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Notes: My first trial at first-person. And comments are beautiful things!
Summary: Mark realizes that Roger is betraying him. Oh, ignore this sad attempt at a summary. Just read on, will you:)
The lies. He said he wouldn't use anymore. He promised. The wavering glances as he stared through me. He said that he would stay clean and try to move on. He said he would stop being so damn hard to work with, to work around. He had not only betrayed himself, but had betrayed me as well. And he should have known that I couldn't take much more of that. I had had enough the way it was.
But then something happened. Something snapped to make me ignore the whole of it all.
I began to detach.
I began to ignore. I stopped trying to help him. He had given up on himself, so who was I to continue to try? Realizing this, I set down my camera, fighting off the surge of emotions that coursed through my mind. In a way, I was giving up on him. Something I said I would never do.
He noticed this, glancing over he looked me over, trying to decide what was going through my mind, "What?"
Not looking at him for a moment, I thought it over before looking straight at him.
"Remember when I promised you that I wouldn't let you fall?"
He nodded, "So?" I could see the questions in his eyes.
I went over and before he could react, threw his newly acquired needle out the window.
"I'm keeping that promise." Leaning against the wall, I folded my arms across my chest, I felt an odd sense of relief. I knew that this was just today. That tomorrow it would continue in the same manner, but for now, that was all I needed. The hurt and pain he had thrown at me, was gone for the moment. Someday we wouldn't do this to each other. Someday, we would be able to look at each other without seeing the pain and hurt there. But until that day, I would keep my end of the bargain.
It was up to Roger to keep his now. But he wouldn't be alone in it. I would be there throughout it all. Throughout everything, all of his promises; all the pain.