(A/N) Karen, I nearly forgot, I will e-mail you I swear it, I will do it after this post, so check your mail!

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN POTC!

"Swing high!" Bill instructed Elizabeth as she swung her sword. "Your not going to hit anything if you let your wrists go weak! Now swing like you bloody well mean it!" Elizabeth began again, swinging her sword, left to right. She had been at this for almost six months, that was the terms of the agreement, six months to make sure she knew what she was doing, six long months away from Will. "Very good." Bill walked around and watched her. Her demeanor had changed, she was aggressive, she had refocused herself, she wasn't going to allow herself to be a victim again. "Watch your stance!"

"I've got it!" Bill took a stick and hit her left leg, Elizabeth lost her footing and fell on her back.

"No you don't." Bill bent down and extended his hand and helped her up. "We are leaving tomorrow, you had best learn to handle yourself."

"I can handle myself." Elizabeth grunted as she got up.

"Not from what I could tell." Elizabeth placed a hand on her hip and rolled her eyes. "Don't roll your eyes at me. Now again."

"No more…" Elizabeth began to walk away.

"No, no, no…you…"

"I'm tired alright."

"Why are you doing this? Shutting down?"

"Because I bloody well feel like it!" Elizabeth then sat down and put her head in her hands. "It's so hard…I see his face every time I close my eyes…I can't keep going the way I am…"

"Don't burn yourself Elizabeth. The day will come when you will never think of him."

"I will always think of him. He took away the one thing that I had to give to Will…" Elizabeth said. "I shouldn't be talking this way to you…"

"No, go ahead…if it helps."

"I just want Will back." Elizabeth then got up. "I can't keep pretending this isn't eating me alive."

"Are you pretending Elizabeth? I don't think you are. I think for a brief moment you brought yourself ahead, left the past, and then, something brought you back to that night."

"You know nothing of that night!" She screamed. Bill stood back and looked at her, never once had she raised her voice. "Don't speak like you know what it's like to be beaten, and raped…just don't."

"Elizabeth, how about maybe talking about it? You keep me in the dark, do you plan on doing this to Will? Jack? Yourself?"

"No one needs to know…"

"Yes we do."

"Including yourself?" Elizabeth said with an angry look.

"Yes."

"You barely know me…you barely know your own son." Her words stung him like salt on an open wound.

"Elizabeth are you going to start pushing now? What's with the mean spirited quick whip? Because if you start pushing, I will push back."

"Threatening me? It doesn't suit you." Elizabeth then turned around and started walking. Bill then ran after and grabbed her arm. Elizabeth's immediately responded. "Don't touch me!" Elizabeth then punched him in the face. Bill went staggering to the ground. "Don't touch me!" Elizabeth then closed her arms around herself. "Don't touch me ever again…" Her eyes glazed over. She fell to her knees and started rocking herself back and forth. "Please, leave me alone." Tears started falling from her eyes.

When Bill finally looked up he saw Elizabeth, who not but five minutes ago, was wielding a sword, now down on her knees, rocking back and forth, on the brink of sanity. "Elizabeth…" Bill crawled over to her. Perhaps he pushed her too much, too soon, but he needed to toughen her up…this was the woman that his son loved, he be damned if he was going to let her go to pieces. "Elizabeth, come on darling, let me help you up…" He placed his hand on her arm.

"No!" The fear in her eyes…the same fear he saw a few months ago. What had made her take a giant step back.

"Elizabeth just let me help you…"

"No one can…it's all my fault…" She was crying so hard, the hiccupping echoing throughout the trees.

"What is Elizabeth? Talk to me." Bill softened his voice.

"He raped me because he could! Because I let him! Because I couldn't handle myself! I thought I could, but I couldn't!" 'So that's what set her off…' Bill thought to himself.

"Elizabeth, what he did wasn't your fault. He did this because he is a cowardly pig, who can only think of himself as a man by raping women. Elizabeth don't blame yourself."

"I don't blame myself…" Her voice was barely a whisper. "I hate myself. I can barely stand myself." Her thoughts were drifting to a place, in which, he did not want them to go.

"Elizabeth, don't you dare do this to yourself. Not now, not when you have been doing so well. Elizabeth, you have to be strong so you can find Will, so you can tell him everything you ever wanted to."

"Will isn't going to want me. Not when he finds out that I have been used…ravaged by…" She took a deep breath. "He is going to throw me to the gutter…I am so disgusting."

"Elizabeth, stop doing this to yourself. You know Will, he would never do that to you, he loves you. He is probably sick with grief right now, thinking your gone. Imagine what he is thinking, never being able to tell you how much he loves you." Bill then lightly touched her arm, this time she didn't flinch. "Elizabeth, we are leaving tomorrow, I bought a bloody ship, and wrestled up a crew. We are going to find Will, we are going to find Jack, we are going to make everything right."

"Nothing will be right. Not until I have his blood on my hands."

"Elizabeth, you will have your revenge, but you also have to give yourself time to heal."

"Heal? I feel lost, like nothing is making any sense. I think that I am moving forward, finally feeling right, then whack…I dream about what he does to me, the way he hit me, the way he…the way he touched me. I feel his hands on me, his breath on my neck, on my face…I feel him…" Elizabeth then closed her eyes. "I can't remember what Will feels like, I don't remember what it felt like for him to kiss me, to hold me…all I feel is Danielson…" Elizabeth then put her head in her hands. "I can't move on…" Bill wrapped his arms around her and held her tight, things were going to get better for her, he promised himself, that he would see this girl marry his son, and finally be happy.

(A/N) I really want to give you all a chapter, to see Bill and Elizabeth's plan, but I can't I am known for my cliffe's, so I gotta keep em coming! Bwhahahahaha, another post, by Wednesday!