs, holding the Hope Card. She's been like this ever since she locked herself in her room. She just threw herself to the bed, without even bothering to open the lights.

Half an hour ago, Nuriko went inside her room with a soup for her. Nuriko tried to talk to her but pretended to be asleep. She doesn't want to talk to anyone, she feel really miserable.

"I shouldn't have believe you and your promises. You obviously forgot everything about me. You're in love with someone else now. And it is all because of this stupid card!" she said those things as she try to tear the hope card into pieces. "It's all your fault! There is no hope for us now and there will never be any!" she used all her anger to tear the card but she can't, it's very powerful.

She still tried but nothing happened, then someone knock at her door. It's Yukito.

"Sakura, Tomoyo is on the phone she wants to talk to you."

"Arigatou, Yukito-san. I'll answer it."

Tomoyo doesn't have to know anything about this, it wasn't her fault. The truth is it's nobody's fault so they don't have to suffer like me.

"Hello"

"Hello, Sakura. Are you alright? Nuriko told me you're not feeling well. Do you want me to come along". Tomoyo said with a concerned voice.

Sakura tried make her voice sound normal. "No Tomoyo I'm OK, you don't have to worry. Besides you have to entertain your fiancé and make him feel at home." She said with a giggle. She tried to tease her, to sound normal although her heart is breaking into pieces.

"It's alright. If you want he can come along with me."

Uh-oh! Syaoran coming along is a bad omen. Very, very bad omen.

"No Tomoyo! I'm alright…you don't have to bring Syaoran along!"

Bang!

"What was that?" Tomoyo asked.

"Umm… nothing, Nuriko just dropped Hikari's bottle." Sakura said flatly. She watched Nuriko picking up the bottle; nervousness could be seen in her movements.

"OK…well I gotta go. Be sure to come to my house tomorrow. You promised me that you would help in my wedding preparation."

"Of course I won't forget that. See you tomorrow. Bye."

"Bye."

"Is Tomoyo's fi-fiancé's na-mme Syao-ran?" Nuriko asked.

"Yes. He's name is Syaoran, Li Syaoran." Sakura said fighting her tears again.

Nuriko felt she wants to die. "It can't be! It can't be the same Li Syaoran that Sakura used to love. Even so I shouldn't be afraid, Sakura's memory about him was erased. He's a complete stranger to her now." She nervously convinced herself.

"If you're wondering Nuriko…" Sakura continued. "Yes, he's the same Syaoran I've met years ago. The same Syaoran who promised to love me forever even if the Sealed Card take away his memory."

Sakura couldn't help but cry when Nuriko hugged her.

"I'm sorry Sakura, we don't have any choice but to erase your memory about him. We have to erase everyone's memory about him for your sake. We never thought that you would see each other again and in that situation. We never thought that you would remember everything when you see him. I'm sorry…I'm really sorry. Please forgive us."

"It's alright Nuriko. It isn't your fault; you just want to protect me. To take my guilt away, to make me happy again. But I just don't know if I'll ever be."

So guys what do you think? Sakura is such a martyr! hehehe...

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