Carth stood in the cockpit, watching the scarred surface of Telos grow near. He left Saleairy asleep in the crew quarters. Jolee left and let Carth land the Ebon Hawk. Saleairy appeared and sat in the co pilot seat, pressing a few buttons to help land.
"I'm sorry Carth."
"It wasn't your fault." Carth muttered. He clenched his jaw.
"I know you forgive me to some extent but I'm sorry for your loss and pain too." Saleairy said with her caressing tone. Carth realized that her vocal tones hid the pain she really felt.
"Well it's not your fault dammit. And I know you feel pain for me but you can't tell me you know what it feels like to lose everything. You wouldn't remember. And you know, if you hadn't been the evil Lord of the Sith before all this, you wouldn't give a damn. Even now, the only reason you feel for people is because you obviously have guilt issues. How does it feel to be a great Jedi, the empathizer of all who suffer, and not remember anything before the Endar Spire? How could you possibly know what any of us feel? You don't. You manipulate us into think you feel our pain."
Carth's tone and message was the worst pain anyone ever inflicted upon Saleairy. She was shock still for an instant, so startled by the brutal onslaught she almost stopped breathing. She blinked and left the cockpit.
Saleairy meditated in the crew quarters. She wasn't used to the pain she felt from Carth's scathing voice. She was too used to his teasing, loving tone. She shouldn't expect pleasantries because she didn't deserve them and it would always come back to a past she couldn't remember.
There is no emotion.
There was a lot of anger. Saleairy's bitter thoughts made her sigh and rub her eyes. Pain. Pain was an emotion Jedi felt.
Saleairy shook her head and stopped meditating. It was pointless when she couldn't anchor herself down to some level of calm.
Carth watched her struggle to mediate. She was struggling with being a Jedi. He made her struggle. He wondered if she would've stayed with the crew if he didn't love her. She'd be in some Temple, training pupils so her way of life wouldn't die out. Carth corrected himself. She would be in the Outer Rim, looking for the dark secrets that caused Revan to rip a hole in the galaxy.
Saleairy opened her eyes and saw Carth watching her. Carth clenched his jaw tighter and turned on his heels. She stayed on her knees.
She stumbled to her feet a while later. She walked out into the common area and started. Everyone was gone. She sighed and sat down.
"They all went ahead of you. Not a wise choice on their part." She didn't start at Canderous' voice.
"I suppose not."
"Are you ready to disembark? They won't make it far without you." Canderous offered her his hand. "I know you two are having an argument but you know where I stand."
"Do I?" She asked. He pulled her up.
"You do. It doesn't take a Jedi to figure that out." Canderous said.
"Statement: It appears the Republic meatbag has gone on without you Master. What a disloyal act."
"Droid-" Canderous was cut off by Saleairy.
"I don't need disloyalty when I have loyalty. Let's go."