Hey!!! Oh. my. Gosh! I am near one hundrad reviews!!!! YEAH!!!! I AM SOOOO SYCHED!!!! Okay, I'm going to take a leaf out of one of my fav author's books and throw a 0ne hundrath review party! So please try to review! Oh, and I'm really sorry that this is ogin slow! But I DO have reasons!
1) Mini family emergency. Nothing life-threatening or anything like taht, but it will keep me busy for a while yet!
2) New Computer limits! I can't use the comp. or tv from 4 til 8! Which isn't that bad, but I have my own comp. and it's really tempting! But I won't fall for it! I can't! (Over dramatic today- blame my REALLY fun drama class)
3) The curse that befalls all writers: WRITERS BLOCK!! I REALLY HATE WRITERS BLOCK!!!!!
And I have a note: THANK YOU DISAPPEARER! She gave me a great compliment and reminded me of my grammatical mistakes (which I think I corrected for this chappie, so thank you!) And she told me the country she lives in! Not trying to impose on people, but it's fun to know who you're writing for, because my reviewers are my inspiration!
And THANK YOU DANCINGIRL3! She e-mailed me to tell me how much she loves the story! That just made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside!
THANK YOU ALL MY REVIEWERS!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!
Now that I have that out of the way.... Here's the story!
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Looking over to the TV., she saw a blushing Beast Boy. Raven blushed too, remembering his confession.
"Ahhh…" she said, for once in her life failing to find the right words.
'After all this time, why can't we see that she's dying.'
"So…" Beast Boy said, rubbing the back of his head.
"Yeah…" Raven said, looking nervously at her feet. The stood there for a few, awkward moments, then looked at each other. Raven tried a smile and was relived when Beast Boy smiled back.
They stood there, smiling at each other, until the game station melted with black energy. Startled out of their trance, Raven and Beast Boy looked at each other, at the partially melted game station, and back at each other. With no warning, they both burst out into laughter.
"Man," Beast Boy managed through his laughing. "Cyborg will be ticked."
"I know." Raven said, giggling. That giggle did it, the game station games blew up in a blast of energy that sent the two Titans oddly quiet.
"So…" Beast Boy said, nervous again.
"Yeah…" Raven replied." 'Great.' She thought. 'Right back where we started.'
Beast Boy suddenly spoke. "So… you're Silence, right?"
Raven nodded. "Which means that… when I spoke to Silence before about… personal issues… that was you, right?" Raven nodded again, blushing red as a tomato, but no where near Beast Boy's fire engine red.
"Which means, when Silence said… said.. when she said that 'she thought you loved me too', that… that was you?"
Raven, nodded quickly, and stared at the ground.
'This is it.' She thought. 'This is the part where he screams at me, telling me that he can't believe I would lie to him, where he completely loses his trust in me, where he… where he stops loving me. Where does this hurt that much? Why does my heart feel like it will be ripped in two the moment he says those words; "I hate- I hate- I" I can't even think them!'
She was so deep in her thoughts that she failed to notice that Beast Boy had crossed the room to stand next to her. He gently grabbed her chin and brought it to eye level.
"Do you love me?" He asked, quietly, solemnly, yet oh so seriously. He saw her eyes light up in resignation when she nodded.
He smiled, and leaned down to kiss her. Raven stifled a gasp and felt her knees go limp. The kiss was short and sweet, questioning, yet completely sure. Raven still had her eyes closed as Beast Boy pulled away. She slowly opened them and smiled slightly. He smiled also.
"Let's go check on our friend." And they ran out, hurriedly, to the infirmary, not quite together, but not quite apart. And, outside the Tower, beautiful orange and green pixie flew.
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"She'll be alright." Abbi said, drying her hands. Raven nodded from where she sat on the kitchen counter.
"Is some one in there?" Beast Boy asked from his spot at the table. Abbi nodded.
"Yes. Thor is finishing up the surgery, Cyborg is working the machines, and Robin… Robin talks to her." She shook her head. "He won't leave her side. It's almost embarrassing how much he loves her." Beast Boy and Raven both blushed. Abbi noticed, but pretended not to.
"How did she get the injuries anyway?" Beast Boy said, to break the awkward silence. Abbi's face immediately turned solemn.
"Her heart was breaking. Tamerans are very special. Their body requires happiness and sun to perform properly. Just like Star's powers are reliant on righteous fury, and the joy of flight, her body is too. Because she's so sad, her body has been developing deep, long gashes. But she didn't want anyone to notice. Raven's access power immediately felt her sorrow, and fulfilled her wishes, because, after all, Raven is an empathic."
The other two Titans sat there in shock for a while, astounded that their seemingly joyful peppy friend could be so sad that her body would break down.
"Why is she so sad?" Abbi looked Raven straight in the eye.
"Because she thought that her best friend had replaced her with a star." At these simple words, Raven's walls came crashing down. She started to pant heavily and feel kneeling to the floor, which considering she was on the counter top, was a larger fall.
'It's my entire fault.' Raven's head swelled with thoughts.
'If I hadn't been so busy-'
'But what else could you do-'
'You saved her life-'
'There was no way-'
'It's all my fault-'
'You're the reason she's alive now-'
'If I hadn't been so selfish-'
'She should trust you-'
'You're in the band-'
'BUT I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN!!!'
That quickly silenced the voices. She sat there, gasping, as one, overlooked, silent voice whispered;
'How?'
No answer.
'I- I just should have.'
'But how could you know?'
'I should have remembered that she ran off emotions, I should have seen the signs. I should have-'
'I should have done this, I should have done that, wah, wah wah! Well, guess what? That was the PAST AND YOU CAN"T CHANGE IT! So learn from it! The best thing you can do for her right now is to be her friend. That's all she needs right now. Not Silence, not the heroine, but her friend, Raven.
Raven's breathing slowed to normal as the voice of reason took over. Whatever emotion that was, it was completely right. What Starfire needed right now was the truth. With a twirl of her cloak, Raven ran down the hall. AS she sprinted towards the infirmary, she asked herself a question.
'Who are you? I've never encountered you before.' Somehow, she could feel the emotion smiling. It felt like a golden ray of sunshine. She had just enough time to tell herself to explore this fact before the voice replied.
'I am the greatest of your emotions; Friendship. Yes, you have felt Friendship before, but in sacrificing your greatest treasure, your one defiance from your Father, you created the greatest friendship.'
As she finished, Raven had skidded around the corner and almost ran into the door of the infirmary. Panting hard, she kicked the door down.
"Out." She ordered in a cold, hard voice. "I need to talk with Starfire. Everybody out." Thor immediately left, knowing the reason for Starfire's 'sudden' illness.
Cybogr hesitated, but when Raven looked at him with her eyes, he left. Raven was slightly surprised, but she guessed that her eyes betrayed her soul more the words ever could right know. But it would take more then eyes to get Robin away from Starfire.
"Robin." She said, almost cooed, gently. "Don't worry, I can take care of her. I think I know a way to heal her, but I can't do it if you're in the room." When Robin still didn't look at her, she walked to the other side of the bed.
"Robin. Do you trust me?" Surprised, Robin's head quickly came up and he locked eyes with Raven. He remembered every single battled the Teen Titans had ever fought, he remembered all the good times they had shared and how many times Raven had saved all of their lives, including his and Starfire's.
Slowly he stood up, inch by inch, oh so slowly. And slowly he walked to the door, inch by inch, oh so slowly. And slowly he closed the door, inch by inch, oh so slowly, catching a glimpse of his love's (though he didn't know it yet) sleeping form. And so slowly, inch by inch, oh so slowly, he was gone.
And Raven was alone. Alone with an unconscious Starfire. Along with an unconscious Starfire, asking herself what in the world she had gotten herself into this time.
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