I Can Stop the Pain
By Rose
Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans or the song, In the End by Linkin Park. But some day I'll own the world. Someday…
Notice: Songfic, In The End by Linkin Park. It's not a really big part of the chapter, but it takes up quite a bit of it. Please don't bash it, I rather enjoy the song.
Chapter Eight: Fear Can Hide the Truth
At eight forty-five, Starfire, Raven, Beastboy, Cyborg, Bee, and Terra all boarded the T-car, and Sandra and Robin rode Robin's R-cycle to The Jump City Town Hall. The plan was for Starfire to meet RedX at the Jump City Hall, instead of him coming to pick her up.
The ride in the T-car was…well... to sum it up in one word, long. Terra kept crossing and uncrossing her legs, shifting her skirt in front of Beastboy, allowing him to see up her skirt. Raven chanted 'Azerath, Metrion, Zinthos,' inside her head to keep herself from attacking Terra.
Bee and Cyborg had 'Candy Shop' cranked up high and were singing it at the top of their lungs, meanwhile Starfire listened to the lyrics with a confused expression on her face.
"Beastboy, what do they mean by, 'Your going until you hit the spot'? I do not understand." asked Starfire, cocking her head to her side.
Raven's eyes widened and she closed her eyes quickly, chanting silently. Beastboy and Cyborg started coughing at the same time, and Bee looked distracted with the flower in her hair.
Terra saved them all, "Starfire, listen, this is what the song means…" said Terra, rolling her eyes, and she whispered the meaning of the song in Starfire's ear. "You idiot."
Starfire's eyes widened and her face went pale. "Oh… I see…"
"Don't be telling her stuff like that, girl!" shrieked Cyborg, but nonetheless, looked relieved.
"…friends, may I ask another question concerning the song?"
"LOOK, STAR! A DEER!" yelled Beastboy, distracting the alien for a few seconds.
"…Thank Azar…" whispered Raven.
Finally the car ride ended, and as soon as they opened the doors, hundreds of fans and reporters swarmed around them, and flashes of cameras emerged.
Raven, annoyed, surrounded herself with a black aura. Starfire felt frightened and meek and hurried next to Raven, hiding herself under the black aura as well. Terra and Beastboy took their time, Terra showing off in front of the cameras, and Beastboy signed many kid's autographs.
"Hello little girl, what's your name?" he asked.
"Lisa!" said a little girl, with long brown hair and big glasses that kept falling down her nose. "You're my favorite super hero, will you sign my picture?" she asked shyly.
Beastboy grinned, "Of course! I likeyou hair, very pretty," he complimented, ruffling her long brown hair.
She giggled, "Thank you," and she hurried back to her older brother and showed him Beastboy's signature. Beastboy smiled, and looked over at the other hopeful looking kids and took out his lucky 'Space Warriors' pen.
'This… is going to take a while…' he thought, looking at the hundreds of kids.
Meanwhile, Cyborg and Bee were 'attacked' by the press with questions, and were occupied for a while, but allowing Robin and Sandra to sneak past them, and enter the City Hall without difficulty.
"Cyborg! Is it true that you and Starfire eloped last thursday?"
"Er...what?"
"Is it true that Terra and Beastboy are related?"
"Huh?"
Bee and Cyborg were trapped for a while, but managed to get rid of all the reporters when the Mayor came out and shooed them all away, literaly.
As soon as Starfire arrived, she was immediately grabbed by RedX. She smiled at her friend, and looked surprised. He had worn a mask, similar to the one like Robin's, and was wearing a black tuxedo. He smiled at her and handed her some white lilies.
"Hello Charlie!" smiled Starfire.
"Nice to see you Kori," said Charlie, and took her hand and led her out to a nearby table, and sat down. "How've you been?" he asked.
"I have been alright, but I am very hungry," she said, and grabbed a plate of shrimp and raspberries in cream.
"Hungry, why?" asked RedX.
"I have not left my garden all day, in fear of seeing Sandra and Robin together." She explained, "-but I did sneak in to change," she said.
"No eating?" he asked in disbelief.
"No eating, besides my breakfast," she informed.
"Oh, yeah, you never told me how Robin took it," RedX said, laughing, "What happened? Leave out no details!" Starfire gave a small smile and retold the story of her confession early this morning. When she finished, Charlie was nearly rolling on the floor laughing.
"Are you serious? That's hilarious!" he laughed, "But really, what a jerk, how could he get mad and jealous like that when you already asked him and he said no?"
Before Starfire could answer, the alarm on her communicator went off. "Oh no! Please Charlie, help me locate my team mates!" said Starfire, looking frantically around for the titans.
"Over there!" he pointed at a group of people surrounding the titans. Starfire flew over towards them, "Trouble?" she asked.
"Yeah," said Robin, glancing up at her, "We have something going on near the bridge, I'm not sure whether it is dangerous or not,"
"I'll go," said Cyborg, "You guys can stay."
"I'm coming with you!" said Bee, "Don't think I'm staying here alone." She smirked, "Besides, what if you can't handle it?"
It was Cyborg's turn to smirk. "Me? Not be able to handle it? Puh-lease, girl. I can handle anything!"
"Uh-huh…" Bee rolled her eyes, "Thank god Aqualad made me take my uniform." She and Cyborg ran out to the T-car, while Robin gave them instructions on his communicator.
"You sure you guys can handle it?" Robin asked, "Call us when you're done."
"Don't worry about us, we'll call you if we need help. Besides, I'd rather kick butt than go to a stuffy party any day" Reassured Cyborg,
"Ditto," chimed Bee and shut off the communication with Robin to track where the villain was. Robin returned to glaring at Starfire and RedX, who were both deep in conversation. Terra was showing Sandra different ways to dance, and Sandra was attempting to imitate her actions, usually failing.
Meanwhile, Raven and Beastboy were dancing all around, well… Raven was, Beastboy was just trying to keep up with the fast moving half demon.
He stopped suddenly, and looked at her while she danced. He could honestly say that she danced better than anyone he had ever seen before. She danced as though she had never walked before, it looked that natural. Raven finally realized she was going to fast for him, and smiled. "Why didn't you tell me I was going too fast?"
Beastboy replied, "You look so beautiful when you dance."
It starts with one thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Mind you, this is not club dancing, this is real dancing. And not slow dancing, but just gliding to the imaginary beat of the earth. Raven heard the beat, and moved her body and soul to the silent tune. She connected with the soundless music; it was her peace, her escape, her life.
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
Raven blushed and from behind her, a plate of shrimp exploded, and a lady screamed, immediately covered in the remains of shrimp. Raven's eyes widened and her face grew hot.
Beastboy smiled, "Not your fault, mine. Sorry for making blush." He stared into her eyes, making Raven feel uncomfortable… as though he could hear what she was thinking, as though he was seeing her for the first time.
She felt suddenly angry, "Why are you being like this?" she snapped.
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when
"Being like what? I'm trying to be nice!" Beastboy said, feeling shocked and annoyed. "I guess you don't like it when people are nice to you! Remind me next time, and I won't waste my time!"
'He doesn't mean it, he's lying to me, I can't be loved' Raven heard her inner voice speak, and felt tears well up inside her. 'I just don't want to get hurt…'
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Raven looked down, "I like it, I love it…" she whispered, "When you treat me like this, you make me feel so happy." She confessed, 'But he lies, you know this. You have seen it happen before, why fall prey to pain?'
"But you don't mean it! I know you don't, you are lying to me! How could you do this to me? I'm not stupid!" she snapped, her eyes turning from a soft purple to a rusty red. People around them started to stare.
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Beastboy turned pale, and led Raven outside before she destroyed anything, "Raven, what are you talking about? I meant every word!" he stopped when both he and Raven were behind the City Hall in an alley.
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try, keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme, to explain in due time
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Raven scoffed, "I almost believe you. How long have you been doing this? I honestly can't imagine how I could fall for this?"
"Raven, stop it!" snapped Beastboy, "I would never try and hurt you!"
Raven smirked, "It's over Beastboy, I know. Stop pretending, leaving me alone." Her smirk turned into a desperate look of misery.
Beastboy grabbed her hand, "Raven, you could search my mind, and I can promise you that I am not lying. Raven, please, look at me!" He grabbed her and faced her towards him so she could see him clearly.
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me (in the end)
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I
Raven yanked her arm away. "You don't. I know you don't, WHY ARE YOU PLAYING ME LIKE THIS!" she shrieked, her emotions shredding at her beautiful dress, leaving it in tatters at her thighs, and one sleeve ripped off.
"Playing you? Raven, I'm not playing you! I would never do something like that!" he said, and suddenly pulled her into a hug. "Raven, I love you too much…"
I tried so hard
and got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
She didn't care anymore, she let her emotions go and burst into tears, "Don't… lie," she sobbed into his chest.
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
"What are you afraid of?" he asked softly. "Of Terra? Raven, I will never let Terra hurt you, I promise." he whispered into her ear.
Raven cried harder, windows shattered in apartments all over town, raining glass all over them, but neither moved from their embrace.
"I'm not afraid of Terra, I'm afraid of ending like Starfire." Cried Raven. "I'm afraid of… you…"
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
Beastboy held Raven up, away from his chest and looked at her. Her cheeks were stained with tears, and her make up was slightly runny. The glass had cut into the skin all around her arms and face, bleeding slightly. Her dress went from a long dress to a mini dress, ending in complete shreds at her thighs, and her hair was slightly messed up.
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
"You look… beautiful." Beastboy said, stroking her cheek, "I love you and you don't need to fear me," he said, and leaned in, kissing her tear-soaked lips. A car window broke, but neither of the two flinched or broke the kiss.
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Finally, Raven broke the kiss and touched Beastboy's face lovingly. "I love you too," she said and kissed him again, feeling for the first time in her entire life, real bliss.
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter…
(A/N: Why I chose this song: I like it and I think it works for both Raven and Beastboy. If you don't like Linkin Park, I don't care. Just don't bash, it's just a song people.)
Starfire sat down at the table, and stared out a nearby window. In the reflection, she saw that Sandra and Robin were slow dancing, and Starfire had to admit, they looked… happy. The kind of happy that Starfire longed for, the kind of happy that she dreamed about!
Charlie pitied the poor girl, but there was nothing he could really do. "Hey Star, do you want to dance?" he asked.
She looked up at him, her eyes filled with misery and depression. "I do not know how." She confessed.
"Then let me show you," he said, and took her hand and pulled her up. "I hold your waist, and you hold my neck," Explained RedX, and Starfire obeyed.
Robin glared from not too far away, 'How dare he touch her. Why is she dancing with him?
But you told h r, no. You went for Sandra. REMEMBER?
Is this about Sandra? Is Starfire trying to make me jealous?
I don't know, is she? Do you think Starfire would resort to that?
Maybe, I mean, I guess so…wait, it makes sense! Starfire wants me to feel bad!
Why would she want to hurt you?
Because I told her no, don't you see it?
But Starfire would never do that.
Two can play at her game…
Are you even listening to me?
I can make her jealous!
I feel invisible' (A/N: Confusing, I know, sorry)
Robin spun Sandra closer to him, and tilted her back. She giggled at his sudden movements, and he laughed loudly, making Starfire turn around and look at them.
"Don't look at them," whispered Charlie. "Focus on something else, think of something happy." He ordered.
Starfire frantically searched her mind for something happy.
She heard Sandra giggling… 'Tangy, delicious mustard' thought Starfire.
She heard Robin laughing… 'Fuzzy, warm kittens' she continued to think.
She saw Sandra gazing longingly in Robin's eyes… 'Shopping with Raven' Starfire ordered herself to think about.
She saw Robin pulling Sandra closer to him, gazing lustfully into her eyes… 'Working in the garden' Starfire focused on.
She saw Robin leaning in to kiss Sandra, but not before looking to see if Starfire was staring. He saw her misery… 'To have the pain… disappear' Starfire felt herself yearn for what she was thinking.
'You know how…' a voice said in her head.
"Starfire?" Robin gasped, and dropped Sandra to the ground, as he saw the once happy alien girl's look of horror and pain.
Starfire ran. 'I don't care where, ANYWHERE but here!' she shrieked inside her mind, and sprinted outside the party, past the streets, down the alleys, into every short cut she knew. She would know when and where to stop. For now, she just ran.
Rose: I know, I know, incredibly short. Sorry.
RedX: should be, is that the end of me?
Rose: honestly, I'm sort of just making this up as I go along.
RedX: whatever.
Rose: Happy Easter Everyone!
REVIEWS:
Jackdaw: Why hello, again. Yes, everyone feels bad for Starfire. They should, right? I almost hate myself for writing this, since I am usually cruel to the poor girl. I updated soon, since I'm on spring break, I'm trying to update at least three times! Two down, one more to go… maybe another after that!
Gladdecease: Glad to know that you like my story besides the humor! You enjoyed the outfits? Amazingly enough, I created them! A small sense of creativity that I have, I sometimes feel as though my story is just like all the others. I like being different. Terra and Sandra's outfits? Ha, they amused me. Glad they amused you as well! Thanks for your review! Sorry this chapter was short, but since I'm on spring break, I'll be updating at least once more soon!
LuckyNut: Lol, very cute penname. Another mob? Er… not any time soon I'm afraid but... here's a brick! (Hands you a brick) There is Robin! (Points at Robin) Now, hurl the brick as hard as you can at his head! (Watches in amusement as you chuck the brick at Robin's head, knocking him unconscious) Serves him right, the loser… (Lol) I actually think it's Terra who is the dumbest titan, not Beastboy. But you are right; Robin can be such a prick sometimes. Gosh. Thanks for your review, glad you liked the mob!
Stargirl1066lkl: Yeah, Terra and Sandra have about as much fashion sense, as Beastboy has math knowledge. But, it provides entertainment! (Plus, it is so fun to make up!) I know, Robin is being SUCH a prick! (glares at Robin) Betrothed? I love that one, so cute! A little too fluffy for my liking, but I adore the fight scene between Blackfire and Starfire! Thanks for reviewing, hope you liked this chapter!
cRiTiC123: haha, thanks! You loved the mob? It was so fun to write! (I had difficulty not killing Robin… but I resisted the temptation to slam a piano on his head… with much difficulty, lol) He is such a prick. Your in luck! I'm on spring break, and I'll be updating again soon! Sorry this chapter was short, hope you liked it anyways!
Metalligoth: Nightwish and Ministry? Okay! Cool. (Thank god for local CD stores) I know the songfic I did wasn't from your offer, I'm not sure if you like Linkin Park, but the song reminded me of the scene so I added it in. Hope your not offended or anything… Also, sorry this chapter was really short; I'm on temporary writers block. I'll be updating a lot, since this is my spring break and I'm not going anywhere. Happy Easter!
GuitarChix13: Well… I updated? And I'll be updating a lot since it's spring break… and I'm not going anywhere… (Sigh). Thanks for reviewing!
FreedomDreamer: Thanks, I'm glad you liked Starfire's dress! Lol… the mob… glad you enjoyed it, it brought me great amusement. I listen to almost all suggestions I get! Sorry this was a sort of short chapter, but I'll be updating quite a bit since I'm on spring break, and am not going anywhere! Hope you liked this chapter despite its shortness! Thanks for reviewing! And Happy Easter!
Molly: Hello Sexy Minx! (To put in Jack's words…) You want me to write more to you? (sigh) Very well. Sandra didn't exactly do anything slutty at the dance, but isn't it enough that she's wearing pig tails and a tutu? Gosh, what do you want from me? …er… keep adding you to the story? I ADDED LISA! (I felt bad for not adding her into the story, I'll see if I can sneak you into the next chapter)
No lemons from me right now, I'm thinking about writing a threesome between Raven, Starfire, and Beastboy… but I'm not sure, for some reason, it sounds appealing to me.
Oh yeah, and don't hate me, but I'm now a bb/star shipper. I love it! It's just too cute, especially when Robin's all jealous-like! And then Rob/Rae comes in, but that coupling still makes me kinda sick, so you have to focus on Star/BB.
Did you like the rae/bb fluff? My favorite part! I just loved writing it, oh… and guess what? Terra's not going to be with the titans long… that's all I'm going to say!
Long enough for you, Minx? I think so! (Don't you just LOVE your new nickname?) Farethewell, and Happy Easter. (lol… Eatings…)
PinkFlamingo44: Awww, I'm sorry you didn't get to review in time, that's too bad. I know! (hands you a brick) Here is a brick! There is Robin! (points at Robin) Now chuck it at Robin as hard as you can! (lol) HAHAHA… 'I'll kill you until your dead'… that's just sad, but utterly hilarious. Of course… the grammar was indeed awesome. Hope you liked this chapter! Thanks for your reviews, I'm glad you like my story!
Thank you my beautiful reviewers, and Happy Easter!
Since I am no mood for a proper closing, I'll end this with a simple demand.
REVIEW. It's a simple button people.
And a quote: "I don't need to be careful, I've got a gun!" –Homer Simpson, bless his heart.
One more quote: "A true friend will stab you in the front." –Unknown Source