Disclaimer: I do not own Travis, Lily, or anything relating to Radio Free Roscoe. I wish I did though...

A/N: I don't particularly like this chapter but I need it in here.

It took some time, what seemed like an eternity to her, but Lily finally began to accept Ray and Grace's relationship. The kisses and looks of endearment still cut, but not as badly as they had in the beginning. She owed her sanity to Travis and was well aware of it. If he had not been there to fill the void in her life, she doubted that she would have been able to handle the situation.

What bothered her the most was the fact that she had convinced herself that Ray had heard her shout I love you the night she played at The WaterFactory. Even if he hadn't, there had been hundreds of other people that had and would have told him by now. He never said a word nor let on for a second that he had indeed heard her, but deep inside she knew the truth. It was the truth that kept her up at night. It kept her on the phone or at the station with Travis.

She glanced at Robbie and Ray and smiled as they gathered their things on their way out of the station one afternoon. It had been a few weeks since the incident on stage, but Lily had been feeling "out of sorts" lately. She sighed loudly and gave Travis a look. Actually, it was more her signal to him that she needed to talk. It was odd that she felt the need to keep their time alone together a secret, it wasn't as if Ray or Robbie would really care, she just did it. Perhaps it made her feel better that she had something of her own. She just didn't know how to label it exactly.

" I'll see you guys later," she smiled as she pretended to gather her things.

"See ya, Lil," Ray called over his shoulder as he walked out the door.

" I'll look for you two at Mickey's later okay?" Robbie said, following Ray. " The only time I see either of you is in here anymore."

" I'll try and make it," Travis responded as he put the equipment away " I have a few things to work on but I'll try and be by." Robbie nodded and walked out, closing the door behind him.

Now she could breathe a sigh of relief. She could be herself around Travis and he could help her work out the tension she had been feeling. Really, it felt more like loneliness than tension. " Thanks," she said quietly " I guess I'm just having a bad day and I need someone...I need you...To talk to," she blushed as she stuttered.

Travis walked out of the booth and took the empty seat beside her. " What's wrong Lily?" he asked, as he pushed a stray hair out of her face. He gave her a look of sincerity and she couldn't help but smile at him.

" I think it's just a case of nostalgia," she answered. " I miss the old days," she said as she looked up at him " I miss all of us being together."

" So, I'm not enough for you anymore?" he teased, resting his hand beside hers. She looked as if she had taken him seriously so he took her hand. " I'm sorry," he said " I've never been very good at lightening the mood have I?"

" You've done more for me than you'll ever know," she said in a serious tone " I love you for it, Travis. For just being you and for being there for me.

He knew that she didn't mean the words the way he wanted her to, and fought the feeling in his heart. " I love you too, Lil," he said a little too softly. He squeezed her hand " I will always love you and I am always here for you."

She basked in the warmth that she felt from him and cast a flirty glance at him. " Promise?" she asked as she looked at him from underneath her lashes. She felt her heart tighten as he looked at her.

" You know that I do," he answered, his voice smooth as always. They stopped and looked at one another for a moment. Her mind raced back to the first time that they kissed.

" Travis," she whispered as she leaned into him.

" No," he answered back with a hint of sadness in his voice. Too late. Her mouth had brushed his and he had allowed himself to kiss her.

She reveled in the feel of warmth and security, then he pulled back and met her eyes. " Did you mean that?" he asked. " He let out a breath and studied her face. " Please don't hurt me Lil, I don't want to hurt again."

She could see the hurt in his eyes and knew that she couldn't answer his question honestly. In fact, he was probably right, she was just trying to ease the pain. The pain that she wouldn't allow herself to accept was still there. " I'm sorry," she said quickly, no longer able to stand the look in his eyes. " Travis, I just...I don't know," she blurted out before she turned and hurried for the door. She paused before she opened it, not wanting to leave him. " I don't know," she repeated before finally running out.

He watched the door close and felt a part of him close with it. He just couldn't take anymore and wondered what he had done to deserve all of the hurt that he felt in his heart. " I just don't know anymore either, Lily," he said to the now closed door.