Welcome to another EvilPinkBunnieMuffins production, hosted by FanFic online!I kno all my loyal readers will evjoy this little fic!Its gonna be a few chapters long, so again, long trerm comitment!So please enjoy, I Porabably Wouldnt Be This Way.

A/n: u kno the drill, i just barrow.Dont make me say it.I get all depressed.And no one has been as depressed as i am since the elephant sat on the farmsers wife...ok that was corny.

I Probably Wouldnt Be This Way

The moment I heard of his passing, I thought, How would they know?Why should I trust them? But that was changed when they handed me his blood stained chain that he used to wear around his neck.ANd for days I sat without food or anyother thought.I cryed til I couldnt anymore.My life was over.He was the only person on the island that would ever pay attention to me.Unless it was Riku.God how I hated him.He used me.I thought he was looking for Sora too.But he used me and he ended up having his father protect him and Sora..died then too.But I cant bring him back now.Not ever.Ill never see his face again.If I hadnt've bothered to talk to him, I proabably woulnt be this way.But ever since then Ive been a hit on the local radio, kinda like Tidus's cousin, Yuna.

But she doesnt understand.SHe just sings because its fun.I sing because it hurts not to.But everyone thinks that Im so great when they dont realize that I sing the truth.I hurt all the way down and I cant feel anything else.Im never gonna be able to maybe even marry him..yes I admit I loved him that much.But they've put a headstone in the cemitary today.His mother been gone for a few years now, proabably from the grieif.And she was a wonderful lady.She looked like she wuld have never broken down, even in the spur of the moment, but when she had found out about her son being gone, she flipped.He was the person in her life, that sh cared for the most, because her and her husband had been devorced.After all, he did manage to get a hold of Sora by accident a few times.He ended up with broken ribs twice and had to go to the hospital.When my mother heard she dressed up nd took me with her to see him.The first time he was 8 and he slightly cried because his father was yelling at his mother and saying hurtful things.I know this because he told me.And the second time he was 10 and he siad it didnt hurt that bad.I couldnt imgine the pain he was going through.And that when I think i began to like him.Well at least back I think.When I moved in I heard my mom talking with Soras over the fence about him saying something about me.

"He stared at her for the longest time and I had to ask him

Sora, what are you doing?"And he siad back to me, looking up as if he were acually meaning it,

Mama!Is that girl an angel?Is she?Because if she is, shes a beautiful one..And he grabbed my hand and we walked ff to that bank as if it never happened!and anyway I...

I dont think I will ever forget that conversation.I worry to much anyway.I have a recording to tay with my new song i need to go.

"Alright Kai!Lets get going!"the producer said through the microphone in the recording studio.

"Please dont call me that".I stared at him with a blank stare.My voice seemed to be drained of all youth.

"um,..o..okay.Then lets start, here we go."He turned on the music so I could hear it in my headphones.

Got a date a week from Friday with the preachers son

Everybody says hes crazy, we'll have to see

I finally moved to Jackson when the summer came

I wont have to pay that boy to rake my leaves

Yeah, in the fll I payed Sora to rake my leaves.He rather enjoyed it and you could say I enjoyed watching him.Because after he raked them he would jump in them and o it again...at this point I was crying, but I continued to sing.

Im proabably going on and on it seems,

Im doing more of that these days

And its true, I was going on and on about his death.I was wearing his necklace and I alwyas carried a picture of him.

I proabably wouldnt be this way

I proabaly wouldnt hurt this bad

I never pictured ever minute

Without you in it

Oh, you left so fast

Sometimes I see you standin there

And I did.i thought at times that he was standin there, out in the water, his back at me, singing.He had a beautiful, and I think im sure he went to voice lessions.i heard him once wisper to himself he would sing only for me, I pretended not to hear him and just listen to him.At times I would join him in the courusbut I would just lie in the sun and hear him, singing blissfully.I loved those days.

Sometimes it like Im loosing touch

Sometimes I feel like im so lucky

To have loved this much

And I guess I really am lucky enough to have even be loved by anyone else.Sora was the only one.I think I ll cancle that date next week.

God give me a moments grace

And if I'd never seen your face

I proabably wouldnt be this way

The director stopped the tape for a moment and said"Thats beautiful Kai.Keep going.Oh you want a tissue?Can we get a tissue in here for Mrs.Kai?"

"I thought I told you not to call me that."I stared blackly ahead, wiping my tears off with my sleeve."And I dont need a tissue, thank you."

I began to contomplate that date again when he started the tape.

My mama says that I just shouldnt speak to you

And Selphie says that I should just move on

I fingered his necklace and thought of Selphie.She did say that.

You should just move on!Stop bothering to think about him, Kai!He was a nobody!You really shouldnt care anyway!He died on his own accord, not for youor anyone!

But your worng.. i wispered back to her.I told her the story and she sat there looking dumbfounded.

I...I never knew...she looked sorry and walked away.We didnt talk for a while.

And then my mom saw me moping around and told me that i shouldny have speaked to you in the first place.i whispered back to her about the conversation that she had with Soras mom a long time ago.I never thought he would feel that way, but e's died for me before and I brought him back.He just sta there staring at her, and her starin back.

I got you an audition, theyre looking for a new talent and you have a beautiful voice.

Sora is more beautiful then mine I whispered to where she couldnt hear.

I snapped my self back out of my mental reality and thought back to the song.

You aughta see the way these people look at me

When they see me round here talkin to this stone

And they looked at me with pity and scorn.They didnt care for him, like Selphie siad hes a nobody.To them.But to me, hes everything.Unlike me, they've got something to lose in life.Ive got nothing and thats why I sing.Because Im empyt and Ive got nothing else to live for.

Everybody thinks Ive lost my mind

But I just take it day by day...

I felt like screaming but I just poured what was left of me into the song.

I proabably wouldnt be this way

I proabably wouldnt feel this bad

I never pictured every minute

Without you in it

Oh, you left so fast

Sometimes I see you standin there

Sometimes I feel your angels touch

Soetimes I feel like Im so lucky

To have the chance to love this much

God give me a momants grace

I wished Id never seen your face

I proabably wouldnt be this way

I proabably wouldnt be this way

Ive changed my mind about the date with the preachers son

Everybody says Im crazy, we'll just have so see...

I looked over to the recording box.

"Uh,...when can we start on the video?"

A/n: Who was it?another chappie coming up soon I promise!mean while you wanna look for some more of my stories and I hope you like themIm struggling on updateing Dirty Dancing for all of those fans, so keep up wth the reviews.The first person to revies and tell me they cryed gets a box of Klenex and a cookie.Yes, i think it was that sad, just review and tell me its a tear jerker.if not, that later chapters will be.

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