A/N: The rest of this story contains strong sexual situations. Please stop reading now if you think you might be offended.
To my Lil, and thank you for being my beta!
She heard him walking down the stairs and felt her pulse quicken. When he opened the door, she folded her arms and glared at him. " I can't believe you," she growled " Why couldn't you have at least picked someone else? Was it that you had to throw it in my face? Make sure that I knew you didn't mean anything that you said to me?"
" Lily," Travis said, his voice low but even " Please don't..."
" Don't what?" she said " Don't worry about it. I just wanted to tell you face to face that I never want to talk to you again. That I can't believe a word you say. That I can't believe in you." She folded her arms and paced in front of him " That was low Travis and I would have never expected it from you." She glared at him as she walked to the door " Sorry that your "date" was cut short. I felt that you owed me this much," she said as she reached the door.
He pressed his hand firmly against the door, preventing her usual escape. " Are you quite finished?" he asked, his voice calm , but she could hear an edge in it. A tone that she had never heard from him before and it frightened her a little.
" You didn't take my leaving as a cue that I was done?" she quipped as she looked at him, then glanced at the hand that blocked the door. " Well," She paused, trying her best to glare at him, "I would be gone if you would get the hell out of my way."
He smiled as he moved in front of the door. " That's not going to happen. Not right now anyway." He cocked his head to the side and gave her a steely glare " Had it ever crossed your mind that maybe I wasn't finished?"
She didn't know what to say to this and could feel her anger fade away to uncertainty. " What?" she asked, trying to put the bravado back into her voice. " What could you possible have to say now?" She dared to look him in the eye and hoped that he couldn't see the uncertainty in hers.
" You don't get the last word this time Lily," he said as he removed his hand from the door frame and took a step toward her. " You think that you're always in control, don't you? That everyone should cater to your needs as if they don't have any of their own...," he paused as he noted the shudder that ran through her and felt slightly amused. " Or does it not matter to you that others can have any of their own thoughts or feelings that are just as significant as yours?"
Okay, he had her there. Actually, he had her at a physical and emotional pause. She subconsciously bit her bottom lip and flipped her hair back. " Okay, Travis, I'm listening," she said " As if I have a choice," she muttered, looking down.
" You have a choice," he replied " You can choose to hear me out, or you can choose to stand there and ignore me. But," he said, his tone now scolding "You will stand here and listen to what I have to say."
Her eyes traveled back up to his but she said nothing. She didn't know if she was more angry or frightened in the moment. She managed a glare, feeling determined not to show her fear. What she didn't realize, however, was that he had felt her fear the second she had realized that he was not going to allow her to leave.
" I have sat back and tried Lily," he said, all emotional shields now down " I. Have. Tried," he said, measuring each word, ignoring her involuntary jump as he moved in closer to her face. " Does Lily want me today, or does she want Ray? Wait. Maybe she wants someone else entirely. Maybe she doesn't have a clue, but I will always be there for her. Just in case she makes the wrong decision and needs a shoulder to cry on. Or maybe lips to warm her heart," he hissed, moving in and kissing her briefly but harshly.
She was taken a back. Shaken but surprised by the thrill that she felt as his mouth smashed against hers. She could feel the warmth spreading between her legs. She would not show it though. She would not let him think for a second that she is enjoying any of the events unfolding before her.
He pulled back and studied her face. " Did that make you feel better Lily?" he asked coldly " Did you like it?" He didn't give her a chance to answer "No, you didn't. You won't be happy until you've made me cry. You might not see it , but the second you leave, you know inside that I am." He cupped her chin and forced her to look at him " Would it make you happy? Would it ease your pain to cause me some? I think it would, but this time, I will not allow it. Got that? I will not allow you to hurt me so badly that my entire being feels torn apart.
" I never meant," she whispered because she knew that if she had tried to speak, her voice would shake with fear and unshed tears. " I...Travis, I've never tried to hurt you."
" Right," he said back, his lips curved into a smile " You've never taken a morsel of pleasure out of hurting the ones that love you. Pushing them to the limit, just to see how far you can go. Now, you can enjoy the pleasure of knowing the fact that you have pushed me over the edge." He tilted her head back slightly before he lowered his arm from the doorway.
She felt flashes of anger, resentment and then want course through her body as his mouth pressed against hers. She felt his tongue lapping against hers, tasting her, and then it all stopped and he abruptly shoved her away. She had never hated nor wanted anything more in her entire life than him in that moment." Fuck you, Travis," she hissed as she stepped back, then looked away, refusing to acknowledge the fact that he had truly gotten to her.
He felt the warmth of her mouth and body and he felt his responding the second before he pushed her away. God, she looks beautiful, he thought as she stepped back. He felt shame for allowing his emotions to flow this far. He had control. He had control of his emotions damn her to hell. The anger surfaced again as he allowed himself to realize that it wasn't true. How dare she do this to him again. How could she be so heartless?
" I can make you cry," she hissed, as she looked at him with fierce determination. " I can make you beg. Make you wish you had never met me." She was resilient. She would not let her fear control her, nor the pain and desire that had came with it. " You do not touch me. Ever. Not unless you have my permission," she said in a haughty voice, then slapped his face. " Got it?"
He caught her hand, after allowing her to slap him. He knew that he deserved at least that much and hadn't stopped her. Her tone though...Her words. He could feel the fury take over again. " I'm sure that you can," he said, his voice as even as hers. " Could you handle it if I made you cry?" he smiled. " Maybe make you want me until it hurt so badly that you don't believe that you can stand another moment in the same room together with me. Every day, with no end in sight. Knowing that if it were to end, your heart would only break further," he growled, his face now inches from hers.
He watched her, studied her reaction, though he could see that she was trying so hard to hide it. Silly girl, she should know better. " Feel me," he said softly in a voice that could melt the hardest of hearts. So softly this time, so slowly, he pressed his lips to hers. " Feel me," he repeated as his tongue found hers. He could feel her stiffen, then heard the moan escape her mouth. The one that she had been holding back for so long now. He picked her up and gently sat her on the table, sliding his body in between her legs. His hand glided up her back, tangling her hair as his mouth melted into hers.