Known
Summary: A story from Trish's POV dealing with her feelings for Darry and the events of Jeepers Creepers.
Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to any character in the film Jeepers Creepers.
He had to have known the reason why I wanted to take the long way home with him. Past long empty roads with only fields surrounding us, a clear blue sky above and an endless road before. Darry had to have known that I liked talking with him. He had known that I wasn't in a hurry to arrive at the place we were both raised. But had he known how much I enjoyed his company? Did he know that I felt more at home sitting beside him, arguing as we did, laughing together, understading each other than when I was with either mom or dad? He had to have known that I wanted to be with him.
He had to have known how sorry I was for everything. I should never have let him talk me into taking him back to that place. I should have told him that it was my car and that I was older and made the decisions. I was always so happy of holding that over him. He had to have known that if I'd have realized what would happen I would never have lost the hold I had on him when he freaked out about the rats. He had to have known that if I'd thought for even one second that I would lose him I would never have let him go.
He had to have known how shaken I was to see him quiet, soul sore and terrified sitting beside me as we drove away from the church and the terrible secrets it had hid for so long in its basement. I had never seen him like that before. He had to have known how badly I wanted to believe his story but how my infernal logic wouldn't let me until I saw that thing for myself. He had to have known how stupid I knew I had been.
He had to have known that I knew how scared he was, not only for himself, but for me too. I knew that when Jezelle had told us what she had seen, what she had heard, Darry's mind jumped to it having been me in that vision. I knew the desperation he felt when he was convinced it was me that thing wanted. He had to have known how horrible I felt when I remembered how only hours before I had called him selfish. He had to have known how desperately I also wanted it not to have been his screams Jezelle had heard in the darkness.
He had to have known that what I said to that awful thing was true. I wanted it to take me instead. Behind the strong face I put on was the fear that my words would do no good. Had the Creeper sensed that? Was it my strength that stopped it from taking me or could it smell my fear that it would take Darry away from me? Did that fear convince it that I wasn't the one it wanted? It had known Darry's fear that it would listen and follow my words. Darry was never any good at hiding his feelings. I loved that about him. That honesty. In the end the Creeper had smelt Darry's fear and it had known whom it truly wanted. Darry had to have known that I would have died for him.
He had to have known as that creature took him away from me, flying into the night, becoming as lost as I now feel, and as I ran afterthem calling his name over and over again if only to take me also so I wouldn't have to face the devastation and loneliness that I feel whenever we are apart… He had to have known that I loved him.
Please God… Let him have known how much I loved him.