Bella 30

Jason walked up the stairs to his room, sleep had become something he rarely did anymore, he was racked by so much worry for Sam, her whereabouts and so forth that he was afraid of sleeping for fear that she would call and he would miss it. " I love you baby so much, hold on I am coming, I will find you Sam, if it's the last thing I do."

Walking over to the closet he turned on the light and found his duffel bag, grabbing a couple of shirts and a couple pairs of pants with his left hand and not paying muchattention he reached for the bag and pulled it down off the shelf when a few letters fell off the top of it and hit the rug below "What the he…" He said out loud to himself and picking them up he flipped them over and sure enough just as he suspected they were from her a couple of them were from within the past two months, frantically ripping into them he read…..

Dear Jason,

I never thought in a million years it would come to this. I know now that I was wrong to push you away after the loss of our baby and I am so sorry for that. I miss you every second of the day, it's like without you I can barely function as little by little I feel myself slipping away without your touch. I don't know how much longer I can live like this Jason. I wanted you to know that the first moment that I saw you I fell in love and I haven't ever stopped and I never will. But I would rather die than be alive and live without you. I hope you have a good life and that you will someday forgive me for what I did to you and to us. I was messed up, but even more than that, ever since the day I made you leave, It has been worse. I have been trying to call you for the past few months but every time I do Courtney says your are not there or that you won't speak to me, what am I supposed to do with that Jason? I don't know if she is right or wrong, all I know is that someday, somehow I will be able to see you again and show you my love, because it is here waiting for you, and if ever we are given the chance again, I will hold on to you with everything I have.

Sam.

Jason ran his hands over it and couldn't believe it. He had a hard time believing it had come to this also and it wasn't Sam who did it and for that he vowed that when he found her, somehow, someway Courtney would pay. It was getting to be morning, he grabbed every letter he could find and placed them into the bag along with his clothes and going downstairs he grabbed a load of cash out of the drawer that thankfully he kept locked as he turned around the phone started to ring.

Thinking it was her he lunged for it and grabbed it up.

"Sam." He said.

"Hey this is Brenda, Lo and I are on our way into Port Charles, can you meet us out of gate 1249 in one hour?"

"Yeah why?"

"It's Sam, she called me Jason, and she dropped several subtle hints that indicated she was in Hawaii."

"Yes." He said to himself.

"Did you say something." Brenda inquired thinking she had heard him say something.

"Well, I just have a feeling that she is there, that was one place we talked about going, did you say you were with Lorenzo?" He asked quizzically.

"Yeah, it's a long story, I can't talk much more just meet us at the airport, oh and Jason bring a suitcase with you, who knows how long it will take us to find her."

"Okay, I will see you in an hour, sharp." He said hanging on to her every word and then hanging on to the hope of finding Sam and having her once again in his arms.

Sam tossed and turned in her bed as memories danced in her head of the two of them making love and being together.

"I want you to marry me Sam, I want you forever and always, I will never stop loving you."

"And you will never get tired of me?"

"Never."

"Prove it." She said to him as he looked into her eyes and pulled her close kissing her deeper and wetter as he ground himself into her.

"Is that all you got?" She said smiling at him as he looked down at her "Its going to take more than that." She said as he moved his mouth down onto her and made her feel things she had never felt with a man…..ever.

Waking up she grabbed her blankets and pulled them up around her. What she wanted more than anything was his strong arms around her, holding her close to him and never letting go, after all this time, after all these years she could never forget him. The feelings and the ache never went away and that is when she came finally to the end of herself. He was the ONE and she wanted him and as she looked around the room, she vowed right here right now that Courtney or no Courtney she was going home to Jason.