disclamer- i do not own degrassi or any of the characters in it.

ok as you know ellie and sean have been having "fun" at seans house and everything but... well you'll see!

beep beep bepp!

"time to get up and go through another sweet day at degrassi" ellie says as she shuts off her alarm.

she turns around in her bed to see if sean is there... but she jumps to see that hes not!

"sean" she slightly yells to see if hes in the trailer.

"sean!" she says again.

she walks out into the kitchen and sees sean cooking.

"what are you doing?" she asks

"what cant a guy cook every once in a while" sean reply's

"yeah sure a guy can cook but he has to know how to actually cook!" she says laughing.

she walks over to where sean was cooking pancakes and throws out his burnt pancakes that he was cooking.

"mind if i help?"

"go ahead"

she makes pancakes and they sit down and eat them real quick then ellie hits the showers and does her hair and makeup.

"hey sean are you ready to go?"

"yeah lets go"

sean drives them to school. (just incase you dont know he just got his liscence last week and his brother left him a car)

they get to school! jay walks right up to sean.

"hey man whats goin on!"

"nothin jay.. you?"

ellie walks away because well she doesnt feel like gettin ignored today.

ashley walks up to ellie.

"why dont you look so happy to be here today?"

"i dont know im just...tired (laughs) i guess."
(laughs) "ok"
"so ash what are you gonna do about craig i mean we saw him with your own eyes kissing manny!"

"yeah well maybe he was just giving her goodbye kiss (trying to convince herself)"

"yeah right ash i say him with my own 2-eyes and that was NOT a good bye kiss"

"yeah your prolly right its just that i love craig i mean he was my 1st and i want him to be the only guy in my life."

"you sound like a love film"

"whatever ellie just because you have sean (she laughs)"

they go to comp. media class.

they sit down and listen to their boring teacher talk to them well ellie gets a IM.

sean: hey baby!
ellie: oh hey whats goin on?

sean: not much just sittin in computer class with mr.simpson!

ellie: yeah that sucks im sititn in comp. media with mr.anderson!

sean: lol. fun! so what do you wanna do tonight?

ellie: i dunno i was thinking about going and visiting my mom

sean: why would you wanna go and see her?

ellie: well shes coming to this hospital for the weekend from rehab!

sean: oh well if your gonna go im gonna come with you.

ellie: yeah the only reason im even going is if dave comes there the hospital wont let him touch me.

sean: and i wont let him either!

ellie: yeah so are you gonna hangout with me or jay today at lunch?

sean: well i kinda promised jay that i would work on a car with him.

ellie: ok whatever.

sean: dont get pissed off. cant i hangout with my friends

ellie: yeah i wasnt sayin that you couldnt

sean: it seemed like you were

ellie: well i wasnt

sean: why dont you come and watch or something?

ellie: because i dont feel like getting ignored

sean: why would you get ignored?

ellie: EVERYTIME your with jay you always ignore me and then when i leave you come and say bye (well most of the time)

sean: well sorry i dont mean to or anything.

ellie: ok well the bells gonna ring in like 10 min. and i have to pay attention for once in class today so i will cya later.

sean: ok

ellie: love you

sean: loe you too bye

ellie: bye

bell rings (lunch time)

(thinking) i see sean hanging out with amy, alex, and jay. it makes me mad because i know that amy still has a little thing for sean! but i cant do anything about it unless she makes a move then ill kick her ass.

"hey el, wheres your sweet boyfriend?"
"oh hey marco! hes with jay!"
"oh my god you should make him come sit by you if it was dillion i would yell at him and make him come and sit next to me wether he liked it or not!"

"yeah well i dont wanna make him mad!"
"why not?"
"because marco without sean i wouldnt have a home or a boyfriend or ANYTHING!"
"gees sorry el, you could always come and stay at my house you know."

"yeah i know and thanks marco but i just feel safer with my boyfriend ya know? "
"yeah i know exactly how you feel"

bell rings for the next classes to start i sit at the table and wait to see if sean would even come and walk with me but he just went and walked with jay!

the next classes went on and i didnt have sean in any of them with me so i didnt get to see him at all. then the end of the day bell rang...

"hey alex"

"what?" (wondering why alex was talking to her)

"do you know where sean went?"

"oh yeah he cut early and went with jay to go to the part shop"

"do you know when he'll be back?"
"yeah like at 6 tonight or something because they gotta re-assemble everything"

I walk away i was so pissed!
"hey el whats wrong?"

"well sean was suppose to come and visit my mom with me and he fuckin ditched me for that fuckin jake!"

"maybe he forgot"

"ashley hes suppose to be my bf he SHOULDNT forget!"

i decided that i would just go on my own!

i got to the hospital and i saw my mom she looked rough she had bruises still all over her from when dave did beat her up... she had bags under her eyes... she was pale! i walked into the room that they had her in.

"hi mom"

"oh hi ellie what do you want?"

"cant i come and visit my mom"

"not when you put her into re-hab"
"ITS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD"
"hunny have you looked at my lately its not gettin any better!"
"well im sorry i thought that it would help you and then you would be able to come home and take care of me"

"yeah well its took late for that one!"
"why?"

"the doctors say that it was too late when you brought me in and that i have so much alcohol in my system and that it made me so sick that they dont even think ill make it through the month"

"mom are you serious"
"yes ellie i am!"
"im sorry! i really wish that i would of gotten you in sooner (starting to cry)"

"whatever ellie just go you standing here watching me get even more worse isnt helping!"

"ok " i left the room!
i went up to the nurse and asked her how my mom was doin! she said not good and that she only has about a month or two to live! iw anted to go back into the room and talk to her and joke around but i knew it would never happen so i just got on a bus and headed back to seans.

5:30 p.m.

at seans

"ellie where HAVE YOU BEEN?"
"thought you werent suppose to be home for another 30 min."

"what does that matter ! where have you been? "

"what the fuck do you mean where have i been! you should of fuckin known! remember i was going to go and see my mom and you said that you would come with me but no you went and fucked around with jay and his dumb ass car! obviosulsey you dont give a shit about me!"
"you know i do el! i jus---- (she didnt let him finish)

"just fuckin forgot about me is what you did!"
"sorry. so how is she?"

"the doctors said she might live for another month if shes lucky!"
he goes to hug her!

"get away from me!"

"wat the hell is wrong now?"
"if you think that your gonna keep ditching me for a fuckin stoner than well i dont think we should be together!"

"ellie you know that i love you! i just forgot!"

"yeah I KNOW you just forgot just like you forgot to walk with me after lunch like usual just like you forgot to stay in school for the last 2 blocks!"

"im--"
"no dont even talk to fuckin ditched school and me for JAY!"

i went and layed down in bed!

he comes and lay next me to rubbing my leg.

"sean why do you keep doing this to me?"
"what"
"making me feel like shit like im not good enough for you." (crying)

(sean starting to cry and feeling like shit) "im sorry ellie i dont mean to"
"whatever" ( as i close my eyes and try to sleep)

after that sean knew he had to start paying more attention to ellie and not ignoring her or forgetting about her! because sean knew he loved her more than any one in this world and he would do anything for her.

sean feel asleep with ellie holding on to her tight!

they woke up at the same time.

"good morning beautiful!"

(i smile) "goodmorning!"

"guess what its the weekend and i think that we should go and see a movie"
"ok when?"

"tonight!"
"ok!"
"but first we need to clean up" (he laughs).

"ok ill take one first" (smiles)

(frowning) "ok"

"sean im just kidding you can take one with me"
(smiles) "LETS GO!"

they get in the shower. and for the first time in a couple days sean finally kisses her and VERY passionelty!

"see thats what i want from you all the time" (i laugh)

"oh well i can do that"
he kisses her again and firmley feels her

ok thats it for now!
im working on another chapter!

will sean finally start paying more attention to ellie and not jay! keep checking on it to see!

REVIEW!

(a/n i hope that you like it and im gonna make another one real soon!)