April 23rd
No. of post shag highs deflating rapidly: 1
No. of boyfriends dumped: 1 (Ron)
No. of boyfriends left: I DON'T BLOODY KNOW, WHAT IS SEVERUS SNAPE'S PROBLEM?
You know after shagging someone and agreeing to see them on the sly you'd think they's be prepared to make some kind of contact with them other than a small smirk in potions class. I wish he wouldn't play with my emotions as he does! I thought "Hurrah! Have managed to bag Severus after months of careful planning, which admittedly did nothing, but I still got him in the end!" and now... Not so much as a snog, or even a discreet smack on the arse. In fact, he has ceased stare downs, and won't so much as wink at me anymore.
Tch! Well, if he thinks he can shag me and leave me, he's got another thing coming. Am divine Goddess, emanating inner poise, and need no man in life.
19.27
Will forget him completely.
19.31
Who on Earth is Severus Snape?
20.14
Arghhhh! He is the most infuriatingly attractive man on this planet, that's who! He is the person I have inadvertently fallen in love with, Heaven knows why!
In fact... Why do I love him? Hmmm... Time to make a list, I think...
Reasons I love Severus Snape:
1. His body (Shallow, but true).
2. His eyes.
3. The manner in which he appears to be cold, cruel and evil, but deep down is quite cuddily and playful.
4. His sarcasm (i.e. quick wit).
5. His brain (He is v.v.v. smart).
Reasons I should really loathe him:
1. His cold, cruel and evil manner (However, have established that he is deep down cuddily and playful).
Right so strike that then.
1. His sarcasm (Have established this to be quick wit, therefore, is actually a loveable quality).
Right, strike that too.
Hmmm... Aha! I have one!
1. The fact that he is leaving me waiting when he knows how deep my feelings are for him, God damn legilimens...
21.56
I wish he had more loathsome qualities, then I wouldn't love him so.
22.03
Sigh...
April 26th
No. of "Start-Of-New-Era's" timetables made: 1
No. of "Get-Up-And-Go!" demeanor's adopted: 1
No. of times Severus has spoken to me regarding matters unrelated to potions since shagfest: 0
No. of plans to forget Severus: 1 (v.g.)
Yes! Have made timetable to not let self get distracted by cruelly handsome Potions Master's! Also, have decided to get over him. He has messed me around too much! First at Valentine's, then the letter, then the shag, and now there is just... nothingness. So, as of today, am new woman... Again. Will forget him, really, for good this time. He is not worth it.
Really.
TIMETABLE:
07.30Get up.
07.33Take shower.
07.41Dry hair.
07.50Get dressed.
08.05Go to common room.
08.07Tap foot impatiently waiting for Harry and Ron.
08.12Begin to read over homework.
08.15Ron and Harry appear and whine at me for looking at homework, saying they are hungry. We proceed to Great Hall.
08.30We try to find seats.
08.33We sit.
08.35We eat.
08.38I take out book, waiting for Harry and Ron to finish.
08.40Post arrives. Read Daily Prophet.
08.45Urge Harry and Ron to hurry and finish eating.
08.50Leave for classes.
09.00 - 10.15Classes, followed by break.
10.30 - 13.00Classes, followed by lunch.
13.45 - 16.00Classes.
16.00 - 19.00Study and homework in the library.
19.03Arrive in Great Hall.
19.04Sit down next to Harry and Ron.
19.05Eat dinner.
19.35Wait for Harry and Ron to finish. Proceed to common room.
20.00Get exasperated when asked for help with homework.
20.03Refuse to help.
20.05 - 21.00Help Harry and Ron with homework.
21.02Decline offer of wizard's chess and read instead.
21.22 Watch dramatic chess finale in which Harry is beaten.
21.23Play chess with Ron.
21.56Lose after well played game.
22.02Bury nose in book.
22.05Be interrupted by Ginny, who came for a chat in between snogging Harry.
22.15Once Ginny has returned to Harry's mouth, retreat to dormitory.
22.30Charm dormitory to play dolphin music and practice yoga.
23.00Go to bed, enlightened, relaxed, free and my own woman.
There! So, simply no time for Severus Snape. No matter, am own. woman.
22.32
Hmmm... yoga... sotthing dolphins... Inner poise...
AAAAARRRRGHHHH!
22.46
Was in the middle of a sun salute, when Lavender snuck up behind me and started tickling em mercilessly. Have never got more of a fright in my life.
Bugger. Will yogacise tomorrow, to bloody shaken now.
May 2nd
No. of timetables stuck to: 1 (Well, it varies in the evenings, like sometimes I don't play chess, or Ginny might not come chat, but the important parts are there i.e. NO SEVERUS!)
Units of inner poise out of 10: 8.2 (v.v.g., though, wasn't very inner poise-y when I tripped out of the portrait hole! Ummmm...)
No. of times have looked at potions master: 0 (excellent)
Am doing very well, so far, am pleased to report. Pfft! Snape, shmape! Who needs him, eh? Eh?
20.31
Bugger. Just realised my N.E.W.Ts begin in exactly 20 days, and have down very little study. Must begin to study after dinner, instead of chess and reading. Will persevers with yoga, though. It is indeed inducing a calm on my life.
20.47
Hurrah.