Chapter 6: Shattered Promises

Are Promises really made to be broken?

And the bells started to ring, signaling the start of Tomoyo and Syaoran's wedding. Of course Sakura was there, ready to witness her best friend's wedding, the one that she helped to plan.

Eriol, who sat few seats behind Sakura's, can't help but look at his friend. Indeed, she looks really beautiful with her pink kimono and her smile really adds up to the brightness of her face, except that it didn't reached her eyes. That's why Eriol was really bothered; he knows how hard it is for her to pretend she's OK.

"If she's just not that stubborn about her decisions." Eriol said to Nuriko who's beside him.

"Yeah. I don't know if she can stand watching this ceremony, I know that it's breaking her heart." She replied.

Meanwhile, Sakura just stayed in her seat quietly. She can sense that they are looking at her; she tried to ignore it and focused on the ceremony. But she can't… she could feel the pain stabbing her heart. She looked away from Tomoyo and Syaoran and met Eriol's gaze. She put up a smile, and immediately put her focus back in the front.

"Until when can I stand this torture?" she said to herself. She wanted to get out as soon as possible but she can't. She thought about Tomoyo, she'd be sad if Sakura leave at the middle of her wedding. She thought about Chiharu and the others, they'll be worried, they don't know anything about the whole matter. She thought about her brother, Eriol and the others. She will just prove to them that she can't stand the pain. They'll erase her memories of Syaoran again. She had done many things to prevent it and she won't allow her feelings to ruin everything. In the end she stayed, wishing very hard that her tears won't betray her. If Touya, who sits beside her, notice the tears even just a single one, she'll be dead.

On the other hand, she's no good on acting, Touya can still feel her agony.

And Sakura just stayed there, at the longest and most agonizing moment of her life. She didn't pay attention on what's going on in the front, nor the reactions of the people around her. She cares about nothing, but how to hide her emotions. She only cared about hiding her pain, her guilt and her loneliness. She tried so hard to look happy.

She thought of something to occupy her thoughts, something about the past, when she felt happiness.

She remembered the time when Syaoran told her that he love her. That was before he went back to China. She didn't know what to say. She's not sure of how she really felt at that time.

She remembered the teddy bear she gave to him before his flight. Is the teddy bear still with him up to now, maybe not. But she hope it's still with him… it's her only connection to him.

And she remembered about the time he went back to Japan. She can't continue anymore… it's the start of their agony, of her pain. She realized something. "I haven't told him how I feel. I didn't have the chance to say I live him."

She know she have to stop before her tears fall, but she can't… she's simply helpless in her own thoughts. And she remembered the incident about the Sealed Card. She recalled how he sacrificed his memories for her. She remembered about her promise.

No! She doesn't want to recall that part. She stopped. She has to, it's really breaking he apart. And finally she overcame her fear, she almost cried.

She can't believe it! The wedding is almost over and she managed to fight her tears from falling. She's really glad that she's able to hide her emotions, at the most painful time she could imagine, she can live to this lies simpler than she thought it to be.

Eriol can't believe that she survived the whole thing, but this didn't amaze him nor glad about it. For him it's a warning that she's starting lose her emotion.

But the wedding isn't over yet… there could still be lots of things to happen.

It all went well for Sakura, until Syaoran started to talk.

"Tomoyo, for so many years I lived in darkness, I lost my memory and I felt that I lost everything, but you came into my life. You became my light that guided me out of those dark times. I don't care if I'll never retrieve those memories again, as long as I have you."

Sakura tried to hide her tears. She was hurt than ever before. Syaoran never confessed his love for Tomoyo this passionately. She can't help but wish that he were saying it to her and not to her best friend. But nothing prepared her for the Syaoran's next statement.

"And if ever I lose my memories again, I promise you one thing, I will never lose you. Your memory will forever stay in my heart no matter what. Nothing can ever erase my love for you."

That's it! She can't hold it any longer. Those words are just the words needed for the tears to flow, for her broken heart to be shattered into pieces over and over. Those words, she'll never again forget those words. The words that were once promised to her, is promised to someone else.

But she's not the only one who's crying, almost everyone did. Tomoyo did, it was the tears of happiness. Rica, Chiharu and the other did, they are really happy that their friend found a very loving husband. Sakura did, because of pain that those words brought into her. She felt guilty for having this feeling, it's like betraying her best friend, but she can't betray herself any longer…this is too much for her.

As Tomoyo and Syaoran passed by Sakura, Tomoyo and Sakura hugged each other, both were crying.

"Why are you crying? You should be happy for me right." Tomoyo said.

"It's because I'm happy for you." Sakura said and turned to Syaoran.

"Please take care of my best friend. Make her happy, be true to your promises. I don't want to see her cry." She said to Syaoran. "I don't want her to experience the pain I'm experiencing right now." She added only to her self.

Syaoran nodded. Sakura smiled.

Eriol approached her, to comfort her.

"I'm really weak, am I not Eriol? Sakura asked.

"No you're not. In fact you're brave Sakura, braver than you think." Eriol replied, with a sad smile.

"Li's mother assured me that she wouldn't remove my memories. Will you do the same?"

"I don't know."

"Please promise me the same thing. I don't want to feel lost again, I don't want to feel incomplete."

"Would you rather choose pain?"

"Yes. Because I know that I'll find a way to feel complete again…but you know it'll just break me apart like what's happening to me now. I'd rather choose the pain, Eriol. Someday these wounds would heal, and I could be happy again."

"And when will that happen?'

"I don't know, but I'll try to have it. Just please promise me." Sakura pleaded.

Eriol couldn't take it anymore, it hurts him a lot to see his 'friend' in such a pain. Finally he nodded. Sakura smiled, she's contented with a nod. She left Eriol and joined the others.

"Certainly, the wounds might heal… in time no one knows. But scars would still remain…forever. And it will always remind you of the pain."

And it is springtime, the flowers are in bloom. A perfect moment for eternal love to take its vow. And a perfect moment to heal a broken heart.

THE END!

At last it's finish...I never thought that I could finish my story...

hehehe...actually it's just the first part...

I don't know if I'll write about the second part...but if I would, definitely it'll be about Syaoran and Tomoyo's feelings...

maybe I will...I haven't finished it's plot yet, maybe it will take a little longer before I could submit the second part...not sure... it depends upon the circumstances...hehehe...

So pls. post you review about my story... I hope you enjoyed reading it...

Tnx for all who gave a little of their time for my story... (-;)