Past Mistake

Chapter 18

(Relena's POV)

"Thank you Miss," the cashier said, as she handed me my ticket for the Zoo.

Walking towards the entrance, I became nervous. How did I lose control of everything? All my life, I had perfect control. I was always organized and able to predict every moment that something was going to happen. But when did I lose control of that ability?

Then is slowly come to me. I had lost it when I first met him.

Feeling the anger rise within, I clutch my hand into a tight fist.

Him.

This is his entire fault. He is to blame for this. He is to blame for Jeremy's death. He is to blame for me taking April away from Heero and Dorothy. He is to blame for my life to become chaotic. He is to blame for the ending of my Tennis career. He is to blame for all the suffering.

"Miss. Peacecraft?" a voice asked meekly.

Turning around in surprise I took notice of a short old man that stood before me. Smiling gently I replied, "It's been awhile Mr. Newton."

Walking up to me he gently gave me a tight hug and pulled away. "Of course it has been child. But it seems to me that I came into town in the neck of time. Don't you agree?" Looking at him confused, he smiled at me gently. "I have heard of Jeremy's death, Miss. Reacecraft and it seems to me that you are in the need of some help. Maybe even some guidance, perhaps?"

Looking at him for a split second, I nodded my head in a agreement. "Thank you," I whispered quietly.

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(Heero's POV)

Waking up slowly, I felt a light yawn escaping my lips. Getting up, I slowly stretched out my sore body. At the same time, I couldn't place where I was or why I even fell asleep. Placing my hand down on the ground, I touched a warm body. Turning my head down, I realized it was Duo.

Then reality came back to me as past events quickly flowed back. Looking around the small apartment, I took noticed that I was lying on the floor with both Duo and Hilde with Relena in nowhere in sight. Turning back to Duo, I quickly shook him. "Duo wake up! Come on Duo!" I shouted.

"Five more minutes mommy," he mumbled quietly.

Getting fed up, I took my hand and raised it. Yet at the same time, I took notice of his eyes slowly opening, as I quickly brought my hand down. Realizing quickly what was about to happen, Duo swiftly moved out of the way.

"Are you crazy man!" he shouted, leaning against the couch.

Wasting no time, I quickly pointed at Hilde's limb body. "Wake her up," I order sternly. Looking to where I was pointing, Duo quickly moved towards Hilde's body.

"Hey Babe? Come on, wake up," Duo kept repeating.

Getting up from the ground, I looked around my surroundings. Hearing a mumble from Hilde, I walked over to the both of them and waited for Hilde to get up on her feet.

Looking up at me in bewilderment, she asked, "What happened?"

"Relena is gone," I responded.

"What!" Duo shouted, looking around the apartment.

"She drugged us?" Hilde asked in amazement.

Picking up the broken cup of what used to be coffee, I frowned slightly. "It seemed she might have drugged us with sleeping pills."

"But why?" Duo asked.

Ignoring his question, I quickly walked toward a desk. Looking through the papers, I looked for anything that might look interesting. But nothing seemed to come about it.

Noticing both Duo and Hilde looking about the apartment, I started to open the cabinets to the desk, looking in bookshelves, looking inside closets.

Hearing a gasp, I turned around quickly. Noticing Duo looking straight ahead, he quickly ran towards the sound. I followed right behind.

Standing near the doorway to Relena's bedroom, Hilde stood next to the nightstand with the drawer wide open.

"Hilde? What's wrong?" Duo asked worriedly.

Turning to face us, she held out a document of papers. Walking past Duo I grabbed them.

Scanning them quickly, I felt my world spinning around in my head. Then I felt I light tap. Looking back at Hilde, she held out what seemed to be a journal of some type. Taking that too, I read the page Hilde had left opened. Reading its contexts, I felt something growing within me.

On one page is said:

It's the one-year anniversary, of the death of my child, Christy. She had died of an early death for she only lived in this world for a good couple of minutes before her heart gave out. I was having troubles with her and I started to panic. No doctors would give me a truthful response. I miss her terribly and I forever wished she had lived so she could have grown in this world into a beautiful child. I wonder if she would have looked anything like me or like Jeremy. I suppose I will forever wonder. However, I pray for her everyday and hope she lives happily up in heaven. For that her mother loves her dearly and if I had the choice during that time of labor, I would have sacrifice my life for hers.

Sensing Duo approach Hilde, she grabbed to out to hold his hand.

Everything finally made sense. Yet at the same time, it seemed so unrealistic.

"Well buddy, what does it say?" Duo asked quietly.

"She was telling the truth about being pregnant," I mumbled quietly.

"If that's true then what happened to her child," Duo asked.

"Was it a miscarriage?" Hilde whispered softly.

"No, the baby did live the full nine moths," I injected. "But there were birth complications and she soon lost the child during labor. By the looks of it, the baby had died of a heart failure."

"Poor Relena," Duo said quietly.

"But it doesn't make sense. If she lost her baby during birth how did she get a hold of April?" Hilde asked.

"By the looks of these documents, " I started, scanning them one more time, "She lost her baby a month before Dorothy gave birth."

"A month?" Duo asked surprised.

Handing him another paper, he read it as well:

A close friend of mine from high school gave birth to a healthy baby girl. Dorothy Catalonia is her name. She was the one that had told me about the position at the local therapy center. I'm so happy for her and her child. Yet at the same time, it saddens me. It's exactly one month since the death of Christy. I'm so what depressed that Christy didn't make it while Dorothy's child did. Why was it that Christy had to die while other baby girls lived? I'm being too selfish for my own good? I don't think I am. Maybe it is because I'm still grieving over the loss. Yet I just cannot help it. I had visited her at the hospital earlier today, to check on her. She seems to be happy and content.

The father of the baby is unknown to many people. However, she mentioned that he is a well-known tennis player. Yet, she is worried what her father will do. For he never supported her through out the pregnancy. Only because the father of the Dorothy's child did not support her, when she needed it.

We kept silent for the couple of minutes. We let the new information sink in. Then Hilde gasped out loud. Turning to face her, I looked at her strangely.

"Babe what is it?" Duo asked in concern.

"Dorothy…" she started.

"What about Dorothy?" I asked quietly.

"I remember her mentioning something when she started to work at the center. You turned your back on her when she was indeed pregnant. Did you not Heero?" Hilde asked seriously.

"Yes, I did. You don't have to rub it in." I replied grimly.

"However, her father was not please with your actions," Hilde commented.

"Her father?" Duo murmured softly.

"Yes, I never met the guy before but from what she has told me, he doesn't sound the most generous guy," Hilde said.

Thinking back to the past, I tried to recall the times when I had a chance to met Dorothy's father. But then I realized, I never met him once in my life.

Yet at the same time, he had contact me through my cell phone.

Then it hit me.

"Heero, you're to quiet for comfort. What is it?" Duo asked.

"He hates me," I spoke quietly.

Looking confused, Hilde asked, "Who hates you?"

"Mr. Catalonia. Dorothy's father."

"Why would he hate you? Other then you abandons his daughter when she was pregnant." Duo replied sarcastically.

Watching Hilde hit Duo on the arm, I glared at him slightly.

"He doesn't hate me for that Duo. That could be the least of his worries," I said dangerously.

"Then why would he hate you?" Duo asked seriously.

"Because I didn't do what he had asked me to do. I didn't force Dorothy into having the abortion that he wanted her to go through," I replied angrily.

"A abortion!" Hilde replied surprised.

"It was about a week after, Dorothy had informed me about her pregnancy. He called me and had asked me to do a favor. He wanted me to continue to date his daughter and force her or convince her into having an abortion. Or else," I said.

"Or else what?" Duo asked speechless.

"Or else, he would make my life a living hell," I replied.

"Okay let me try to put all these pieces together," Hilde stated, "Mr. Catalonia objected Dorothy of having the baby. So he had you to try and convince her to get rid of the child?"

"Correct," I said.

"However, if you deny his request he would ruin your life?" Duo asked.

Nodding my head in agreement we kept quiet. Then I whispered quietly, "The hit and run."

Duo quickly looked up at me in surprised. "You're not thinking that it was Dorothy's father who set that up do you?"

Looking sadly at him, I nodded my head. "Heero, if he did set it up. Why did he wait five whole years? Remember, if you actually meant to destroy your life, wouldn't he have done it long time ago?"

"Who said he didn't hurt me back then?" I asked quietly. Both watching me carefully, I continued. "He took April away from me."

"You actually think he is to blame for this?" Hilde asked surprised.

Lifting up the last page of the journal, Hilde took it slowly from my hand and read it's context.

It's been a week since Dorothy had given birth. Both of them are still at the hospital. Yet the strange thing happened to me. Mr. Catalonia, Dorothy's father, called me with a strange offer. He had heard about my baby's death and wanted to help me recover. At first I thought he was crazy. The only thing that would help me recover from my loss was bringing back Christy. He was offering me a new baby. A baby that I can love and cherish as one of my own. Somewhere deep down, I knew something wasn't right, yet the feeling a becoming a m other seemed to over power my sense of right over wrong. I accepted his proposal of receiving a new baby.

"Do you think Relena knew?" Hilde asked quietly.

"I don't think she realize what baby Mr. Catalonia had offer her," I answered back.

"The thing I don't get is why she kept the baby afterwards. She knew it was Dorothy's child, so why keep it?" Duo asked confused.

"Because deep down she was still hurting from her loss," Hilde replied sadly. "I mean if I were to lose a child at birth I would be devastated. I think I would have made the same choice as Relena. Because someone is offering me to give me a second chance to be a mother. Especially a month later after my loss."

Thinking about the facts that lay before us, I frowned. What Hilda had said made sense. Relena was in pain and shock. She was still suffering from her loss.

"Where would she go?" I asked quietly.

Watching me, both Hilde and Duo kept silent. Neither knew how the answer as well. Watching Hilde was to the side, she slowly whispered, "I might know."

Turning around surprised I asked, "How would you know?"

"I said might. Think about all the facts and you would know Mr. Catalonia is behind all this. If you knew him well, you would know where he would be taking April."

"Where would that be babe?" Duo asked quietly.

"April's favorite place to visit is the Zoo. He would have taken her there," she responded quietly.

"Then that's where we're heading. Come on!" I shouted, leaving the apartment with Hilde and Duo following right behind.

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(Relena's POV)

"Miss. Peacecraft, how on earth did you get yourself in this predicament?" the old man asked quietly.

"Pagan, I cannot explain myself for my actions. For what I have done, is inexcusable," I replied rather gently. "I blame myself entirely for Jeremy's death. I shouldn't have told him the truth."

"Yet he deserved to know the truth. Did he not?" Pagan asked.

"Of course, but look what the truth had led him to. His own death," I replied angrily.

"His death is not your fault but of Mr. Catalonia. After all, you were not the one to pull the trigger."

"I know, but I have put April in danger because of what I have done," I whispered regretfully.

"Yet you love April, don't you?" he asked.

"With all my heart," I responded.

"Then maybe it is time to show how much you truly love her," he said.

"I don't know how to," I whispered.

Holding my hands with his own, he smiled. "Follow your heart Relena and trust what it tells you."

"Miss. Peacecraft?" I a voice asked from beyond.

Turning around, I took notice of Mr. Catalonia standing there. I started to walk over but stop. "Pagan, thank you."

"Anytime, Relena. Just be careful," he said worriedly.

"I will." I continue to walk forward. I soon stopped when I was 10 feet of range of Mr. Catalonia. "Good day Mr. Catalonia."

"Good day to you too, Miss. Peacecraft," he replied smiling. "Please do follow me."

Nodding my head, I followed right behind. As we walked I asked, "Where is April?"

"No fear, she is safe and well. She is here, if you must know," he responded without turning back to face me.

"Then answer me this, Mr. Catalonia. Why are you doing this?" I asked carefully.

Stopping abruptly, he turned to me. "Because Miss. Peacecraft, no one never denies me and expect to get away with it."

"I did nothing to ever displease you sir," I replied seriously.

"I understand that, Miss. Peacecraft. Yet I never said it was you."

Looking at him in surprised I asked, "Then why are you doing this?"

"If you must know Miss. Peacecraft, I'm doing this to gain back revenge."

"From who?" I asked dangerously.

"Well no other than Heero Yuy," he replied smiling.

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Author's Note

Yes! Another chapter done and ready. Yes I know it is short and I do apologize, but I wanted to get it out before the last week before Christmas. As I will most likely not have time to update until after Christmas and maybe before New Years. So tell me what you think and I'll try to get the next chapter up soon as possible. Plus it will be longer.