Disclaimer: nothing is mine I don't think… I think J.K Rowling is stealing my ideas…or not

Ok so I'm writing quicker coz people have like told me to… Plus 'Not A Monkey' will kill me if I don't update quick.

So here it goes….

CHAPTER 4 OF FADED MEMORIES!

Lyrics are drum roll 'NUMB' by Linkin park

Next chapter I am not using lyrics by Linkin park I have reminded myself!

This is set at the burrow right after chapter 3 ends

And I think this is gonna be a short chappie sorta like a filler…. If you know what I mean

OOOOOO

"What is going on?" Mrs Weasly snapped

"Nothing" Ron lied

"Harry?" Mrs Weasly asked.

"It's really is nothing just an argument between friends" harry lied.

"You are very bad liars, the both of ya, I expected better" Fred teased as he entered the kitchen

"Sod off" Ron snapped.

"Now let's go from the start" Mrs Weasly said calmly

"Let's not" Ron snapped.

"Its ok Mrs Weasly we are fine we will just pretend it didn't happen" Harry said trying to keep the peace.

"So you are trying to get out of this huh?" Ron yelled

"Out of what? I just asked you a question!" Harry asked.

"Fine we will drop it! but he isn't staying in my room!" Ron complained.

"You can stay in Bill's old room" Mrs Weasly smiled.

"He isn't perfect you know, not like you think he is" ron snapped and went upstairs.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be


Feeling so faithless lost under the surface


Don't know what you're expecting of me


Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes


(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)


Every step that I take is another mistake to you


(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

"You want me to be like him but I cant he has always been the perfect child I could never be" Ron yelled down the stairs.

"God you're a drama queen" George yelled at Ron.

"Shhhh George" Mrs Weasly warned.

"I'll be back" Mrs Weasly said, going upstairs to comfort her youngest son.

She walked cautiously up the stairs. She opened his door.

"Go away" he mumbled

"I just wanna talk, Ron" she said calmly.

"Go away" he said, with a bit more force.

"Please Ron tell me why you think I want you to be like Harry" she asked.

"GO AWAY" Ron yelled getting up from his bed.

Mrs Weasly jumped at her son's sudden movements. She was stuck for words, this was Ron, her baby. He was Ron not Harry; she didn't want him to be like harry. But why did he think that?

"Ok just so you know I don't want you to be like Harry I love you just the way you are" mrs Weasly said as she left the room.

Ron hated his family, so did harry, was he becoming like him?

I've become so numb I can't feel you there


I've become so tired so much more aware


I'm becoming this all I want to do


Is be more like me and be less like you


Ron sobbed in his pillow.

"I'm not like him" he sobbed

"I don't wanna be like him"

"I hate him"

"He…he..."

Ron sobbed trying to blame all his problems on Harry. Yet it held no satisfaction. He knew he had done something wrong and he had to suffer the consequences. He hated Harry, or he thought he did. He want to be someone better than Harry, but he knew having the Weasly name would stop him from being better than Harry. Even though the Weasly's were purebloods because they were poor, everyone picked on them, him in particular.

Ron wiped his eyes and went down stairs.

"Oh Ron" his mother said hugging him.

Can't you see that you're smothering me


Holding too tightly afraid to lose control


Cause everything that you thought I would be


Has fallen apart right in front of you


(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)


Every step that I take is another mistake to you


(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)


And every second I waste is more than I can take

"I'm sorry I'm not what you want me to be, I'm sorry I'm not like Harry I'm so sorry" Ron sobbed.

"Ron, my mother wanted me to be someone I wasn't and she was so ashamed of me when I couldn't fit the mould she had chosen, I know what it is like to be constantly compared to someone else, I wouldn't do that to you" Mrs Weasly explained.

"Who did she want you to be like?" Ron asked.

"Lily" Mrs Weasly answered.

"My mother?" Harry asked.

"Yes. My mother thought she was perfect, she was a great witch, was beautiful and had a great boyfriend" Mrs Weasly remembered.

"At one stage I wanted to be like her, but then I realised she probably had dark secrets, hidden burdens, she had to deal with and I didn't think I could do that" Mrs Weasly said.

I've become so numb I can't feel you there


I've become so tired so much more aware


I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know


I may end up failing too


But I know


You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

"Did you get to know her?" Harry asked.

"No, she was so defensive about her private life she always had walls up, even with your father. I think she was ashamed of her family, and because she was a muggle-born she always had to let things roll off her back. But I knew every passing comment by a pureblood hurt her I could see it in her eyes" Mrs Weasly remembered.

"Did she ever do anything? Stick up for herself?" Harry asked fuming.

"No she took it all in her stride, just like Hermione, if you show a pureblood mercy they automatically win" Mrs Weasly warned.

"Sometimes Hermione gets sort of distant I know there is something wrong but she always says she is fine" Ron explained.

"Lily did that too"

"Well I think I might still need my space" Ron smiled.

"Ok harry you can stay in bills room" Mrs Weasly smiled, smothering her youngest son in kisses.

"Alright ok stop it!" Ron laughed.

"I'm going to bed" Ron said as he walked up the stairs. He opened his door and hopped into bed.

I've become so numb I can't feel you there


I'm tired of being what you want me to be


I've become so numb I can't feel you there


I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I've become so numb I can't feel you there


I'm tired of being what you want me to be


I've become so numb I can't feel you there


I'm tired of being what you want me to be

"I still hate him" Ron mumbled and went to sleep.

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End chapter 4

This is a filler chapter don't blame me because it's shit!

Ok so this only took me a day and a bit to write! Quick enough for you Lauren?

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Thanx to my reviewers from chapter 3

LUV Y'ALL

This chapter was previously up… I took it of to edit it…: D