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Lily sometimes felt like she had two personalities. On the one hand there was Reserved Lily, but there also was Wild Lily. Reserved Lily was who her friends and family saw. Reserved Lily never got angry or sad. She always did well in school and was there for her friends when they needed her. She kept to herself, and pretended she was okay with that. Wild Lily was the exact opposite. She took chances Reserved Lily would never dream of. She did things on impulse without thinking of the consequences. Wild Lily was who she became the previous night.

Still lying in her basement, Lily peaked at the clock. It was 2:00 in the afternoon. She slowly sat up and folded the blankets.

"Mom? Dad? Is anybody here?" She shouted. Nobody responded. Lily was all alone, just the way Reserved Lily would've liked it.

She groggily went upstairs and walked towards the kitchen. The house was eerily quiet. The only sound to be heard was the ticking from the clock Ray had given her. She decided to get a glass of water and then take a shower. She walked into the bathroom and turned on the tap. The water was steaming hot, just the way she liked it. She removed her clothes and stepped in. Her whole body shook as the hot water washed over her skin.

Whenever Lily was in the shower, she let her mind wander freely. She embraced thoughts she would have otherwise pushed away. She thought about her dreams, her failures, and things she wouldn't dare talk about to any of her friends. When she stood there, letting the water wash over her body, it was as if she was cleansing her mind. It was both relaxing and refreshing.

On this day Lily closed her eyes, and her mind immediately went to Ray. She smiled as she remembered what happened. She remembered the feeling she got when she first wrapped her arms around him. She remembered how he tasted. She remembered his hand against her dewy skin. She knew the consequences might be brutal, but she didn't regret it. For once she was actually happy being Wild Lily.

Lily stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around herself. She studied herself in the mirror. The same hair, the same eyes, the same nose she had always been self conscious about were still there, but something was different. She couldn't put her finger on it exactly, but she could tell it was there. She seemed older. Could anybody else tell? Was there something that would give it away? Her Dad didn't notice, but then again he wasn't really looking. Lily lightly touched her cheek, the same way Ray had done. I think it will be alright.

Suddenly Lily heard the doorbell ring, "shit," she held onto her towel tightly and walked to the door. She hoped it was just Parker or a neighbour who wouldn't care that she wasn't wearing anything under this towel. She pulled the door towards her and stuck her head out. Her eyes widened. It was him.

"Um…hey Ray" she stuttered.

He tried to look inside, "did I come at a bad time?"

"No no no, that's fine. I was just having a shower. But come on in." After realising what she just said, Lily made a mental note to never say something like that ever again.

"I just wanted to talk to you. You left so early this morning."

"I know, I wanted to talk to you too. Let's go downstairs." She let him inside and noticed he was wearing a dark green v-neck sweater with a white tee. She grinned. Ray stood there for a moment. He looked at her, or rather he pretended not to look at her. She noticed his eyes dart towards her chest, and then he seemed to be quite interested in the wallpaper. She wanted to tell him that it was okay to look at her, but she didn't know how to without sounding like a total dork.

They walked downstairs together when Ray said, "Uh…Lil'…do you…think maybe…you…want to get…dressed?" He asked her in a way that made her think he didn't actually want her to get dressed at all.

"Well, you aren't going to be long right?"

"Right." That seemed to settle it. They sat down by the window. Lily leaned her head in her hand and looked out the window for a minute. She could tell he was still looking at her. Usually when boys looked at her that way she cowered away, but with Ray she thought she might actually be enjoying it. She even turned her head to look at him. Her eyes examined his arms as she gazed upon his entire body. Then she looked into his deep eyes. There was something comforting about them. They were the same eyes she had looked into her entire life. His body may be different, but inside he was still the same Ray she had always loved.

"I just want to talk about last night, and what happened," said Ray.

"Okay,"

"I didn't hurt you did I?"

"What? No, why?"

He took a deep breath, "I just want to make sure it was ok with you."

Wild Lily took over, "It wasn't ok. It was great." She noticed her hand lightly gracing his thigh. Even the lightest touch made her weak.

"I don't really know what to do." He seemed almost afraid of her.

"Do about what?"

"About…Angela."

"Oh," Lily looked to the floor. She hadn't thought about Angela since Parker mentioned her last night. Suddenly the reality of it all was sinking in. Were they going to tell Angela, or keep it a secret? How would Angela react if she found out? The questions began swarming in Lily's head, and she began feeling a bit dizzy. "We don't have to tell her, unless you want to," Lily said.

"I think that maybe I need to think about it. I know everyone says that it's the right thing to do, but I don't want to hurt her."

Lily reached forward to squeeze Ray's hand, "I understand."

"But I can tell you one thing."

"What?"

"I don't have to think about how amazing last night was, and how amazing you are."

Lily blushed, "me neither. I mean, the other way around."

Ray laughed and then leaned forwards to hug Lily. She fit perfectly in his arms. Lily took a deep breath in and sunk into Ray's body. She smelled his smell, and felt his lips against her neck. It was ecstasy. She ran her fingers over his cheeks, wanting to touch very little crevice. Her index finger brushed over his soft lips. She could feel him yearning for her. Unable to hold back any longer, she kissed him. He pushed his tongue in and out of her mouth, which made her go wild with lust. His fingers graced her bare shoulders, and she remembered that she was still only wearing the towel. Still kissing him, she barely noticed when the towel dropped to her waste.

"Lil', you know I have to go," Ray whispered.

Lily made a noise to signal that she didn't want him to leave.

"I want to stay, but what if your parents come home? I'll come back for you. I promise."

Lily knew he was telling the truth, but she still felt like she never wanted this moment to end. "Mmm, ok, if you have too." She pulled the towel over herself and stood up. It took all of her will power to not reach towards him again. They walked up the stairs together in silence, still trying to comprehend what had happened. Lily opened the door for him and kissed him on the cheek as her hand rested on his chest.

"Goodbye, for now."

"I'll call you"

"I'll be waiting" Lily closed the door behind her. She had butterflies in her stomach. She highly doubted she would be sleeping tonight.