Not Always
Chapter two: Back to the Beginning
Disclaimer: J.K. Rowling own anything you recognize.
A/N: thanks soooo much to all of you who reviewed!!! Here's the next chapter!! P.S. to mystikalolo: yeah I'll update WAFSB as soon as possible k?
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I slowly turned around to see an equally shocked face staring back at me. It was Him. I blacked out. (a/n: from the last chapter.)
I was sitting on a desk. Now where the desk came from I had no idea, but there was a bowl of water in front of me. Suddenly the bowl of water started talking to me!
"Lily! Lily! Get up!" it said.
I gave it a queer look and shouted back, "I AM up!"
It kept going, "Lily, Lily.you ok? Get up Lily!"
Before I could answer I felt myself fall. I was falling through a hole that seemed to go on forever. I turned my head so I could see where the bottom was but all I saw was pitch black. I screamed.
My eyes snapped open. I found myself sitting on Dessing's couch.
"Ugh." I groaned, my head hurting. "Where am I?"
I saw Dessing look at me, "Lily. Its me, Robert Dessing? Your boss? Remember?"
I nodded, "Yes, but remind me why I fainted again.."
Dessing looked at someone standing behind the couch. I craned my neck to see and almost passed out again.
"James?" I barely whispered.
James nodded. "Hi there Lily. How are things?"
"Great. Umm hey could you do me a favor? Could I umm talk to Dessing alone a minute?" I asked him.
"Sure." He said, getting up and heading out the door.
I turned to Robert. " YOU MADE HIM MY PARTNER?!?!" I screeched.
Rob turned red, "Lily. I don't know exactly what happened at Hogwarts between you and the marauders, but you must get over it, and move on! You have a job to do. Remember?"
I solemnly nodded. "Yeah I understand. But this doesn't mean that I won't be sending you at least one letter every week complaining!"
Robert laughed. "Of course I will Lily. You never give up do you?"
I shook my head a small smile on my face.
"I just have a few more things to clear up with you and James before you leave tomorrow." He said motioning for James to come back inside.
James walked in and gave a confused look to me. I shrugged and turned to hear what Dessing was saying.
"You will not be able to use your real names of course, so I have taken the liberty to assign you new ones." He droned on.
As usual, I thought to myself. No more Lily Evans, no more red hair and green eyes. And all of it with James Potter. This would be one heck of an assignment.
"Lily. Your new name will be Andrea Rhea. And James? Your new name will be Philip Darwin. Oh and James, I'm afraid we'll have to change your looks too. The black hair is too much of a Potter trademark." Dessing stated.
James gravely nodded but I could see annoyance in his eyes. Dessing once again pointed his wand and muttered some incantations. Suddenly James' raven black hair was transformed to a brownish shade and his eyes were now forest green. The same shade as my eyes used to be. I shuddered. Even with brown hair and my eyes, James still looked incredibly handsome. I shuddered realizing what I had just said. I couldn't go back to that. Not after...I sternly told myself to stop thinking about it. I tuned in to what Dessing was saying.
"and under NO circumstances must anyone find out who you are and what your mission is." Dessing finished up.
"Wait a second Robert." I interrupted. "What exactly is our so called mission?"
Dessing grinned, "I was getting to that. Your mission is to locate the murderer or anything relating to the murders. If you do not find anything within the next three months we will relocate you. Because of the frequency of these attacks another one should occur within a month after you reach Hogwarts."
I groaned. "One more thing." he added. "If anyone IS to discover who you are then you must use the proper steps to make them forget. And if there will come a time when you tell someone willingly your true identity, then be careful. You must only tell whom you think necessary. Oh and since you are pretending to be seventeen year olds, you must conduct yourself in such a manor that would make people believe that you are that age. This also means that you will be having relationships with many of those people."
At this I blushed. Going out with a 17-year-old guy? Heck the guys my age aren't even mature enough what would the younger ones be like. I thought back to my seventh year but stopped myself in time. That was NOT something to be remembered. I shivered slightly realizing that James' had been looking at me the entire time I had been thinking to myself, obviously thinking about our last year at Hogwarts.
Dessing looked from me to James and said, " It is now August 23rd. You will leave on the 25th and go a week early to the school just to make sure you can be familiarized with the school again. Also you will be taking a crash-course to re-teach some of the things you might have forgotten. Is this clear?"
James and I simultaneously nodded. Oh great. As we left Dessing's office James and I made small talk.
"So how have you been Lily?" James asked.
I looked up at him. He's really tall (well I think he is) almost 6'0. And me? I'm 5'4. "I've been ok. You?" I replied being polite while my head was screaming, 'I haven't seen you in five years and all you ask is how I'm doing? James Potter I swear.'
"Lily, umm do you want to get a coffee or a tea or something. Since we'll be working together we might as well get to know each other since oh I don't know.its been five years since we last talked?" James asked looking at me.
I lowered my head. " That's a good idea James."
We headed over to the nearest pub and sat down in one of the tables outside. It was a nice day, even for August. It was warm but not too warm and the wind was only blowing a slight bit. We ordered two croissants wand while I got a hot tea, James got himself a coffee. I hated coffee, but of course he didn't remember that. Oh well its not that big a deal.
We talked again and this time our conversation was a little livelier.
"How is everyone?" I asked him. "Remus, Sirius, and Peter?"
James lightened up, " They've been good. Remus got a steady job even with his condition but the thing is he won't tell us what it is. He says it's a surprise."
I laughed, "Just like him, eh? Leave it to Moony to get the best job out of everyone of us and end up being the only one not to tell us about it!"
James smiled, "Peter has a steady job too. He has a small pet shop in Diagon Alley."
"Of course. With you three, who wouldn't open up a pet shop?" I said smiling.
James laughed and I giggled. It was almost like old times.
"And Sirius?" I asked knowing somewhat what was coming next.
James' face darkened, "Oh yeah. Padfoot. Lily, promise you won't get mad?"
I nodded. This couldn't be good.
"Lily. He's a spy."
I gasped. "What?"
"He's working for us. He's a specially trained auror who is pretending to be working for Volde.I mean the Dark Lord." James sighed.
"James, you CAN call him Voldemort. I don't care." I said.
James looked surprised, "Sorry. Its just that most people are scared to use his name."
I shrugged. "Well it doesn't affect me."
James nodded.
I spoke up again, "So Sirius Black is an auror?"
James nodded again.
I cracked up, "Black? Oh gosh. That's hilarious. He's the person I'd LEAST expect to become a spy."
James looked eased to see that I wasn't mad.
"So Lily.or should I call you Andrea?" James said a smile playing on his lips.
"Might as well get used to the new names, Philip," I answered him. " I like the look by the way."
James smiled. "You still look gorgeous Andrea."
I blushed till no end.
"I better get going Phil. Umm I'll see you in two days?" I said gathering my things.
James got up too, "Yeah. I'll owl you later ok?"
I nodded and left.
I practically ran home. I raced up the stairs and into my door. I opened the door and slammed it shut. I leaned against it, my eyes closed.
I heard a voice call from the kitchen. It was Bella. "Lily? Is that you??"
"Yeah its me Bella. Is Rachel here too?" I called back.
"Yes. We've been waiting for you. You want some tea or pastry?" Rachel called to me.
I opened my eyes and took my shoes off. My feet killed. I threw them into the closet. We had somehow managed to obtain a huge apartment. Three bed roomed and two and half bath roomed with a small but pleasant kitchen, and a nice living room/ dining area. We even got two hall closets and a balcony. It was gorgeous and we fell in love with it the minute we had found it.
I slowly took off my coat and walked into the kitchen. The kitchen, although petite in size was extremely cozy. It was painted yellow and green and the colors made the room glow. I took a seat next to Rachel and across from Arabella.
"Another mission?" Bella said taking a look at me.
I nodded.
"But you just cam BACK from your last one!" Rachel argued.
"I know. But this one's really important. Listen guys. I might be gone a while." I said to them.
"Come on.tell us the details." Rachel demanded.
I looked at her. "Fine fine. But first the important news."
They looked puzzled. I never gave in so easily.
"This is the first time I have to have a partner. And.it's James Potter." I said carefully.
Arabella looked shocked and Rachel was outraged.
"HIM?!?!" Rachel raged on, "What does Dessing think he's doing? Doesn't he know???"
I shook my head. "I didn't want to tell him."
Arabella found her voice, "Why not Lily?"
I sighed, "You guys were there five years ago. It was my fault too. I can't blame James for everything that happened."
"Lily! For god's sake! You guys were." she broke off mid-sentence.
"Can we not talk about this? I leave in two days. For Hogwarts. That's were the mission is taking place. I am going to be spending a lot of time with him, and I myself am not sure how it's going to turn out. I better call Eric and tell him that I can't meet him tonight." I said getting up.
"Lily. Eric is your good friend. Why don't you just tell him the truth?" Bella asked.
"I can't risk it." I said simply. I dialed his number and told him I had to go a business trip and he wished me luck. I hung up feeling nervous about my job.
I looked at Rachel who was staring at the phone.
"Rach, if you like him that much just call him. Eric's a great guy." I told her.
She looked at me, "How the heck did you know what I was thinking?"
Arabella looked at her from the sink where she was doing the dishes, "You two are so obvious. Anyone with half a brain can tell you both like each other."
Rachel blushed, "Should I?"
"Go for it." I urged her knowing that Eric felt the same way about her as she did for him.
She jumped at the phone and dialed his number. She sounded nervous but Bella and I left her alone and headed to the living room.
"Bella?" I asked her quietly. "hmm?" she asked.
"I saw Sirius Black today." I said softly.
Bella's eyes were wide. "You..you did?"
Suddenly a baby's cry came from one of the rooms. "It's Jessica." Bella said. She rushed off to her daughter leaving me by my thoughts and myself.
I went into my room to try and fall asleep.
How could I have let this happen? It was all my fault.
How was it? I hope you like and r/r!!! please????Trust me I have much much more!!!And lots to explain too!
Chapter two: Back to the Beginning
Disclaimer: J.K. Rowling own anything you recognize.
A/N: thanks soooo much to all of you who reviewed!!! Here's the next chapter!! P.S. to mystikalolo: yeah I'll update WAFSB as soon as possible k?
THANK YOU! (To those who reviewed!) and to those reading this: please r/r.it really does help!
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I slowly turned around to see an equally shocked face staring back at me. It was Him. I blacked out. (a/n: from the last chapter.)
I was sitting on a desk. Now where the desk came from I had no idea, but there was a bowl of water in front of me. Suddenly the bowl of water started talking to me!
"Lily! Lily! Get up!" it said.
I gave it a queer look and shouted back, "I AM up!"
It kept going, "Lily, Lily.you ok? Get up Lily!"
Before I could answer I felt myself fall. I was falling through a hole that seemed to go on forever. I turned my head so I could see where the bottom was but all I saw was pitch black. I screamed.
My eyes snapped open. I found myself sitting on Dessing's couch.
"Ugh." I groaned, my head hurting. "Where am I?"
I saw Dessing look at me, "Lily. Its me, Robert Dessing? Your boss? Remember?"
I nodded, "Yes, but remind me why I fainted again.."
Dessing looked at someone standing behind the couch. I craned my neck to see and almost passed out again.
"James?" I barely whispered.
James nodded. "Hi there Lily. How are things?"
"Great. Umm hey could you do me a favor? Could I umm talk to Dessing alone a minute?" I asked him.
"Sure." He said, getting up and heading out the door.
I turned to Robert. " YOU MADE HIM MY PARTNER?!?!" I screeched.
Rob turned red, "Lily. I don't know exactly what happened at Hogwarts between you and the marauders, but you must get over it, and move on! You have a job to do. Remember?"
I solemnly nodded. "Yeah I understand. But this doesn't mean that I won't be sending you at least one letter every week complaining!"
Robert laughed. "Of course I will Lily. You never give up do you?"
I shook my head a small smile on my face.
"I just have a few more things to clear up with you and James before you leave tomorrow." He said motioning for James to come back inside.
James walked in and gave a confused look to me. I shrugged and turned to hear what Dessing was saying.
"You will not be able to use your real names of course, so I have taken the liberty to assign you new ones." He droned on.
As usual, I thought to myself. No more Lily Evans, no more red hair and green eyes. And all of it with James Potter. This would be one heck of an assignment.
"Lily. Your new name will be Andrea Rhea. And James? Your new name will be Philip Darwin. Oh and James, I'm afraid we'll have to change your looks too. The black hair is too much of a Potter trademark." Dessing stated.
James gravely nodded but I could see annoyance in his eyes. Dessing once again pointed his wand and muttered some incantations. Suddenly James' raven black hair was transformed to a brownish shade and his eyes were now forest green. The same shade as my eyes used to be. I shuddered. Even with brown hair and my eyes, James still looked incredibly handsome. I shuddered realizing what I had just said. I couldn't go back to that. Not after...I sternly told myself to stop thinking about it. I tuned in to what Dessing was saying.
"and under NO circumstances must anyone find out who you are and what your mission is." Dessing finished up.
"Wait a second Robert." I interrupted. "What exactly is our so called mission?"
Dessing grinned, "I was getting to that. Your mission is to locate the murderer or anything relating to the murders. If you do not find anything within the next three months we will relocate you. Because of the frequency of these attacks another one should occur within a month after you reach Hogwarts."
I groaned. "One more thing." he added. "If anyone IS to discover who you are then you must use the proper steps to make them forget. And if there will come a time when you tell someone willingly your true identity, then be careful. You must only tell whom you think necessary. Oh and since you are pretending to be seventeen year olds, you must conduct yourself in such a manor that would make people believe that you are that age. This also means that you will be having relationships with many of those people."
At this I blushed. Going out with a 17-year-old guy? Heck the guys my age aren't even mature enough what would the younger ones be like. I thought back to my seventh year but stopped myself in time. That was NOT something to be remembered. I shivered slightly realizing that James' had been looking at me the entire time I had been thinking to myself, obviously thinking about our last year at Hogwarts.
Dessing looked from me to James and said, " It is now August 23rd. You will leave on the 25th and go a week early to the school just to make sure you can be familiarized with the school again. Also you will be taking a crash-course to re-teach some of the things you might have forgotten. Is this clear?"
James and I simultaneously nodded. Oh great. As we left Dessing's office James and I made small talk.
"So how have you been Lily?" James asked.
I looked up at him. He's really tall (well I think he is) almost 6'0. And me? I'm 5'4. "I've been ok. You?" I replied being polite while my head was screaming, 'I haven't seen you in five years and all you ask is how I'm doing? James Potter I swear.'
"Lily, umm do you want to get a coffee or a tea or something. Since we'll be working together we might as well get to know each other since oh I don't know.its been five years since we last talked?" James asked looking at me.
I lowered my head. " That's a good idea James."
We headed over to the nearest pub and sat down in one of the tables outside. It was a nice day, even for August. It was warm but not too warm and the wind was only blowing a slight bit. We ordered two croissants wand while I got a hot tea, James got himself a coffee. I hated coffee, but of course he didn't remember that. Oh well its not that big a deal.
We talked again and this time our conversation was a little livelier.
"How is everyone?" I asked him. "Remus, Sirius, and Peter?"
James lightened up, " They've been good. Remus got a steady job even with his condition but the thing is he won't tell us what it is. He says it's a surprise."
I laughed, "Just like him, eh? Leave it to Moony to get the best job out of everyone of us and end up being the only one not to tell us about it!"
James smiled, "Peter has a steady job too. He has a small pet shop in Diagon Alley."
"Of course. With you three, who wouldn't open up a pet shop?" I said smiling.
James laughed and I giggled. It was almost like old times.
"And Sirius?" I asked knowing somewhat what was coming next.
James' face darkened, "Oh yeah. Padfoot. Lily, promise you won't get mad?"
I nodded. This couldn't be good.
"Lily. He's a spy."
I gasped. "What?"
"He's working for us. He's a specially trained auror who is pretending to be working for Volde.I mean the Dark Lord." James sighed.
"James, you CAN call him Voldemort. I don't care." I said.
James looked surprised, "Sorry. Its just that most people are scared to use his name."
I shrugged. "Well it doesn't affect me."
James nodded.
I spoke up again, "So Sirius Black is an auror?"
James nodded again.
I cracked up, "Black? Oh gosh. That's hilarious. He's the person I'd LEAST expect to become a spy."
James looked eased to see that I wasn't mad.
"So Lily.or should I call you Andrea?" James said a smile playing on his lips.
"Might as well get used to the new names, Philip," I answered him. " I like the look by the way."
James smiled. "You still look gorgeous Andrea."
I blushed till no end.
"I better get going Phil. Umm I'll see you in two days?" I said gathering my things.
James got up too, "Yeah. I'll owl you later ok?"
I nodded and left.
I practically ran home. I raced up the stairs and into my door. I opened the door and slammed it shut. I leaned against it, my eyes closed.
I heard a voice call from the kitchen. It was Bella. "Lily? Is that you??"
"Yeah its me Bella. Is Rachel here too?" I called back.
"Yes. We've been waiting for you. You want some tea or pastry?" Rachel called to me.
I opened my eyes and took my shoes off. My feet killed. I threw them into the closet. We had somehow managed to obtain a huge apartment. Three bed roomed and two and half bath roomed with a small but pleasant kitchen, and a nice living room/ dining area. We even got two hall closets and a balcony. It was gorgeous and we fell in love with it the minute we had found it.
I slowly took off my coat and walked into the kitchen. The kitchen, although petite in size was extremely cozy. It was painted yellow and green and the colors made the room glow. I took a seat next to Rachel and across from Arabella.
"Another mission?" Bella said taking a look at me.
I nodded.
"But you just cam BACK from your last one!" Rachel argued.
"I know. But this one's really important. Listen guys. I might be gone a while." I said to them.
"Come on.tell us the details." Rachel demanded.
I looked at her. "Fine fine. But first the important news."
They looked puzzled. I never gave in so easily.
"This is the first time I have to have a partner. And.it's James Potter." I said carefully.
Arabella looked shocked and Rachel was outraged.
"HIM?!?!" Rachel raged on, "What does Dessing think he's doing? Doesn't he know???"
I shook my head. "I didn't want to tell him."
Arabella found her voice, "Why not Lily?"
I sighed, "You guys were there five years ago. It was my fault too. I can't blame James for everything that happened."
"Lily! For god's sake! You guys were." she broke off mid-sentence.
"Can we not talk about this? I leave in two days. For Hogwarts. That's were the mission is taking place. I am going to be spending a lot of time with him, and I myself am not sure how it's going to turn out. I better call Eric and tell him that I can't meet him tonight." I said getting up.
"Lily. Eric is your good friend. Why don't you just tell him the truth?" Bella asked.
"I can't risk it." I said simply. I dialed his number and told him I had to go a business trip and he wished me luck. I hung up feeling nervous about my job.
I looked at Rachel who was staring at the phone.
"Rach, if you like him that much just call him. Eric's a great guy." I told her.
She looked at me, "How the heck did you know what I was thinking?"
Arabella looked at her from the sink where she was doing the dishes, "You two are so obvious. Anyone with half a brain can tell you both like each other."
Rachel blushed, "Should I?"
"Go for it." I urged her knowing that Eric felt the same way about her as she did for him.
She jumped at the phone and dialed his number. She sounded nervous but Bella and I left her alone and headed to the living room.
"Bella?" I asked her quietly. "hmm?" she asked.
"I saw Sirius Black today." I said softly.
Bella's eyes were wide. "You..you did?"
Suddenly a baby's cry came from one of the rooms. "It's Jessica." Bella said. She rushed off to her daughter leaving me by my thoughts and myself.
I went into my room to try and fall asleep.
How could I have let this happen? It was all my fault.
How was it? I hope you like and r/r!!! please????Trust me I have much much more!!!And lots to explain too!