"Enough"
Disclaimer:
I do not own Tommy, Kira, Trent, Conner, or Ethan. I do own Jason and Misti Ford as well as Dr. Michelle Brice. I also own the ideas expressed in this fic.
Suicide In the Family
"Ya know what, I give up! You win, Misti!" Kira could her parents bickering yet again downstairs while she stayed shut up in her room. Knowing how their fights got when her mother had been drinking, Kira didn't want any part of it. "I'm finally gonna give you what you've always wanted! I'm gonna get the hell out yours and Kira's lives!" Jason Ford yelled before storming upstairs. Hearing the last part, Kira looked up from the song she'd been writing as she heard her father storm past her room and into his and her mother's room. Going after him to see what was wrong, Kira walked in just in time to see him pull out his hand gun and a notepad and a pen. Seeing him jotting something down on the notepad, Kira saw him lay the gun down next to him. Oh my God!...He can't be... She thought to herself when she figured out what he was planning. Quietly, she asked "Dad?...What's goin' on?" Looking up at his daughter standing in the doorway with a confused and somewhat frightened look on her face, Jason replied "Sweetheart, I'm just taking care of something I should have done years ago." Finishing the note he'd been writing, Jason tore the top sheet off of the notepad and handed it to Kira. "I want ya to give this to your mother." Hands trembling ever so slightly, Kira took the note from her father. She didn't dare read it for fear of what it might say. Looking up into his daughter's soft, innocent doe eyes, Jason added "Kira, I want ya know that what I'm about to do, I am not doing because of you. I've always loved you more than anything." As her father sat back down on the bed, Kira watched as tears began stinging her eyes as he put the gun to the side of his head. Wanting it all to stop, Kira tried her best to tell him not to go through with it, but she couldn't say a thing. Finally, she jumped a little when she heard the loud bang as the gun fired. Watching as her father fell back on the bed, Kira screamed in horror of what she'd just seen. Finally working up the courage to open the note her father had given her, Kira read it silently to herself. My life has been going farther and farther downhill lately. I thought it would eventually get better but it has only gotten worse. I cannot take it anymore. To all whom I've hurt, I sincerely apologize. But, I just take this anymore. This was the only way out. Jason
Hearing her daughter's scream from downstairs in the kitchen, Misti Ford ran up the stairs and into her and Jason's bedroom. "Kira, are you okay? What's-" Before she could finish her question, Misti had seen what had made her daughter scream. Clasping her hands over her mouth, she muttered "Oh my God!" Shaking nearly to the point she could barely control it, Kira handed her mother the note her father had given her. Scarcely above a whisper, she mentioned "Here..." Unable to take it anymore, Kira exited the house and ran down the street. Misti just stood alone in the room as she read the note to herself and nearly screamed herself.
Meanwhile, Kira managed to find her way to the park. Having been training in the park, Tommy saw Kira run by. Seeing that she looked upset, he took off after her. "Kira, wait!" he called after her. After what she'd just seen, Kira had been so upset that hadn't noticed Tommy running after her and calling out to her. Finally, he managed to catch up with her. Gently taking hold of her by the upper arms, Tommy asked gently "Kira, what's wrong?" Tears flowing almost endlessly from her face, Kira was shaking so much, she could barely even speak. "I-I can't believe he-he did it!" She managed to get out after much effort. Confused, Tommy told her "Kira, calm down. Calm down." Cupping her cheek, Tommy gently wiped away her tears. Beginning to finally calm down some, Kira had stopped shaking nearly completely and had gained more control over her voice and speech. Looking down into her soft doe eyes filled with confusion and fear, Tommy asked "Now. Who did what?" Looking back up at him, Kira explained "My dad. He-He committed suicide. Right there in front of me." Shocked at what he was hearing, Tommy just took Kira in his arms-knowing she needed understanding and comforting more than anything right now-and replied gently. "Oh my God! Kira, I'm so sorry..." Taking shelter in the security of his arms, Kira added "It's okay, Dr. Oliver. It's not your fault..." Kira thought a moment before she added "If anyone, I blame my mom." Confused, Tommy asked "Why your mom?" Tommy lead Kira over to a nearby bench and sat down there next to her. Looking back up at him, Kira explained. "My parents were downstairs bickering-no big surprise there-when I heard my dad yell 'I'm finally gonna give you what you've always wanted! I'm gonna get the hell outta yours and Kira's lives.' It had to be because of her..." Knowing Kira was more than likely right, Tommy took her back in his arms. "Kira, it's gonna be okay. Give it some time...everything'll be okay." Having met both of Kira's parents before, Tommy had never thought that Mr. Ford would be the suicidal type. But, he couldn't think about that now. He had to be strong for Kira. She needed someone to give her strength. Unsure of how right Tommy was, Kira asked "Are you sure, Dr. Oliver?" Holding her close and giving her the support she so desperately needed right now, Tommy reassured her "Just give it time, Kira. Just give it time..." Feeling her pull away from him, Tommy looked into her eyes as he added "By the way, Kira. You can call me Tommy." Smiling for the first time that evening, Kira leaned down on his shoulder and just took refuge in his arms.
Finally, about an hour later, Tommy mentioned "It's getting late. I should probably take you home." Checking her watch, Kira noticed Tommy was right. "Yeah, it is. Man, I totally lost track of time." Chuckling, Tommy added "That's okay. Given the circumstances, I don't know anybody who wouldn't." The words were out before Tommy could catch himself. Great, Tommy! Classy! Just how far down your throat can you get your foot? Tommy mentally scolded himself while also mentally kicking himself for what he said. Turning back to Kira, he added "Kira...I didn't mean it..." His voice trailed off as Kira added "Tommy, it's okay. I know what you meant. Don't worry. No offense taken." Smiling up at him, Kira knew what he had said came out completely different from the way he'd wanted it to. Smiling, Tommy looked from where he'd been inspecting the ground back up at Kira. "Thanks...for understanding and all." Chuckling, Kira added "No problem. And anyway, thanks for being there for me, Tommy. I really needed that." Understanding, Tommy added "No problem, Kira. That's what friends are for. And last I checked, we were friends." Catching his feeble attempt at levity, Kira couldn't help but chuckle. "Yeah, Tommy. I've always considered you a real friend." With that, Tommy took Kira home.
Back at the Fords' house, Misti had just finished taking care of the buisiness of what Jason had done when Kira walked in the front door. "Mom?" She called as her mother came in to greet her. Dried tears still staining her face, Misti replied "Kira! Thank God you're okay! I was getting worried about you!" Turning to Tommy, Misti thought to herself Oh, shit! Great, we have company and I look like shit! Oh well, I'm sure he already knows what happened and I'm sure he'll understand...Just act cool, Misti... "Thank you for bringing her home umm..." Misti's voice trailed off as due to the shock of all that had happened, she'd forgotten Tommy's name. Understanding, Tommy simply nodded and added "Just call me Tommy." Smiling in relief, Misti finished "Right, Tommy. Anyway, thank you for bringing Kira back home." Smiling, Tommy added "It's no trouble at all..." He thought a moment before he continued. "And um...I'm sorry for what happened..." Knowing full well what Tommy was referring to, the smile on Misti's face quickly faded as she quietly added "Thank you." Turning to Tommy, Kira spoke up. "Well, I'll see ya later, Dr. Oliver." Although she knew she could call him Tommy, Kira felt a little awkward doing so in front of her mother. Turning back as the music that was Kira's voice ensnared his attention, Tommy smiled at her. "See ya later, Kira." With that Tommy left Kira and Misti alone at the Ford residence. Turning back to her mother, Kira broke the silence that had fallen over the room and hung in the air. "I'm kinda tired. I think I'm just gonna go head on up to bed." Understanding what Kira had been through that evening, Misti just nodded and replied "All right, sweetie. Sweet dreams." Hearing the last part, Kira thought to herself sarcastically Yeah, right...like that's really gonna happen...considering all that's happened tonight... "Yeah, night, mom." she added, heading up the stairs and back into her room as she got ready for bed. Climbing into bed, Kira found sleep nearly impossible. Damn it...just relax, Kira...calm down and just relax... Kira thought to herself. Finally, a couple of hours later, she finally managed to fall asleep.
An hour after Kira had gone up to bed, Misti soon followed behind. After completing her nightly routine, Misti Ford climbed into bed. Just as her daughter had done, Misti found it nearly impossible to fall asleep. Her mind was racing with thoughts from the evening's events and guilt. Damn, Misti...you really screwed up this time...Hell, I'm surprised Kira's not treating you like the plague right now...'Course that could just be shock...Damn, poor girl...she didn't deserve to see that. Man, what an ass Jason was. And making her give me the damn note...What the hell was he thinking?...Oh well, what's done is done...You can't change the past, Misti...Just try and calm down and remember...tomorrow's another day...'Course, hell, you'll probably screw that one up too... After about an hour of mentally kicking her own ass, Misti finally managed to find sleep, though it was not a restful one (and that was putting it lightly).