"Martin can you drive me somewhere?" Ruthie asked.
"Sure, Anywhere you want." Martin said looking at her momentarily. Ruthie took a deep breath and told him where to take her. She had one more stop on her checklist.
Ruthie once again walked among the dead and the living as she and Martin walked hand in hand down the rows of tombstones. The ground sinking slightly beneath their feet, once she made her way to Sean's row she let her hand fall out of Martin's and walked ahead, he stopped watching her walk ahead of him. As she knelt down in front of Sean's grave, she took a deep breath.
"I must've come here so many times, I bet you're tired of talking to me," She laughed. "I can't keep doing this to myself. It's too hard to come to see you all the time. I feel like I've let you down if I don't come. I'll come sometimes but I have to move on, and I don't have to be here to talk to you. That's what Dr. Grainer said at least. I'll never forget you," She whispered blowing him a kiss. Ruthie let two tears slip off her face and kiss the ground below her as she got to her feet and walked away. "I'll never forget you, I'll always love you," She whispered to herself again. She joined Martin as they walked back to the car.
Back in the car Ruthie held her hand on the locket the whole way home remembering everything she could about him. The way he smiled, the way he laughed, how soothing his voice was when she was tired, how calm he could be and how hot headed he could be as well, she remembered everything good about him, everything they'd done together. She remembered why she loved him, and she knew he'd always be hers.
Back at the house Ruthie went up to her room immediately and signed online, she opened up her email.
Paige,
School started out awful you won't believe the things people said about me. They actually blamed me for everything isn't that silly :wink wink: I'm so over Ryan, meaning he doesn't scare me anymore. I totally told him off, I told him not to ever talk to me or bother me again and told him how pathetic he was. Then he got mad and grabbed my arm, but Martin shoved him to the ground and told him he kill him if he ever touched me again. Then I told him I'd do it myself if he touched me again. After school I went to Sean's grave. I told him that I couldn't come all the time cause it hurt to much and I realized that I don't have to Sean will always be mine he'll always love me and he wants me to be happy. He wouldn't want me to keep crying over him, I thought about all the good times we had together. Like when the three of us went to Splish splash remember and you and I pantsed him in the pool. Lol. That was funny, I never saw him so red. Wow, I gtg, I really miss you Paige school's not the same without you. I'll keep the squad together.
Ruthie
Ruthie sent the email and signed off. Smiling to herself as she got up and went downstairs for dinner.