AN: Thanks for the reviews, peeps. Lolz. I feel so loved! Grrr . . . can someone PLEASE kill Isa? Now I'm doing Shoutouts! Garg.

Koziak – OMG. First-reviewer-fuzzies! Major overload, actually. Btw, this is set NEAR THE END OF HAUNTED. Aka. When Suze finds out that Jesse is moving to the rectory. I'm trying to abide by the books but . . . it's not working:( Ahh-de-well. Have a nice time reading chappie two (sorry for the wait, as well).

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Disclaimer: Refer to Chapter One.

I walked home. I really couldn't have been bothered to hear all Dopey and Sleepy's crap or Doc and his long speeches. All I wanted to do was get things straight in my head. They were all screwed up. I needed perfect clarity if I was going to battle out all these demons and disappointments.

Disappointments . . .

Yeah, more like heartbreak.

And that sinking feeling that you know it's not the person who broke your heart's fault. But yours. Because you were DAMN STUPID ENOUGH to FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM in the FIRST PLACE.

Actually, in the second place. Because this was the second country I had lived in.

God I am so dumb. I can totally see why he doesn't love me now.

Then something hit me . . .

What if . . . what if he found out about . . .

No.

Impossible.

Never. I will NEVER think of that scenario. After what ALMOST happened in Shadowland – me loosing my cool, I mean – I did not need another episode.

It was only then that I realized that, in thinking so angrily, that I suddenly felt rather hot. I started fretting . . . what if it was happening again?

But then, I registered how fast I had been walking.

'Shit.' Immediately, I slowed down. My heart was pumping rapidly in my chest, banging against my ribs and causing my head to suddenly begin aching. It was nothing to a post-shifting headache, though.

'Calm down Suze!' I whispered to myself, trying to distract my mind from my fast beating heart, my super-massive headache and the fact that the guy I was in love with didn't return the favour.

AND the fact that he was dead.

I scanned my mind; finding things that could distract me as I walked home. I guess I was wrong – walking alone in long distances does NOTHING good for your mind's clarity.

Whatever that meant.

Finally, I found something. Something I used to do all the time as a kid. Mom said it was the aftermath of the accident in my childhood that caused it. OCD. It had been a huge disorder in the past – but now I couldn't help but carry out one of those mean little habits.

I slowed down my walking pace and, once I passed a massive palm tree, I began counting my steps.

One . . . two . . . three . . . four . . .

I muttered these numbers underneath my breath and kept my mind focused on clearing out all of my thoughts. Let it become blank, I told myself, completely blank . . .

Thirteen . . . fourteen . . . fifteen . . .

To my horror, I began doing more than those two things at once. Soon my voice faded from voicing the number of footsteps I had counted, yet I continued to tally in my head. Instead, a immature rhyme came to mind and soon, I began to sing that in a cute little toon.

Twenty-nine . . . thirty . . . thirty-one . . .

'Sun and moon, rain and shine, Valerie is so divine,' I spoke, in a husky whisper and as if it were my last lifeline, 'Heal me once, Change me twice, Transform me so very nice . . .'

Fourty . . . fourty-one . . . fourty-two . . .

My voice arose subconsciously. I had no control whatsoever. This was a familiar feeling . . . the same feeling I got when . . . it happened.

Fifty-three . . . fifty-four . . . fifty-five . . .

Despite all the previous times, I did not falter. '. . . And if someone hurts me dear, I will have no real fear . . . Like you my goddess, the very same . . .'

Fifty-seven . . . fifty-eight . . . fifty-nine . . .

I felt the wind stir behind me in a strange, unnatural way, just as my lips formed the words:

' . . . I will use the emerald flame.'

I stopped in my tracks, realizing what I had just did. But it was too late . . . oh how it was too late.

The wind began hitting me in gusts, so hard that I almost flew off my feet. It sounded like they were whistling . . . talking . . .

Singing.

Sun and moon, rain and shine, Valerie is so divine.

Heal me once, change me twice, transform me so very nice.

And if someone hurts me dear, I will have no real fear.

Like you, my goddess, the very same, I will use the emerald flame.

'Suze?' My eyes widened to their fullest extent.

I. Knew. That. Voice.

I hadn't heard it for over two years, of course. I spun around and leapt into Joshua's arms, finally aware of the fact that I was sniffling.

Yet no tears fell. The wind whipped them away before they had a chance.

Just like it did to Joshua. My cousin.

For he wasn't real. Nor a ghost.

He was a hologram . . . from the future.

And I knew that could mean nothing good.

AN: Argmh. Sorry for the LONG update, again, folks. Guess what? IM HALFWAY FINISHED CHAPTER 16 FOR CANDELA! YAY! Lol. It'll be finished soon . . . gah. I had to redo it three times!

Please review and make me very happy . . .

So happy that I'll gain enough energy/inspiration to update.

Love,

Lluvia.