Buffy and Willow

"My Buffy"

Disclaimer: I don't own it

Pairing: Buffy/Willow

Summary: Willow thinks about Buffy and what Buffy means to her…debating a sequel! (I suck at Summaries.)

AN: Takes place after season 7…Spike didn't die.

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She didn't understand what it was about her that made all her insides turn to jell-O. Maybe it was the way her blonde hair bounced when he was kicking some vampire ass…or even when her well thought out puns, that aren't usually funny, yet she laughs anyway.

Willow was in love with Buffy Anne Summers and she had no idea what to do about it. First and most important Buffy wasn't gay…and she was in love with a souled vampire named Spike. Second Willow was with Kennedy. There was no way that she was going to tell Buffy how she felt and face rejection.

Willow was sitting by a tree outside the coven's house. They had all moved to England after Buffy and the rest of the slayers closed the Hellmouth. They have been living here for about two months and these feeling for Buffy suddenly popped into Willow's head.

She hadn't had these types of thought about her best friend since she met Tara. In high school she had thought about her and Buffy but she never dared to act on them…and that is when Angel came into the picture so Willow pushed her feelings away into the back of her mind. Than Tara came along and Willow forgot all bout her feelings for Buffy…because Tara was her substitute.

Willow knew that it wasn't right to think about Tara that way, because Tara was the first women that she ever loved, granted she wasn't Buffy, but Willow did love her. After Tara was murdered Willow went on a killing spree wanted to get the guys that took away her love…and she did succeed in getting on of them…but not the other two.

After that whole ordeal Willow knew she was never going to have Buffy because Buffy now looked at her like she looked at Spike before he had a chip or a soul and how she look at Angel when he lost his soul…with hatred. Willow could bare to live in the same house as Buffy when she looked at her that way so she agreed with Giles to go to England and try to control her magic…and it worked.

When she arrived back in Sunnydale Buffy and the whole gang was all happy to see her. Buffy the most. They started hanging out like they did back in High School. They started researching together again…it was just like old times and Willow could have be happier.

"You almost ready there Wills?" Xander asked as he pocked his head in the doorway.

"Yeah Xand, I'll be out in a minute."

She had almost forgotten what had caused her to think about Buffy in the first place. Kennedy had asked her to marry her and the coven was going to do the ceremony…because they couldn't get it done by a real priest…because Willow was Jewish. Willow had accepted her proposal…and they were getting married today. Buffy and Xander where her best mans…since for some odd reason Kennedy wanted her to take the mans role…but whatever.

But they day before Buffy came walking into her hotel room with a huge grin on her face. But when she saw that Willow was writing her vows the smile faded. Willow had asked her what was wrong and Buffy just shrugged. They sat in comfortable silence for awhile until finally Buffy broke it.

"Are you sure about this…I mean is Kennedy the right one for you?" Buffy had asked her.

"Yeah…I guess. Why?" Willow had responded somewhat taken back by the question.

Buffy smiled a forced smile and Willow could tell…there was something on the slayers mind. And from years of knowing Buffy Willow knew that there was no way she was going to get the slayer to spill if she didn't want to. Buffy leaned over and kissed Willow on the cheek. "I love you Will," Buffy had said.

Willow knew that it wasn't the friendship 'I love you's' that they always told one another…this was the other kind. The kind she had been wanting to hear from Buffy for a long time. But before Willow could responded Buffy was up and out of her room.

Now today was the day that her and Kennedy were supposed to get married…and Willow didn't know if she wanted to marry Kennedy when she had a shot at Buffy. She was so confused.

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AN: Another chapter…yes or no?

I need a little break from my Buffy/Cordelia story while I think of a story line and how I am going to intertwine the two shows…give me about two weeks and I should have the first chapter of season 6 up.