I Can Stop the Pain

By Rose

Disclaimer- Wouldn't it be funny if someone said they actually did own the titans? HAHA, they would get SUED. I am in no mood to get sued, so if anyone asks, I don't won the Teen Titans, (sniff) Or the Linkin Park 'Hybrid Theory' CD, YET!

NOTICE: Alright peoples, I'm just telling you right away. I mentioned I like bb/star in the last chapter, but that was to my reviewer, Molly. Don't worry; I'm not changing any couples! I'm more of a bb/Raven person anyways.

Also, Slade never died in my story. Terra never turned to stone, but she came back to the titans, after 'ATTEMPTING' to destroy Slade. The titans, besides Raven, were shocked at her loyalty, and she asked to come back. She was accepted into the titans again, and she is not on Slade's side. Slade is way too cool for that little anorexic brat. He works alone.

Chapter Nine: Don't Die

As soon as Starfire had run out of the party, Robin's communicator rang. "Yeah?" he barked into it, still searching frantically for Starfire.

"Yo, Robin, we need back up! I repeat, we need back up!" Cyborg yelled, and seemed to be fighting something while yelling. Robin heard Bumblebee screaming in the back round and then the line went dead.

"Shit!" he swore, "Titans go!"

Sandra, pissed at Robin for dropping her while dancing, flew to the site and Robin and her arrived about two minutes later. Terra, Starfire, Beastboy, and Raven were no where to be seen.

"Where is everyone?" Robin yelled angrily, glaring at Sandra.

"How should I know?" she yelled back, "Terra's probably doing something important, Raven and Beastboy are probably having sex, god knows where, and your precious Starfire is probably sulking somewhere! Find them yourself!"

"If anyone is doing something important, it's not going to be Terra!" snapped Robin.

"YO, ROBIN 'N SANDRA, WE NEED SOME BACKUP!" Cyborg yelled angrily.

"YEAH, IF YOU HADN'T NOTICED, WE CAN'T HANDLE THIS NEW GUY ON OUR OWN! Shouted Bee, busy zapping at what looked like illusions of the villain's robot minions.

"I can help," said a voice from behind Robin and Sandra, they turned and looked surprised to see RedX.

Robin glared angrily at him, "No way." He spat.

"Aren't you looking for Starfire?" asked Sandra, looking confused.

"She wants to be alone, so I'll leave her alone, and she also has Raven and Beastboy searching for her," said RedX, "But I hear you guys need help, and I'm offering you some,"

Before Robin could reject him, Bee answered, "Sure, 'kay, whatever! Just make yourself useful and start destroying these stupid things!" she yelled, pointing at the robots.

RedX grinned, and immediately set off to help her and Cyborg.

Robin's eyes narrowed at RedX, but then he called to Cyborg "Where's the new villain?"

"Right here" came a cold voice from behind him, and Robin fell to the ground unconscious.

Starfire finally stopped running when she reached her favorite place besides the Tower. The park. She threw herself down onto the beautiful garden of lilacs and rose bushes, and buried her face into her hands, unable to cry but whimper in sadness.

-Flashback-

The titans had just left their favorite pizza restaurant. Terra had not been a titan then, and it was a lazy sunny Sunday afternoon. Cyborg challenged Robin and Beastboy to a game of football and they had both eagerly accepted.

"Okay y'all, I pick Robin to be on my team!" announced Beastboy as he and Cyborg tossed a football to each other.

"Fine, but then Starfire's on my team!" Cyborg said. Robin nodded and grinned at the pretty alien, who smiled. "Alright!" she agreed and floated near Cyborg and twirled a football on her finger.

"YES! Raven's on our team!" Beastboy cheered, and grabbed Raven who shook her arm away. "Don't think so," she retorted.

"Aww, come on Rae!" Beastboy whined.

Raven almost smiled at the nickname, "I'll referee." She said shortly, and sat underneath a big oak tree with a thick book of enchantments and spells in her hands.

Beastboy shrugged and yelled, "Okay! Let's play!"

Cyborg immediately tackled Beastboy who desperately threw the ball at Robin, but Starfire caught it and sprinted towards her goal. Robin was faster though, and (forgetting who he was tackling) tackle Starfire roughly into the ground who shrieked in surprise. They both landed at the side of a hill, and rolled down to the bottom into a bunch of flowers, Robin on top of Starfire's body.

"I am so sorry!" he apologized, feeling bad. "Are you hurt?" he asked.

"No, of course not, that was absolutely glorious!" Starfire cheered happily, and grinned at Robin, "You surprised me," she said, and grabbed the ball suddenly, and sprinted back up the hill, leaving Robin confused, until he realized what she did, "HEY! STAR, YOU CAN'T DO THAT!" He laughed, and sprinted after the young alien who laughed carelessly and ran with all her might away from Robin.

-End of Flashback-

Starfire wiped her tears away furiously, smudging dirt all over them, and felt her body fill with sorrow once more.

'You ran…

I could not stay!

You backed out…

He was going to kiss her!

You are weak…

I couldn't take more pain…

You cannot escape it, you are in pain now.

I do not want to be.

Does it matter what you want?

…yes, it does.

What do you want?

…To not feel unhappy… and for Robin to be happy.

Why? You still love him?

I can't stop.

Do you want to?

…more than anything.

Why?

Because then I can smile again…

You can still be happy and be in love with him.

How?

You know how. But now you should tell him how you feel, he needs to know.

I can't face him…

Tell him when you're ready.'

Starfire's mind fought on and on, and she felt unhappy and confused. What should she do? If she went back to the party, she would have to face Robin. If she were to stay here, someone would have to look for her. She sighed, feeling depressed and lost. 'What should I do?"

Meanwhile, Raven and Beastboy had left to look for Starfire. "Okay, we know that Starfire likes the roof of the tower, her room, her garden, and the garden in the park," listed Beastboy. "So we can check the roof off the list,"

Both he and Raven had traveled to the tower to see if she was there, and both sat down on the roof, with no luck at finding their teammate.

"I can't find her telepathically," Raven said, her eyes shut tightly, calling Starfire in her mind. 'Starfire! Starfire! Answer me, Star, we need you! This is Raven!' Finally, Raven found a trail of her thoughts.

'What do you want?

…To not feel pain… and for Robin to be happy.

Why? You still love him?

I can't stop.

Do you want to?

…more than anything...'

Raven opened her eyes, he head still ringing with Starfire's battle inside her mind, as though Starfire was talking out loud to Raven.

"Damn!" she snapped, Starfire had blocked her mind from anyone wishing to enter her mind.

"What is it?" asked Beastboy, looking surprised at her sudden cussing.

"Star has her mind blocked, I can't get in, and not only that, I can't find her," explained Raven in frustration.

Beastboy looked at her for a moment, "Did you hear her?" he asked, looking suspicious. He knew almost all her powers and abilities, he knew that she could listen to people's thoughts and sense other's emotions.

Raven gave him a crooked smile, 'He knows me too well,' she thought. "Yeah… I did. She was debating about what she should do, and what she wants."

Beastboy nodded. "Poor Starfire, she's so sweet," He shook his head, "Why did this have to happen to her?"

"I know…" Raven said sadly, "Robin used to love her so much," she frowned. "What happened?"

"He never stopped." Beastboy stated. "He'll always love her, he's only in denial."

Raven looked surprised, "How do you know?"

Beastboy grinned suddenly, "He never stops staring at her, and I haven't caught him once staring boldly at Sandra, and, Raven, you have to admit, there's a lot of Sandra to stare at,"

Raven rolled her eyes, but her mouth formed into a smile. "You observe a lot more than I do," she complimented. "But how could something so horrible happen to Starfire? How can Robin do that to her?"

Beastboy wrapped his arm around Raven, "I don't know how he could, but I'll love you forever," he said, "Don't ever doubt that," and kissed her forehead.

"I could never doubt you," Raven said softly, hugging Beastboy to her.

"How sweet…" came a sarcastic voice from behind them.

Raven and Beastboy whirled around. Raven's face turned pale, a sudden ache in her forehead appeared. Beastboy gasped, "Terra?"

"You know it." Said the blond titan in her uniform and her hair loose.

Raven felt herself grow weaker and weaker, the energy leaving her body, and she fell into Beastboy's arms.

"Raven?" Beastboy gasped, "What is it? Raven?"

"What's wrong? Did she finally realize how hideous she really is?" Terra taunted.

Raven's eyes flickered, and she hugged Beastboy to her tightly, "Whatever you do," she whispered, "Don't die,"

"Really Beastboy, I thought you could do better than that!" Terra scoffed, looking disgustedly at Raven.

"Shut up, Terra!" Beastboy snapped, "I'd choose her over anyone any day!"

"Over me?" asked Terra, pouting.

"In a second." He said, coldly.

Terra looked hurt for a second, "But… she's a demon!" she ranted, "She could kill you, Beastboy!"

Beastboy turned from Raven sharply, "So? She's also a human, Terra! A better human than you could ever be!" he shouted, "So give up Terra. I love Raven, not you and always will." He said; his voice full of venom.

Tears slipped down Terra's cheeks, "I hate you!" she screamed, "What makes you think that I will leave you alone? I HOPE YOU BOTH DIE, YOU ASSHOLE!"

"Get bent, bitch." Beastboy insulted and rolled his eyes, and pressed his hand against Raven's forehead, a look of worry flashing across his face as he felt Raven's face grow cold.

Terra's eyes flashed angrily. "Forget what I said, Beastboy, I'd rather see you die now!" she shrieked, and screamed loudly, summoning all her energy.

Raven's eyes shot open and a look of fear spread across her face as she gazed at behind Beastboy. "Beastboy… she's going to kill us," she whispered.

He turned to see what Raven was looking at and opened his mouth to scream, but no sound came out. Terra stood floating on a rock in the air, and hundreds of small dagger-like rocks hung in the air in front of them. On her face, a creepy smile emerged. "I'll see you and your whore in hell." Terra smirked, and then screamed as she flung all the daggers at Beastboy and Raven, who both sat embracing each other, both frozen in fear.

It all happened so fast, Raven passed out and Beastboy threw his body over her to protect her… suddenly, Terra screamed in pain.

And the rocks stopped in midair, and dropped. Beastboy turned from Raven and gasped in surprise.

Terra fell from her rock, a dagger-like rock wedged into her chest, and several burn marks all over her chest. A figure flew from the rock where Terra had fallen, and dropped to its knees on the ground.

"Starfire?" Beastboy whispered in disbelief.

Meanwhile, Bee and Cyborg had finished off the robot army, and rushed over to Sandra who was kneeled next to Robin. "He was hit on the neck by this really tall guy in a black cloak," she explained, "He's still breathing, but I'm not sure if he's hurt or not!"

"He's temporarily paralyzed." Cyborg said, looking at the bruise on Robin's back neck, "Nothing to worry about. You really could have helped us," he muttered, walking away.

RedX had left immediately after the fight, asking Cyborg to tell Starfire he says 'Hey, hope you're okay', and ran off into the night, jumping from building to building, disappearing into the darkness.

Bee shook her head at Sandra, and followed Cyborg, limping slightly. "Hey, I'm going to head back to Titans East, that okay?" she called, starting to fly away.

"I ain't blind, I saw you limping, you aren't going no where until I check that ankle out," ordered Cyborg, feeling guilty for her injury.

Bee smiled for a brief moment, then forced a frown, "Don't you be ordering me around!" she snapped, but still blushed brightly, and helped him carry Robin to the T-car. Sandra sulked from behind but nonetheless boarded the T-car as well.

Beastboy stared at Starfire and then glanced at Terra's fallen corpse. "D-did… you just… kill her?"

"I am so sorry, friend Beastboy," sobbed Starfire, burying her face into her hands, "I'm sorry for killing friend Terra, I didn't mean to,"

Raven stirred suddenly, and her eyes shot open. "Beastboy!" she called as she shot up, and winced in pain as she clutched her head.

"Raven, you're okay?" Beastboy exclaimed and hugged her.

Raven looked around and gasped at Starfire. "Where have you been?" she asked, then gazed at the sharply pointed rocks, "How did we survive?" she asked.

Starfire sobbed harder and shut her eyes tightly, shaking her head.

"What happened?" Raven asked and Beastboy looked slightly upset, "Starfire saved us…" he explained, "But she had to kill Terra in the process."

Raven's eyes widened and she looked behind Beastboy and saw Terra's corpse and gasped. "She's dead?" she whispered. "Starfire killed her?"

"I am so sorry… I really, really am!" Starfire murmured, tears dripping down her face and neck.

Raven shook her head, and crawled over to Starfire and draped her arms over Starfire. "Would we have died if you hadn't?" Raven asked.

Starfire shook her head and Raven's chest filled with pain. "Beastboy would of," Starfire explained, "Not you." She said.

Raven's mouth dropped in surprise, "Beastboy would have died?" she cried, "How!" she asked.

"He covered you with his body," Starfire explained, "I cannot be a titan anymore, can I…" Starfire asked.

Raven's whole body filled with relief and happiness, "So you saved Beastboy?" she asked.

"But killed Terra." Starfire whispered looking in fear at Terra's dead body.

Raven suddenly threw her arms around Starfire in a death grip, and burst into tears (melting most of the exercise equipment…). "Thank you so much," she cried. (A/N: OOC, Raven, I know, but Starfire just saved Beastboy, Rae's going to be thankful, I think!)

Beastboy stood by Starfire, smiling. "You saved us Starfire, we'll never let you leave the titans," he reassured.

Starfire looked at her friends and felt relieved. 'I can stay' she thought, 'They don't hate me,'

Robin woke as the T-car drove into the Titan Tower garage. "What happened?" he asked groggily.

"You were knocked out," explained Cyborg, and Sandra rubbed Robin's neck affectionately. "Does your neck hurt?" she cooed.

"Wait," Robin asked, shaking Sandra off him, who stalked out of the room in annoyance, "Did the villain get away?" he asked.

"Yeah, sorry, we had barely been able to defeat the robots," Cyborg said, "Sorry man. But no one was killed and we found out that the guy's name is Eusiris,"

"Thanks Cyborg," Robin said, and hurried to go and find information on their new villain, but was stopped when a high pitched scream filled the air.

"Sandra!" Robin looked up in alarm and followed Bee and Cyborg up to the roof and gasped in horror.

There was Raven and Starfire looking at Sandra in alarm, and Beastboy standing next to Raven, looking uneasily at Sandra and the other Titans. Behind them, Terra lay on the ground, blood seeping around her body and no emotion could be found on her pale face.

"Is she… dead?" Cyborg stuttered, looking shocked and Bee flew over to Terra, and checked for a pulse.

"WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER?" shrieked Sandra, tears pouring down her face.

"…She's dead." Bee said quietly, and Sandra fell to her knees crying loudly and uncontrollably. Robin walked over to Beastboy, Raven, and Starfire, his face tense and full of rage.

"What happened?" he asked, his voice quiet and furious.

Rose: Done, I'm so happy! This might be the last update of my spring break, sorry. (MIGHT!)

-REVIEWS-

Stargirl1066lkl- I'm glad you liked the bb/Rae scene; it was so fun to write! Not worry about Terra's evilness… uh… no? I'm a little too late to warn you, hehe… sorry. The voice in Starfire's head was indeed herself, are you talking about how she was trying to preoccupy her mind with something happy? She was trying to focus on something she likes, instead of watching Sandra and Robin be all romantic-like. Sorry I confused you, hopefully this makes sense!

Kingcakeluva- I like your penname. It's fun to type, anyhoo! Despise is a very fun word, I use it ALL the time. You hate Robin's guts? Cool! I actually don't mind him that much (in the show, he's just a loser in my story), I just hate Terra really. Robin in the actual show is sort of cool, especially in episodes like Apprentice! Hope you like this chapter!

FallingDarkAngel- Hey Charm! Don't you worry about bb/star; I was only telling molly how I sort of liked it. (NOT CHANGING ANY PAIRINGS. BB/RAE IS BETTER) Squirrels… (twitch) I hate the little rodents… (long story, just trust me when I say, I DESPISE ALL SQUIRELLS.) But yours still sound cool! No more snow… (sobs) I miss it! CURSE THE SUN! (attempts to flick a rubber band at the sun, fails.) Drat! I love snow, and winter is my all time favorite season. (Glares at spring months) I hate spring. Thank you for putting Molly and me in your story! You are my favorite internet stranger-friend! YOU'VE REVIEWED 20 TIMES! MY LORD! (sends you 20 chocolate buckeyes, yum… peanut butter…) Nine hours? Did I make it? Hope so! I cannot believe you reviewed 20 times! SO COOL! Luv ya, I hope you enjoyed this chapter! (PS: Look at PinkFlamingo44's recent review, it mentions you!)

Gladdecease- I'm glad you liked the second quote! Raven thinking of Malchior? I didn't think of that, but your theory really makes sense, I guess what I was going for is a little confusing. Raven just doesn't want to end up unhappy and rejected like Starfire. Chuck? Lol, I didn't know who you were talking about for the longest time… Charlie didn't follow Starfire, he sort of just stood by her, trying to tell her how to handle the situation and glaring at Robin. When she ran out, he followed her, and continued to glare at Robin, then left to help Cyborg and Bumblebee in the villain. So sorry for your confusion!

Metalligoth- Well, there's Terra's reaction for you! You didn't waste my time; I was interested in reading it. Beavis and Butthead are such a waste of time. (Death to Robot Chicken, super heroes rock) Anyways, hope you liked this chapter!

XxJeterxX- Yeah, Robin is such a loser. Your review made me smile; I hope you enjoyed this chapter!

Starrob- I'm glad you like my story and I hope you like this chapter! Thanks for the review!

FreedomDreamer- well, I updated! And I hope everything is to your satisfaction! Thanks for your review; I love how you described your suspense!

PinkFlamingo44- HAHA! It hits Sandra? HURRA FOR BAD AIM! (hears another brick, aim for Sandra, maybe it will hit Robin! lol, not making fun of you, promise!) You shoved the kid in a locker? That is so mean, you should be ashamed!

Molly: Rose, what are you talking about? You shoved that puny sixth grader in the locker just toda-

Rose: SHH! SHUT IT! (looks sheepish) err… good job! (Lol, yay for shoving kids in lockers!) Thanks for reviewing!

YokoShippo- I'm so sorry, I feel bad… let me see… I know! (hands you a brick) Here is a brick! Now, chuck it very hard at anything remotely similar to Robin! (like green spandex…) Hope you like this chapter!

Angelde1- WELCOME TO FANFICTION! I was your first story? I feel so special! Hope you enjoy fanfiction, newcomer! I also hope you enjoy this chapter!

Celebwen-quicksilver- You really don't read story's that are really short? Those chapters annoy me so much! Oh well, at least someone reads them! I'm glad you like mine! I know what you mean, most evil OC characters make the story so much more dramatic! I'm glad you enjoyed the lyrics! (I always wonder if people actually read those…) Hope you liked this chapter! Thank you for reviewing!

GuitarChix13- Was it really a good update? Thank you! I'm glad you like my story, hope you enjoyed this new chapter! Yay, a fellow rae/bb lover! Thanks for reviewing!

CRiTiC123- Hi again! Lol, don't you think prick is a fun word? Anyways, Robin is still being a loser… but he insulted Terra and annoyed Sandra in this chapter! HE IS IMPROVING! But still, nonetheless, a complete loser. (sigh) The temptation is so great… I fell to temptation and killed Terra. I failed. Oh well! It fit with the story really well! Thanks for the review!

D-I-WaRrIa- Hey, I missed you! I'm so glad you like my story! You haven't reviewed for a while!(Wait, I didn't respond to your last review? Are you sure? I am so sorry!) Did you get my review answering the question about the bb/star thing and about me being featured in your new story? It's in my favorite story of yours (I wonder which..) … the one you have not updated yet… (twitch). Lol, I'm sure you have a reason for not updating! Can't wait for it! In case you have not gotten my review answering your questions, here you go! 1.) Thank you so much, I am very happy that you offered! Can I be a close friend of you? That sounds so fun! (Do I need a description? Please tell me if I do, or you can just make it up, I don't care!) 2.) Not only did I read a couple of good stories on it, but I am trying to understand why some people might be a shipper of that pairing. I guess it really does make sense, because they are so alike, they are both so happy and so carefree. I think they would have some sort of relationship, whether some people might think it is a bro/sis relationship or a romance thing, I just sort of think it's interesting, a nice change of the usual stuff I read. Sorry for your confusion and I apologize for not answering your last review, I had no idea! Love ya, and I hope you enjoy this chapter! I really appreciate your reviews:)

Always Impatient- Lol, I should of so put you in my mob! Glad you like the bb/Rae fluff! I updated, and I hope you like this chapter!

Disappear/syani- Raven went into liar mode? What? Are you talking about the bb/rae moment? To answer your question, NO, she did NOT go into liar mode… if that's what you meant… sorry I didn't read your story, and I did not mean to offend you, I just really wanted to get what I wrote off my chest, that's all! Still humor in the story? COMIC RELIEF. And I don't really mean to, it just kinda… appears. Sorry it bothers you, and also sorry for killing Terra, I know you don't hate her… it just fits with the story!

StarfireLover- Sorry for no RedX/Star kiss, but Robin DID feel sort of jealous. (Jealousy is so fun!) Sorry that I made you hate Robin, but I hope you still enjoy my story! Thanks for reviewing!

Sticks-and-stones123- (looks uneasy at the angry mob) uh… right, um… can you tell them to leave? They occasionally throw things… and they have really unnaturally good aim... (Rubs head) Terra, Sandra, and also Robin are indeed bitches. (Although, Robin's usually cool) Terra has died! Hope you enjoyed that! Yeah… when you get a bunch of people screaming at you to update, it usually tells you that they aren't requesting… but that's just me… Thanks for your review!

I am done! Farewell my lovely reviewers! I love you all and send you plastic red cars! (Why? Why not!)

This might be my last update of my 'updating spree', I MIGHT fit another in sometime later, but I don't feel too well…

I'll end this with another quote, because quotes are fun.

'Frodo LIVES!' –Graffiti quote. (What it means? –yawn- too tired to think about it...)

And…

'A friend will bail you out of jail… but a BEST friend will be sitting right next to you sayin', "That… was… AWESOME!"'

And another…

'The greatest things in life can't be seen. That's why we close our eyes when we cry, kiss, and dream.' (Aww, very cute, EB)

Review or suffer my wrath towards Buckle Down workbooks… (tosses Buckle Down into fire and laughs insainly)