Dreams..
"ZUKO!" Hilda cried. She was lost in the large forest in her new skirt she had made out of the ripped dress. Her legs were weak and arms wernt working right. She could barly stand up, let alone look for Zuko. A peircing scream was heard from no where, But as Hilda tried to stand up and run to the person/persons who were screaming, she just fell over, blood drenched her. Her eyes were wide. Zuko, Iroh, Ashli, and Violet were sprawled over in blood. Hilda trembled. "Zuko...Iroh...Ashli...Violet...no...oh god please no!" She cried, unable to move, she watched as everyone she cared about died. Died right before her eyes and she couldnt do anything about it. "GOD! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME! HOW COULD YOU KILL EVERYONE I CARE ABOUT!" Hot tears fell from her eyes, but as time passed, the forest went pitch black and Hilda fell into darkness.
Hilda shot up in her cot. She was drinched in sweat. Breathing heavily.
"Big sister Hilda what is wrong?" Ashli asked, walking to her sister. Hilda had to have a moment to collect herself.
"N..nothing Ashli. Go back to sleep. Im going to go start breakfast." Hilda told her, getting off her cot.
"But Big sister, its 2 am." Ashli said to her sister tirdly. Hilda sweatdropped.
"Then im going to go have a cup of green tea, go back to bed." Hilda told her, Ashli nodded and walked back to her own cot and went back to sleep. Hilda walked out of the cell and into the kitchen were she made herself some tea. She sat in the dining area and drank it. As she drank it, she saw Zuko join her.
"What were you screaming about?" Zuko asked her, yawning. He was wearing pants but no shirt. Hilda nearly choked on her tea. Zuko watched as she slowly put her glass onto the table and grabbed onto his unclothed arm. Almost cutting off the circulation.
"Bad dream," Hilda mumbled to him. Zuko could see tears well up in her eyes. "Don't go dieing Zuko."
"I wont." He told her, glancing around the room to see if uncle Iroh had come to spy again. Because mostly that is what people do when it is romantic. "Want to tell me about your dream?" He felt Hilda shake her head.
"Not really. Its just...I just..." She mumbled, unsure of how to go at telling him about her dream basicly. "I saw you and your uncle and my sisters die just like my parents did. Im scared that Im going to lose you." With that, He looked at her. She blushed. "And everyone else."
"Well like I said, I aint gonna die any time soon." Zuko told her, giving her a light light light LIGHT smile. Im not sure how that can get so light but it did, it was as if he wasnt smiling at all really. But Hilda could see the smile he was giving her.
"Okay." She grinned and finished drinking her tea.Letting his arm go. Luckly, no one saw them during this little moment of assurity.She couldnt really beleive what she did to him. The grabbing of his arm. That dream must have really scared her. "The worst part was that I had lost everyone I cared about. Im guessing that must be my worst fear." Zuko lisoned to what she said. Trying to think of something comferting to say.
"Well you don't have to worry about any of that. Why don't you go take a nice hot bath and try to get back to sleep?" Zuko offerd. Hoping that was helping. He was never really good at helping much.
"You won't walk in on me will you?" Hilda asked him. Half bitter, half teasingly. Zuko shook his head.
"Nah." With that, He stood up and walked back into his room. Hilda smiled at him as he walked off. Smiling, she finished her tea. She staired into the green cup. Unknowledgable that Zuko had not actually walked to his room yet, he had stayed in the shadows to make sure she was actually okay. Hilda swooshed her green tea around as thoughts ran through her head. My head is overloaded...what did my dream mean? Was it because I can't figure out what the hell is going on with my own heart? Or because something is going to happen? I just wish I could figure out this all.. She thought to herself as sheswooshed her tea around a bit more. Zuko relized that she might be okay, so he slipped back into his room unnoticed and lied down on the bed. Trying to get back to sleep, while Hilda stood up from the table, her tea gone, and dwalked into the bathroom and got ready for a bath.The water was unheated. Apparently, Zuko forgot that the water could only be heated by firebending. Which, she couldnt do. With a soft sigh, she got re-dressed and walked back to where her cot was. She lied down on it and tried to figure this all out. She hardly got any sleep that night.
Once morning arose, she was tired. Not really wanting to wake up, she forced herself off her cot and into the kitchen and made some rice. Much too tired to cook anything else. Everyone ate it without question. Knowing how tired she must be. Zuko almost offerd to have her perform on music night, but his uncle beat him to it.
"Miss. Hilda, would you enjoy performing at music night on the ship?" Iroh asked her, with a yawn, she nodded. She'd most likely take a nap that day.
"Yeah." Hilda replied after a few moments of silence. Like she was thinking about it for a while after she nodded. Iroh smiled.
"That is good. Im sure your the only one here who actually has talent." Iroh told her, half complamentory, half teasingly at the crew. Because they all had no talent. Hilda picked up her cup of tea and took a drink of her tea. Her tea half drunk and her rice half eaten, she cleared her spot at the table and walked onto the deck, she sat on the rail trying to figure out all that was in her head. Her whole body trembled at everythought. The waves caressed the ship as she balanced herself on the railing. She began to think outloud, everyone thought she was talking to herself, but she didnt care.
"I heard that dreams seem to show an inner frame of mind. Do I want them all dead? Of course not! I don't want them dead. They mean the world to me, how can I even think that?" She asked herself aloud.
"Because you don't know what is wrong." Someone said, she quickly turned her head to see Zuko. She pouted.
"I don't know what your talking about." Hilda hissed at him, looking away from him and tword the ocean. Zuko leaned on the railing beside her.
"Don't be like that." he teased, almost half heartedly.
"Shut up." She hissed. lightly kicking his face with her boot. Enough to get the point across that she was cross with him, but not enough to seriously hurt him. A gust of wind blew against Hilda and Zuko. Sending their hair forward. Hilda's infrount of her eyes and Zuko's not to far from its usual position. "Zuko. Lets not stop at an island for a while." Hilda suddenly said, breaking the silence.
"How come?" Zuko asked, stairing at the horizon, but glancing at her.
"Thats where my dream was." She told him, she saw a teeny tiny smile creep itself onto his face. Was he finding this amusing? She could have sworn that any minute he would burst out laughing. He actually did almost laugh. He figured it was all a joke. But he saw how serious she was. She usually has a gleam in her eye when she is just teasing him. His smile dissapeired.
"Don't think too much about it. Its probably nothing." Zuko said sitting on the rail as well but the opposite way of Hilda. He saw that she was seriously hurting. Not just the serious he had seen before, but the serious that she looked like she was about to cry. Which made him look away. It would look like he made her cry. "Dont cry. It will look like I made you cry."
"Shut the fuck up." She barked at him, giving him a hard smack and then hopping onto the deck from the bar and stomping off to the cell. Zuko put his hand to his cheek. He never heard her curse like that. He felt guilty now. Maybe he should have let her cry if she had to. He stood there in shock for a bit, removing his hand from his face and stairing over the ship.
Hilda had stomped into her cell. Locking it behind her. She was all alone in the cell. Her sisters were playing Pai-cho with Iroh, leaving Hilda to stair up at the celing. How could he say something like that? "It will look like I made you cry" Good god if he was having these weird dreams where the person he loves- wait..did I...just...? no. NO! I will never admit it! No no no no no noooooo! She scolded herself. She felt someone hug her from behind. When she turned around she saw it was Zuko, he had a key to every cell. Hilda just backed off untill he grabbed her wrist and apoligized. She just looked at him.
"Im sorry." He repeted. Hilda was still silent. Her gaze shifted around the cell. Her sisters, still playing Pai-cho with Iroh on deck. So she gave Zuko a grin
"Forgiven." She told him. She stuck her toung out at him teasingly. He grinned.
"Okay."
Twilight came and the whole crew came onto the deck. Violet and Ashli watched with Iroh and Zuko. Hilda walked infrount of everyone as they clapped. She began to strum the strings of her guitar.
"Why do you look so familiar
I could swear that I
Have seen your face before
I think I like that you seem sincere
I think I'd like to get
To know you a little bit more
I think there's something more
Life's worth living for
Who knows what could happen
Do what you do
Just keep on laughing
One thing's true
There's always a brand new day
I'm gonna live today like it's my last day
How do you always have an opinion
And how do you always find
The best way to compromise
We don't need to have a reason
We don't need anything
We're just wasting time
I think there's something more
Life's worth living for
Who knows what could happen
Do what you do
Just keep on laughing
One thing's true
There's always a brand new day
Who knows what could happen
Do what you do
Just keep on laughing
One thing's true
There's always a brand new day
I'm gonna live today like it's my last day
Find yourself
'Cause I can't find you
Be yourself
Who are you?
Find youself
'Cause I can't find you
Be yourself
Who are you?
Who knows what could happen
Do what you do
Just keep on laughing
One thing's true
There's always a brand new day
So you go make it happen
Do your best
Just keep on laughing
I'm telling you
There's always a brand new day
Who knows what could happen
Do what you do
Just keep on laughing
One thing's true
There's always a brand new day
I'm gonna live today like it's my last day" When her song ended, everyone clapped. She truly was the only one with talent. So much that they asked her to sing another one. Hilda hesitated. "I um, Already had my turn so-"
"Sing another one!" They all cheered. She grinned and strummed her strings again. Trying to think of another song other than the one she already had in her head, but the strings, they forced the words out.
"I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you" Everyone liked it. They didnt really think that she had a person in mind when she was singing it. Hilda was releived that no one noticed she had sung it about..well...yeah you can probably guess.
Well anyway. When the music night ended, and everyone on the ship went off to bed. Hilda stayed behind. Trying to stay wide awake. Hilda was apprarently tired, but she had to stop having those dreams. The only way to stop dreaming is to stop sleeping. When her eyes would get heavy, she would smack herself to wake up again. What was enough to keep her up for the next few hours was repeting Your in love with Zuko and instantly, she was wide awake.
"Why are you still up?" A voice asked her from behind. She didnt look at the person. She was bitter.
"Why are you?" She asked. Not knowing who she was talking to, but she figured it was Zuko.
"Green tea." The person said proudly. Iroh. Hilda turned her head and saw Iroh standing behind her. Holding out a cup to her. She took it and drank it. " So, why are you up so late?"
"Well. I had a nightmare and am afraid it will come back, so im staying awake." She told him drinking her tea. She would have preferd coffee.
"I don't think it will come back. Usually, dreams come back when you repete the prosses of that day." Iroh told her, that sounded logical.
"That may be true. But what if a diffrent, more scary dream comes?" She asked, finishing off yet another cup of tea. She rather liked tea.
"You'll never know unless you get some sleep. Dreams can't hurt you anyway." Iroh told her, Trying to be comferting.
"Yes they can." She protested, he looked at her.
"How so?"
"Dreams may not be able to physically hurt you. But it will leave an imprint of the images in your mind, your mind will slave over the images untill you can figure out what they mean. Sometimes you instantly forget, those dreams, they have no meaning. The one I had I've been debating over all day. Its been hurting my head." She explained,sighing. "And besides. How can I just lie down and sleep while the people I consider my family be killed?"
"I guess you have a point there." Iroh pointed out to her, he saw her yawn. "Miss Hilda, please go on to bed." Hilda was silent for a bit. Then nodded.
"Okay." With that, she bid him goodnight and walked to the cell and lied on the cot. Insantly falling into a deep sleep.
Underwater. Bubbles rising to the surface. Arms reaching for the surface, reaching for life. One body lies watching helplessly as the bodies sunk into the water. Screaming out for help, but nothing but a glub was heard. The bodies reached for her but her limbs wouldnt respond. Only her body was risin above the water. To see the spirits of those lost, angry with her.
"How could you do this?" They hauntedly asked her. "How could you let us die like that...?"
"Im sorry!" She cried back at them. Her body trembled as she pleaded for their forgivness. Zuko's spirit knelt down beside her and placed a kiss on her forehead.
"I want you dead. Like us." Zuko told her. Hauntingly. She screamed.
"Please Zuko...no..." She cried.
"Wake up..." Zuko hauntedly said to her.
"Wha..?"
"wake up..!" He orderd her again. More vicious this time.
"what...?"
"Wake up!"
With that, Hilda's eyes shot open. Zuko sat on her cot,His arms on her shoulders, shaking her awake.She was surrounded by Zuko, Iroh, and her sisters. She just looked around. Moving her arms so she could make sure they worked with her mind again. When this was accomplished, she wiped the sweat from her face. She looked so tortured.
"She had another one.." Ashli sighed. "What does this all..?" But Hilda pushed Zuko aside and made her way to the deck, She moved as if she was ill and had to throw up. Dizzy. Her body trembled as she moved this way. Haunted by Zuko's ghastly voice. The voice which woke her from her nightmare. She felt like she was about to cry. She wanted to, but she had to be strong..strong.. But her wish to be strong didnt last too long, she began to weep. She sunk to the hard metel floor of the deck, hugging her legs to her chest as she weeped. Why was she having such terrible visons. Everyone whom was around her cot came upto where she was and surrounded her there. Zuko was her shoulder, Iroh was the elder who was able to comfert her with wisdom. Her sisters surrounded her and tried to be supportive and not be terrified of their strong sister's weeps. Zuko was actually abnormally nice to her. But no body made anything out of it, they were all nice to her. Trying to get her to tell them what her dreams were about. But she was unable to speak passed the chokes of her cries. Her strong heart was ripped apart over these pictures in her head. The slideshow of death in her brain. When it was showing that she would be able to talk again, they asked her to tell them one more time.
"all of you...were dieing and there wasnt anything I could do." She spat out all at once. Though they understood every word. Zuko tightend his grip on her.
"I told you already, you don't have to worry about that. Were not going to die." Zuko assured her, she shook her head in woefulness. Her tears fell more and more.
"Zuko. Sail the ship to the place where my mom and dad died its.." and she told him where it was. He nodded and orderd the guy who steers the ship to sail to the place Hilda had told Zuko. More than instanly, the boat changed directions and began sailing back to her hometown.
Who knows and Fall to Peices--Avril Lavigne