I Can Stop the Pain
By Rose
Disclaimer: Have you ever just wanted to own something of your own? Well I do! I own my story, but not the teen titans. I own my CD's and I even own this chocolate bar I am devouring. Yes, my life is fulfilled. (Okay, that MUST be the chocolate talking... mmm, chocolate…)
MOLLY AND TJ READ THIS:
To TJ: Molly hates you, you know that?
To Molly: TJ laughs at you, I'm sure you know that.
To BOTH of you: Stop fighting, it is pointless and rather annoying. Molly, don't talk to me about this, you know how much I get sick of your complaining, and TJ, she had a VERY good comeback, be happy I didn't send it. –Pushes both of you together- NOW MAKE UP! If you need me, I'll be in my 'special' place. (Locks door behind me)
Chapter Ten: The Pain Will Never Stop
-Last Chapter-
"…She's dead." Bee said quietly, and Sandra fell to her knees crying loudly and uncontrollably. Robin walked over to Beastboy, Raven, and Starfire, his face tense and full of rage.
"What happened?" he asked, his voice quiet and furious.
…
Starfire shuffled her feet uncomfortably, and felt her eyes well up with tears for the umpteenth time this night. 'How can I tell him? I will surely be kicked off the team! But if I didn't, Terra would of killed Beastboy, and then probably Raven… yes, I have no regrets, I would of never let that happen… oh Robin, please forgive me…'
Raven and Beastboy shot each other looks of fear, both wishing they were somewhere else right now.
Robin closed his eyes and attempted to concentrate on what to do over the noise of Sandra's wailing, Bee and Cyborg's voices trying to calm her down, and the unbearable silence of the three other three titans. "Cyborg, Bee, take Sandra inside, I need to talk to these three." He said sharply, and Cyborg and Bee took Sandra gently inside, both glancing often at Starfire, Raven, and Beastboy in confusion.
As soon as they left, Robin walked over to Terra and examined her body closely. He looked at the rock stabbed into her chest and carefully took it out, and then he looked closely at the burns on her chest and closed his eyes tightly, as though trying to understand everything that had happened from when he walked onto the roof. 'I am the leader of this team, I am responsible for everything… but these burns and stabs don't lie, Terra was murdered,'
"Starfire, would you come here, please?" he called.
Starfire silently floated towards him and tried to look confident. "Yes Robin?" she asked, avoiding his gaze.
"Tell me everything."
"Pardon? I do not think I understand." Stammered Starfire, looking at Raven in terror. 'Friend Raven, what do I do?' she asked frantically in her head.
'Tell the truth, Starfire. Tell him what happened, I think we all deserve to know,' answered Raven telepathically, also unaware of exactly how Starfire killed Terra and how she came.
Starfire looked at Robin in worry, "May I ask… why me?" she whispered.
"Because I want you to tell me," he ordered, not looking the least bit sympathetic towards her.
"Very well," Starfire sighed, he body trembling in anxiety. "I was traveling to the tower after I left," she began, but was interrupted.
"Did you make any stops?" asked Robin, studying her face incase she was lying.
Starfire looked at him and nodded her head, "At the park, to clear my head." She said, lowering her gaze and staring at her feet.
"Go on." He said. 'But why did you leave, Star?'
"After I cleared my head, I traveled back to titans tower, but stopped because I heard voices." She explained.
"Who's?" asked Robin.
"Friend Raven and Beastboy's," she told, "They were… um…" Starfire trailed off, looking at Raven and Beastboy who nodded in permission. "They had earlier confessed their love to one another, and were talking about personal things," she explained. "And about me and you," she said, feeling her cheeks warm.
"About us? What about us?" Robin asked, shooting annoyed glances at both Raven and Beastboy.
"Nothing really, it is beside the point," Raven defended, feeling awkward.
"Whatever, continue." Robin ordered.
Starfire nodded and kept going, "I decided it was not my place to stay, and so I floated down away from them, but saw Terra flying up. I have observed her feelings for friend Beastboy lately, I felt as though she would not want to see Raven and Beastboy together, so I tried to call her, but I was too late." Starfire's voice shook in nervousness as she approached Terra's death.
Robin noticed her anxiety and nodded. "Keep going Starfire, why did you stop?" he asked.
Starfire closed her eyes to not look at him and continued. 'I can do this… He doesn't know yet, I am safe…' she told herself. "Terra was very upset at learning that Beastboy had confessed his love to Raven and not her, and was shouting many insults at Raven. Beastboy got angry and defended friend Raven, who meanwhile seemed to be sick, and couldn't stand up very well." Starfire explained.
"Why is that, Raven?" asked Robin in confusion.
"…I sort of predicted what happened, I had seen this before in my mind," she explained, "I panicked and my body started collapsing under my fear, I cannot express this sort of fear," she said. "I was scared Beastboy was going to die…" she whispered, "I knew something bad would happen, so I freaked out, and my body responded to my panic in some sort of energy drain," she explained, and felt Beastboy wrap his arms around her for comfort.
"So that's why you told me to not die?" asked Beastboy.
"Yeah… I knew something was going to happen, I didn't want you to get hurt," Raven said. Robin nodded slowly and looked at Starfire.
Starfire gave Raven a kind look and then continued, "Friend Raven collapsed and Terra continued in taunting her. Beastboy grew angry and shouted cruel things at Terra, who threatened to kill them. Beastboy replied with an insult and Terra shouted that she would kill them. I watched from below the roof, floating in mid air, and saw Terra summon a small rock and fly to the ground." Starfire's voice faltered, but she continued nonetheless.
"I was about to go and comfort her," she slightly lied, "But I saw her summon a very huge rock, nearly three times the size of the T-car!" Starfire explained, "She parted the rock into many sharp knife-like objects and floated up to the tower."
Robin's eyes widened, "She was going to kill Raven and Beastboy?" he gasped.
Starfire nodded sadly, "I saw her throw a final insult at Beastboy and Raven," she said, but was interrupted.
"Do you remember what she said?" asked Robin, practically hanging on her every word.
"Yes, she said… I'll see… 'I'll see you and your whore in hell'," Starfire answered shyly. "Then she screamed and hurled all of the daggers at Raven and Beastboy, and Beastboy threw himself over Raven to protect her," Starfire said, and Robin almost smiled at BB.
Raven squeezed Beastboy's hands gratefully and made a mental note to thank Starfire a million times before the day was over.
"I wanted to save Raven and Beastboy… so I picked up one of the rocks nearest to me and threw Starbolts at her and grabbed her and slammed her to the ground. She screamed, and the rocks hung in mid air, then I stabbed her with the rock and they all fell…" Starfire finished, flinching at the word, 'stabbed'. She looked up at Robin in worry, "I really… do not regret what I did, I would never let anything happen to Raven or Beastboy, they are the closest people to me…" she whispered, looking away from Robin.
"You did what you had to do… but you killed a titan, Starfire." Robin said unhappily, "You said that when you slammed her to the ground, the rocks hung in midair, right?" he questioned. "So they wouldn't have hit Beastboy and Raven, right?"
Starfire's eyes shot open and tears slipped down her face, she nodded slowly.
Raven looked at Beastboy in alarm, who stood rigid and glared at Robin, "Robin, don't…" he said. "She was in hysterics, she would never intentionally hurt someone, and you know that!" he defended.
"But she killed Terra for no reason." Robin said, coldly.
"Saving our lives is no reason?" Raven asked, glaring daggers into Robin. "If you kick Starfire out, then I want out too." She growled.
"Same here." Beastboy added, "You take Star, you take us too!"
"Us too!" shouted Bee and Cyborg, who fell through the door, their ears pressed against the door on the ground.
"CYBORG! BEE!" yelled Robin.
Starfire almost looked happily at her friends and felt her fear melt away. "Must I leave?" she asked quietly.
Robin rubbed his eyes in slight annoyance. "…No, of course not." He answered, shaking his head. "I can't have my whole team leave if you do, so no!" he said, almost venomously, and glaring slightly at Bee, Cyborg, Raven, and Beastboy.
Beastboy gawked at him, and Starfire looked hurt. Cyborg glared at Robin, and Bee rolled her eyes. Raven stared at him in anger, "You are impossible." She snapped, and walked away, Beastboy and Starfire following her downstairs, leaving Robin confused.
"What did she mean by that?" he wondered out loud.
Bee and Cyborg exchanged a look of annoyance. "Think about it, you should be able to figure it out, you are the 'boy wonder'." Bee smirked, "Anyways, I have to go, Titans East is probably in ruins by now." She shook her head and rolled her eyes.
Cyborg smiled, "Thanks for coming with me Bee, I'll see you sometime later, right?" he asked.
Bee replied by smiling and kissed him on the cheek. "Sure… why not?" she answered, winking at him and flew off towards Titan East, blushing and giggling once she was out of hearing range.
Cyborg (completely forgetting that Robin was there) touched his cheek lightly and smiled. Robin made a sudden loud, "EHEM.", from behind him, making Cyborg jump.
"Cyborg, you dawg." Robin laughed.
Cyborg couldn't stop grinning, "Whatever man, think what you want."
"Is that why you're still grinning like a doofus?" asked Robin, his eyebrows raised.
Cyborg tried to frown, but immediately smiled again. "Shut it." He ordered, and Robin shook his head, chuckling. "Awe, do we have a romance forming?"
Cyborg walked away, immediately pounced on by Beastboy who had seen the whole thing as a butterfly. "YOU'RE IN LOVE!" he shouted, "HAHA!"
Robin rolled his eyes, "So are you, moron. Remember Raven?"
Beastboy's mouth formed into a smile, "Yeah, you should try it sometime Robin."
Cyborg shook his head, "No, he was, remember?" he said, his tone not sounding fun anymore.
Robin looked confused, "Huh? I was in love, how do you know?" he asked, bewildered.
Beastboy's mouth hung open and Cyborg stared in slight annoyance, "…Remember a certain alien?" he asked.
"Yeah! Starfire, remember?" Beastboy reminded.
Robin's face turned bright red, "WHAT? ARE YOU INSANE?" he yelled. "No, I have never been in love with Starfire, she's a team mate! Nothing more." He defended, "What gave you that idea?" he laughed, but to his surprise, Beastboy narrowed his eyes and Cyborg gave him a look of pure hatred.
"That is not cool man; don't play with the girl's feelings." Cyborg growled.
Robin's eyes widened. "I'm not playing with Starfire's feelings! I have never felt that way about her!"
"It's obvious Robin, you used to worship her!" Beastboy laughed bitterly. "Don't deny it; you two were definitely in love!"
"We were not! I wouldn't fall in love with her." Robin snapped.
Beastboy rolled his eyes, "Yeah you would, and you did! And don't say you didn't, because whatever you were doing, she fell for you. Hard. If you really don't love her, than stop acting like you do, you are giving her wrong messages,"
"What messages? What the hell are you talking about?"
Suddenly, Cyborg exploded and yelled, "Hey Robin, remember when you called her Star? When you and she used to have Sunday movie night, and you would always let her pick the movie, even though it was always some stupid chick flick? Remember when you always took her side, even if she was wrong? Remember when you and she used to sit on the roof together every night? Remember when you went shopping with her since she was upset that Raven wouldn't join her? Remember how you used to look at her like she was the most beautiful and perfect thing you had ever seen? THAT'S LOVE, ROBIN!" yelled Cyborg, grabbing Terra's limp, dead corpse and walked away angrily.
Robin's mouth hung open slightly, and he gawked at Cyborg. 'Whoa… did I used to do that?'
Beastboy stayed behind for a while, standing quietly. Then all of a sudden, he spoke quietly. "Robin, you remember when I had that crush on Terra?" he asked.
Robin nodded, looking at the changeling in sadness. "Yeah… what happened?" he asked.
Beastboy sighed, "I never loved her, and when she came back from Slade, I thought we would be together, I really did. But Robin, she changed, dude. She really did, she wasn't the person I once knew. I thought I loved her, but it wasn't her I loved. I doubt I even loved her before that, I think I only had some stupid crush. And then, I noticed Raven… she is so different, so beautiful, so mysterious, I couldn't help but fall for her." He confessed.
Robin nodded, "Why are you telling me this?" he asked.
Beastboy looked deep into Robin's eyes, "Because you love Starfire, you just think you like Sandra. Don't do that Robin, I am so lucky to have Raven, don't loose Star. You've hurt her enough, don't do anything cruel." Beastboy turned and walked away, leaving Robin confused.
"When have I hurt her?" Robin asked, bewildered. "I'm not the one who killed a titan!"
Beastboy took a deep breath. "You really want to know? You hurt her when you rejected her to go to the dance. You hurt her more when you lied to her, and went with Sandra. You hurt her when you yelled at her without listening to her first, like you always did. You hurt her when you allowed Sandra to take over you, and you hurt her when you didn't defend her when she needed to be defended. Robin, I hate to say it, but you acted like a real asshole to her. She deserves more than that! You will meet a girl like Sandra almost anywhere, but Starfire? Give me another person like her and I'll be seriously impressed. You don't meet a girl like her everyday, Robin. I know you used to love her, so what happened?"
Robin watched Beastboy walk away, and looked away in shame. 'He was right, of couse he's right!'
"But what if she doesn't love me back?" Robin asked suddenly, surprising himself, "What then?"
Beastboy stopped walking, and without turning said, "Then feel the pain of rejection Robin. I'm sure it hurts, why not ask Starfire, I'm sure she can give you a detailed description." He snapped.
Robin shut his eyes tightly and walked to his room and lied down on his bed in confusion and sorrow. Suddenly, there was a knock at his door.
"…Yeah?" he called, not bothering to open the door.
He heard sniffling on the other side, "R-robin?" called Sandra, "Can I come in? Please?"
Robin sighed, "Yeah, sure, come on in."
Sandra burst through the door and flew into his arms. "Robin, she's dead, I can't believe she's…." she sobbed into his chest, "How could this happen? She was my best friend!"
Robin nodded, "its okay, Sandra. Shhh, it's alright, I'm here…"
Sandra continued to sob into his arms, soaking his tuxedo, but he didn't mind. 'Terra was her best friend…
Terra tried to kill everyone…
Do I want to be with Sandra?
She is moving towards me…
Towards my lips…
Yes or no, Robin…
What do you want?'
Sandra closed her eyes and pressed her lips gently onto Robin's. As time passed, the kiss got more heated and passionate. Sandra gasped for breath, then immediately went back to kissing.
Starfire watched the whole thing from behind Robin's cracked open door. Despite her attempts to be strong, the tears found a way to fall down her cheeks. Sobs awaited impatiently in the back of her throat, choking her as they longed to be set free.
Starfire held them in, and looked at Robin, who had not noticed her standing there. 'Is his what you want?' she wondered, and flew away releasing the sobs as soon as she was out of hearing range.
Robin's eyes widened as memories flashed through his mind.
'Get you hands off my boy!'
'You're getting married?'
'Robin, you are my best friend…'
'Starfire!'
'Robin!'
'So.. Nightwing?'
'You're...hurting me...'
'We'll all be friends forever, I promise'
'Forever?'
(A/N: Episodes where I got the lines from are: A Date With Destiny, Betrothed, Apprentice Part Two, Aftershock Part One, my all time favorite, Haunted, How Long is Forever, Haunted again, and How Long is Forever again.)
Robin jerked away from Sandra suddenly. "I can't do this." He said.
Sandra pouted, "Why? Didn't you like it?"
Robin got off his bed and walked towards the door. "I can't do this," he repeated.
Sandra looked hurt, then angry. "It's that Starfire bitch isn't it?" she growled.
Robin's eyes flashed angrily, "She is the only person out of this entire team who has probably never been a bitch in her life! You don't know what you're talking about; you don't know what she's been through!"
On the other side of the door, Beastboy and Cyborg grinned as they pressed their ears harder against the door, and Raven decided to not fully despise Robin as she also had her ears slammed against the door.
Sandra rolled her eyes, "What, did her dog die or something? Remember how your parents died Robin? Remember mine?" she screeched. (A/N: From what I have heard, Supergirl is an actual hero… so I don't own her! And, I have no idea what her past was like. Work with me here, people!)
"Shut up! No, her dog did not die! She never had a dog! And Sandra, don't brag about your parents death!" He shouted, earning more and more respect back from his team mates.
"THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH, WHAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH, ROBIN!" Sandra screamed, "You are the only one who understands me!"
Robin shook his head. "My friends have gone through so much more than you. It's not a competition. And if it is, I don't want to be a part of it."
Sandra collapsed on the bed; tears welled up in her eyes. "But she killed Terra, Robin…"
"Yeah, right before Terra was about to kill both Beastboy and Raven." He growled.
"So Starfire stopped Terra?" Sandra asked. 'Pity…'
"Yes, she did."
"But she's not still on the team, right?" Sandra asked, looking hopeful.
"Of course she still is!"
"WHAT?"
Raven, Beastboy, and Cyborg walked away, all feeling a little nicer towards Robin. They all traded glances of amusement with each other, as Sandra ranted about how Robin was making a huge mistake, very loudly. "Anyone feel like pizza? My treat!" Beastboy offered.
Raven smiled at him but shook her head, "No, I need to meditate." She gave him a kiss on the cheek then walked away. Surprisingly, nothing melted or burst into a thousand pieces.
Cyborg rolled his eye, and nodded. "I'm thinking a major chow down at the pizza place, then an extreme video game tournament at the arcade! You in?" he asked Beastboy.
"Heck yes I am!" Beastboy grinned; "Last one to the T-car buys the winner ice cream!" he called, as he burst into sprint towards the garage.
"YOU'RE ON!" Cyborg yelled and raced after him.
3 Hours Later...
Starfire sat in wonder as Raven mixed many liquids and powders, all unlabeled, in a large black cauldron. The scent of lavender and burning wood filled the air and Raven closed her eyes chanting words from a long ancient scroll.
"Please, Raven, what is it that you are preparing?" Starfire interrupted breathing the fumes deeply.
"Something that will help our minds open up when we meditate," Raven answered, "And it's ready, are you going to try it with me?" she asked, pouring the slightly syrupy dark blue liquid into carved stone goblets.
"Yes." Starfire said, without much enthusiasm, but Raven didn't seem to notice.
Starfire grabbed the nearest goblet and both her and Raven clunked their glasses together. 'Good health to you, my friend.' Starfire said, using her ancient traditional saying, and Raven smiled and replied, 'May you walk freely under the stars this night' also an old saying, often used on Azerath. Both girls smiled and sipped their drinks deeply and closed their eyes happily, allowing the taste of hazelnut and rosemary flood through their mouth and throughout their bodies.
Raven sat her goblet down and quickly chanted, "Azerath, Metrion, Zinthos… Azerath Metrion Zinthos…" she continued, and Starfire mimicked her instantly.
After a few minutes of meditating, Raven's eyes opened. Starfire had fallen asleep after staying up all night, and drinking the body soothing and body relaxing potion. Raven shook her head, 'Guess I should of warned her…' She attempted to meditate again, but finally gave up since her focus seemed somewhere else. She took out her book and began to read for a few minutes, then stopped and suddenly looked at Starfire.
'I wonder what she's dreaming about…' Raven thought, and then shook her head. Curiosity never turned out well for her. 'Then again…'
Raven's curiosity took over and she grabbed Starfire's hand and whispered an old pray, supposedly allowing you to see into another's dream, "Algatheire, Aldrenon, Regronime, Jepesath…" (A/N: Thanks for those, TJ!)
Raven felt her body thrust back suddenly, and closed her mouth so she wouldn't scream. She was immediately surrounded by swirls of yellow, red, and white fog and smoke, making her unable to see. The smell of dirt, grass, and roses filled the air and Raven slowly opened her eyes.
The fog slowly cleared the air and Raven looked around. She found herself on some sort of desert, the sky heavy with dark stormy clouds and thorns tangled at the ground, waiting to snatch at anything that moved in its path. The air was thick and freezing, and Raven shivered. "Okay… um, not what I imagined Starfire to dream about," she said to herself out loud.
Suddenly she yelped in pain and grabbed her ankle. A large branch of thorns had found its way to her ankle and firmly strapped itself stubbornly on her. "Wretched thorns!" cursed Raven and tried to undo the branch, but remained unsuccessful. "Shit!" she swore.
All of a sudden, Raven saw a figure walking towards her and she almost smiled. "Starfire!" she called, and indeed, Starfire floated towards her. She gently undid the thorns from Raven's ankle and the branch slowly turned a pleasant shade of green and red roses burst from the thorns. Starfire took Raven's hand and helped her up. "Hello friend, why have you entered my realm of misery?" she asked, not showing any signs of emotion besides confusion.
"Star?" she asked, "What is this place?" she asked.
Starfire shook her head, "I do not know how you got here, but I think it would be best if you were to leave," she said.
Raven nodded, "Sorry for intruding, but Sta- watch out!" Raven suddenly screamed and grabbed Starfire's arm and pulled her down, just before a spear was thrown in their direction. Starfire's eyes blazed with anger and asked Raven, "Did she hurt you?"
Raven shook her head, "Who was that?" she asked.
Starfire didn't answer, but picked up the spear and walked away from Raven. Raven followed Starfire slowly. Through a sudden mist saw Sandra walk towards them, smirking.
"Why hello, Starfire." She spat.
"Sandra," Starfire whispered venomously.
"Freak." Insulted Sandra.
It was Starfire's time to smirk, "In the words of Raven and Cyborg, you bitch."
Sandra's eyes widened in anger, "You are going to pay for killing Terra!" she screeched.
"That gnorzelb got what she deserved," Starfire snapped. (A/N: whoa, OOC Starfire!)
Raven nearly fainted from surprise. This was no dream; this was some sort of telepathic vision between Starfire and Sandra. Whether or not it was real, Sandra and Starfire were really talking to each other, and from the way Sandra threw that spear, it seemed as though they were ready to kill each other!
Sandra glared coldly at Starfire, "Don't take your jealousy out on my friends, take it out on me."
"Jealousy?" Starfire asked.
"Of Robin. Don't deny it, you know he loves me, there is absolutely nothing you can do." Sandra sneered, but lied.
Starfire shook her head, "He once loved me, and I know he did!"
"Yeah: Once!" Sandra yelled. "Get over it! He has always loved me, and you were just a rebound slut! Honestly, you are so dumb! Did you really not see that?"
Starfire looked at Sandra, he eyes burning with so much hatred that even Raven stepped back. Her mouth dropped to a dark tone and she whispered, "I will kill you…"
Sandra grabbed a spear from off the ground. "Bring it!" she snapped.
Starfire let out a shriek of rage and burst into a run, her eyes set on Sandra and breaking into a sprint as she grew closer and closer. Sandra's eyes glared back at Starfire and she broke into a sprint, gaining speed with each step.
Raven stared in horror at the scene and tried to stop them, but couldn't feel her legs or couldn't speak. All she could do was watch.
Suddenly Starfire stopped in mid sprint, her face full of horror and surprise. 'What am I doing?' she asked herself. 'Was I really going to kill her… I am nothing but a cruel murderer… I am exactly like my enemies, I am no Tamaran… I don't deserve what I want…'
Sandra kept running but Star held up her hand to stop her. Sandra stopped running and smirked, "Scared?" she taunted.
Starfire shook her head and walked up to Sandra. "I don't want to fight anymore, I am so sorry for yelling at you…" she whispered. "I want to be happy…" she said, "But I want Robin to be happy more."
Starfire dropped to her knees and tears poured down her face, but her voice remained strong. "If he truly loves you, then please take him, I want him to be happy."
Sandra looked confused, "You… want me to have him? But don't you love him?" she asked.
Starfire nodded, "Exactly, please make him happy." She said.
Raven nearly burst into tears, 'how can Starfire give up like this' she asked herself.
Sandra looked shocked, then almost sympathetic and then closed her eyes. Raven knew what was happening, the vision was ending and Starfire would go back to sleep. Raven looked sadly at her friend, who was still on her knees, tears pouring down her face, but smiling.
Suddenly, Sandra's body shimmered, and Robin appeared in her place. Starfire opened her eyes and walked towards him, embracing him gently at whispered into his ear, "Please, be happy… let my pain go away…"
With no expression on his face, but triumph, he picked up the spear Sandra had and thrust it into Starfire's heart and smiled. Starfire screamed in pain and fell to the ground, and Raven cried out in horror.
Starfire's eyes widened with pain, and her body shook and twitched violently on the ground. Robin, still smiling, kneeled over so his face was directly above hers and whispered, "…The pain will never stop, Star…And I will never love you…" The he yanked the spear out of her, then drove it into the other side of her chest and twisted it inside her.
Screams of pain and terror echoed in Raven's mind and tears poured down her face. She slammed her hands over her ears and screamed, "AZERATH, METRION, ZINTHOS!" and felt herself being pulled back into the real world. She leaped out of bed and glanced at the clock. It was around 4:30 PM, and she and Starfire had been asleep for nearly the whole day. She was also still in her ripped dress, and Starfire was still in her gown.
Raven felt anger burn inside her, and heard Starfire's screams of pain echoed inside her head. She fell down to the floor and sat down, sobbing. 'HOW COULD I LET THIS HAPPEN!' she thought angrily. 'This might as well be my entire fault!'
Raven looked miserably and Starfire who still lay on her bed sleeping. Raven suddenly thought of an idea. 'I can help her!' she thought, and took Starfire's hand and squeezed it. 'Starfire, let me feel how you feel. Let me see inside you…' she called inside her mind. Starfire sat still, and Raven felt them loose contact with each other. She sighed sadly, and moved her hand away, but in an instant, Starfire's hand thrust out and yanked on her arm, grabbing it in a death grip.
Raven gasped in shock, and memories and voices flooded into her…
Blackfire's voice rang out loudly, "YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A STUPID GIRL, THIS IS YOUR ENTIRE FAULT, YOU WENCH! I HATE YOU!"
A handsome, smirking young man laughed at Starfire, who looked betrayed and hurt. "You still don't get it do you?" His hand yanked back and he slapped her sharply, "I. DON'T. LOVE. YOU. I LIED, YOU. STUPID. WHORE!"
A young Starfire, only about thirteen years old, was running down a long stone hallway, screaming for help. A tall man with red hair and dark green eyes grabbed her and sprinted away from hallway, just as it blew up. He put her down and kissed her on the head, "Kori, run. Meet your sister by the Zantigone River, you can escape."
"But what about mommy and daddy? Why did that man take them away?" Starfire asked, tears spilling down her face.
"Shhh, run!" Shouted the man, and Starfire sprinted away as fast as her legs could carry her.
She turned back and screamed as a creature came up behind the man (her brother) and yanked a rope around his neck and dragged him away, as he gagged and kicked his legs to break free. He looked at Starfire, who started to run after him but shook his head, mouthing 'Go'. Starfire turned and ran, but heard a sword drive into her brother's back and heard him scream in pain…
An older Starfire was working in a vast factory, hauling crates and boxes to another room. Her clothes were stained and torn to pieces, and she had various cuts and bruises all over her body. She was a slave.
Robin reached out his hand and smiled warmly, "Hi, I'm Robin. Are you alright? You sort of fell you of the sky…" The titans stood behind him, looking bewildered.
Sandra and Robin kissed feverishly and Starfire floated away, tears slipped down her face…
Raven's old vision, Starfire walking towards the edge of the roof and spreading out her arms, and fell forward towards the rocks… closer and closer to the water until…
"NO!" Raven screamed, and pulled her arm away. Starfire's hand glided back onto the bed, and she continued to dream. Raven's breath grew ragged and she felt herself grow nauseous. She ran to her bathroom and threw up all she had in her stomach, and ran out of her room, knocking down Sandra in the process, who was leaning against the wall and looking confused and miffed, shouting, "Watch where you're going!" after Raven, who continued to sprint towards the common room.
Raven entered the common room to see Beastboy and Cyborg cooking dinner and Robin reading the newspaper. "YOU!" she snarled, and without warning, seized Robin inside a black aura of magic, catching him off guard.
"Raven, what are you doing?" Beastboy asked in surprise.
"Yeah, let him go!" Cyborg yelled, both abandoning their cooking and ran over to Raven.
Raven shook her head, "No. I want to see him suffer." She whispered and her eyes turned a blood red and she seemed to grow twice her own size.
Robin's eyes grew large and scared. "Raven, I am sorry for whatever I did! Really!" 'What the hell?'
"Do you love Starfire?" she asked suddenly.
Robin looked surprised, "What does that have to do with anything?" he asked.
"IT HAS TO DO WITH EVERYTHING, ROBIN!" screamed Raven, "YOU KILLED HER, YOU SON OF A BITCH!"
"WHAT!" screeched Robin, "Raven! I promise I haven't seen her all day!"
Raven shook her head stubbornly, "You want to know what she goes through Robin? The pain she's endured for your own sake!" She asked, eyes filling up with tears.
"I saw her, Robin, I saw her give you up. I saw what she went through, I'm surprised she's lasted this far," she spat.
Robin still looked bewildered, but Cyborg and Beastboy exchanged glances. This is something Raven had to do, and they would onlyinterfere if things got too physical or bloody.
"Raven, what happened, what's wrong with Starfire?" Robin asked, looking worried.
Raven's mouth suddenly broke into a smile, "I'll show you what happened to her." Memorizing Starfire's screams and shrieks of pain completely, Raven shot pain throughout Robin's body, and his eye's bulged in shock and pain. "AHHH! STOP!" he screamed, "STOP! PLEASE, STOP!"
Raven's eyes returned to their normal color, and she threw Robin down on the ground. Robin's body twitched in pain, and his eyes were wide with fear.
Beastboy grabbed Raven by the shoulders and pulled her close to him, "What happened?" he asked, and Raven suddenly broke down into sobs and grabbed Beastboy close to her.
"I didn't know how to help her, I had no idea... she is so...good," Shewhisperedand Beastboy said no more, and held her tightly, looking confused.
Cyborg grabbed Robin and set him onto the couch and walked into the kitchen to get some soup for him. 'Someone's PMS-ing…' he thought to himself and grimaced.
Meanwhile, Starfire awoke as soon as she heard Robin's scream of pain. She dashed out of the room and ran right into Sandra, who was (once again) knocked down. Starfire apologized and helped her up and braced herself for some nasty comment, but Sandra was silent and even thanked her for helping her up.
"Er..thanks," she mumbled.
Starfire looked positively shocked and blurted out, "What?"
Sandra looked up, "I said, thanks." She said loudly, and then walked away, looking upset.
Starfire's shock eventually wore off and she walked into the common room to find total chaos. Robin was shouting something at Raven, who was shouting things back. Beastboy was looking slightly worried, and Cyborg looked positively confused.
"-NEARLY KILLED ME, RAVEN! WHAT IN GODS NAME WERE YOU THINKING? I'M LUCKY TO BE ALIVE!" bellowed Robin, looking very pale.
"OH SHUT UP, ROBIN! YOU DESERVE WHAT YOU GOT!" screamed Raven and Starfire was surprised that nothing was in disrepair or melted because of Raven's outbursts.
Suddenly, Cyborg screamed at the top of his lungs, "ALL OF Y'ALL HAD BETTER SHUT THE (not a word for children)UP OR SO HELP ME GOD, I AM GOING TO KICK BOTH YOUR ASSES TO THE MOON AND BACK!"
Raven and Robin instantly shut up, both eyes wide and looking paler than usual. Beastboy fell out of the chair he was sitting in, in shock and Starfire looked a bit confused.
"I should not repeat those words, yes?" she asked quietly and all the titans turned around in surprise.
"Starfire!" Raven gasped, and ran over to her friend in a very un-Raven-like way. "Are you okay?" she asked.
Robin glared at Cyborg, "Nice job, now Starfire knows swear words, genius." He growled, "Hey Star, you okay?" he asked, noticing how different she looked. Her eyes had turned a shade lighter and looked rather dull. There was no more shine or glow to them as well, and her face looked a bit paler than normal. Her hair was a bit tangled and she was still in her skirt and top from last night, and it was much wrinkled.
"…yes, I am fine…" she said quietly, not making eye contact with Robin and sat down on the couch with one of her books, 'What My Mother Doesn't Know' and began to read silently to herself.
Cyborg walked over suddenly and pressed his hand up against her forehead, "You sure you're okay? You look really pale… and you're freezing! Did you just walk into a freezer or something?" he asked.
Starfire shook her head, "I had opened the window to Raven's room while we were meditating." She explained. "I feel fine."
Robin suddenly draped a blanket over her, and she flinched at his touch. Robin looked confused, "You sure you're okay?"
Starfire continued reading, but nodded slightly, wishing he would go away. Raven sat next to her, reading too, and gave Robin a look that said, 'Go away.'
Robin shrugged and gave Starfire a smile before returning to his newspaper.
Raven and Starfire gave each other looks, both not reading but talking to each other inside their minds.
'Raven?'
'Mmm?'
'Sorry… for what you had to see…'
'My own fault, I was the one who pried. You have nothing to be sorry about… I'm sorry that I haven't been there for you… how long have you been this… depressed?'
'Um… I am not sure…'
'Starfire, you can tell me.'
'…Long before I came to earth, though I must admit, my time on Earth is most definitely the happiest I have been.'
'I didn't know about your… past, I'm sorry, I would have helped.'
'You have nothing to be sorry about; I thank you for being my friend…'
Cyborg walked over into the kitchen, Beastboy following him. A few moments later, shouts of "TOFU!" and "MEAT!" echoed the entire house, and Raven rolled her eyes and walked into the kitchen, shouting at both Cyborg and Beastboy.
"IF YOU KEEP THIS UP, I AM SO NOT PLAYING STANK BALL WITH YOU!" She threatened.
Cyborg and Beastboy waited a moment, as the information sunk in…
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"
Robin smirked, and Starfire giggled slightly. Both glanced at each other, and Robin blushed, and Starfire averted her eyes, both thinking the same thing.
'What I would give… to start all over…'
My goodness, that took forever! SIXTEEN FULL PAGES, PEOPLE!
And now, reviews:
FallingDarkAngel: Hey there! Well… I think Robin's behavior might be improving! You think? But, he still sort of is a bitch… Oh well. Death by snow cones… I so want to see that happen! HUZZA FOR SNOW CONES! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUR MUM! (sry, it's a bit late…) You mentioned it in your review! Yay for you updating! Yay for me updating! IT'S LIKE A FREAKIN' NEW ERA OR SOMETHIN'! (…uh…wow, no more sugar for me!) Glad I'm there for you to complain to! You can always take your frustration out by talking to me, but always remember what Molly and I think of you: "YOU ROCK OUT LOUD, CHARM!" keep the squirelles away! (pulls out shot gun, and glares at squirells) YOU'RE NEXT! Lol, luv ya girl! Thanks for reviewing!
XxJeterxX: …Yes?...
Always Impatient: Hello! Sorry for the cliffy… and making you go insane… insanity can be fun! I enjoy every minute of my suffering insanity! Thanks for reviewing! Hope you like this extra long chapter!
CRiTiC123: Lol, you are very enthusiastic! Robin's loser-ness might be going away a bit… He defended Starfire! Yay! But he still is a bit of a jerk… but we can fix that with a bit of beating… lol.
Peggy: Hit lists are what make the world go round! (Wait…) Lol, I'm glad you reviewed! Hope you like my story! By the way, I loved how you imagined Sandra!
Sticks-and-Stones123: We might be able to kill Sandra… it might mess up the plot, but then everyone would be happy! I didn't quite update as soon I could… but this chapter is extra long, so I hope you enjoy it!
Metalligoth: Lmao, love your song. Flinch A little too much information about your fellow school mate's asses, but I can't say it isn't true… Thanks for the review!
Kingcakeluva: Yay! I'm on your favorites! Thank you! Hope you like this new chapter, thanks for reviewing!
Gladdecease: Oh… really? Wow, that's cool! I never knew that! Yeah, I know, pointless new baddy …er… ignore him! I might fit him into the story; honestly, I'm just making this up as I go along! Thanks for reviewing! Hope you liked this chapter!
Sirius R Black: Oh my gosh, thank you! You're review made me smile. Yes, I also have some sort of magnetic attachment to when Robin turns into a complete ass. But, I still amazingly like him in the shows! He usually finds a way to become a cool guy again… I am so happy you like my story, hope you like this chapter!
Jackdaw: It could get ugly… it sort of did… anyways; I enjoy your usual short reviews.
StarfireLover: I am fine with that, I just hope you don't mind the Robin bashing! Hope you like this new chapter!
Toolazytosignin: No such thing as too evil (I think), you think I'm making them evil? Well, I'm just making Sandra the typical bitch that gets everything she wants. Even though it sucks, there really are people like that, I can't stand them! Robin, evil? Maybe acting like a jerk, but he defended her in this chapter, so I'll try and ease up on the evilness! Thanks for the heads up!
Soycaliente: So… it was bad that I killed Terra? Sorry you were upset; I'm just trying to follow my plot. Me, mean? Yeah, I guess so. Lol, I love how you described Sandra, and I hope you enjoy this chapter!
PinkFlamingo44: You hate monkeys? Cool, they're…okay; I'm not exactly crazy about them either. You are not alone:D You can train the monkeys… I'll watch and laugh…from a distance, lol. Good luck! Hope you like this chapter!
MoonGoddess: I'm glad you like it, yes, Terra is indeed a major bitch. Same with Sandra, and don't worry, this will end in a rob/star! Thanks for reviewing!
Dramaelfie: I'm glad you like the Terra bashing! Thanks for reviewing!
xotaybabyox: Well, here's the next chapter! Hope you like it!
D-I-WaRrIa: Thanks… I know, I update too quickly, but it's because I enjoy writing so much. I've proofread this a lot, I hope it's better! I like your reviews; they always tell me what I need to improve on. Kind of strange, because normally I can't take criticism well… But, at the same time, you add some sort of compliment, thank you! If you didn't catch it in my reviews, lol, thanks for updating, I was very happy! You did a very good job on them all, I love it! Hope you enjoy this chapter, thanks for reviewing!
Person: Huh? Flashing? Starfire can fly! Yes… but what do you mean? I feel so stupid.
Lisa: ATTACK! (Hits you with twigs) GET BACK, FIEND! Glasses? You have EYES! That's enough fun dip for you, missy! (Takes fun dip away from your bunny/hamster/guinea pig/elephants)
Disappearer/Syani: Sorry for being rude, I hope you aren't mad. Chapter nine is not the last chapter! Hope you like this new one! Thanks for reviewing!
Lucky Charms or Fruit Loops: Lol, nice song, it made me laugh. Hope you liked this chapter!
Autumn: Thanks for your review, it was very nice. I am happy you like it, hope you enjoy this chapter!
PhoenixOnFire: Thank you so much, I'm glad you liked it! I updated! Aren't you proud? Lol.
Kayla: Sorry for making you wait! Thanks, but I don't think I'm the best author… I could give you some good stories to keep you patient! I suggest: My Frozen Heart by Jadedea, Baby Can I Hold You Tonight by D-I-WaRrIa, A Date For a Debt by Riles, and Since You Been Gone by FallingDarkAngel! Just incase you have never heard of them, I think they are much better authors than me! Thanks for reviewing!
SuperDucki: Good for you, take all your anger out on Robin! Nice penname, I don't think what you said was stupid, just a bit confusing! Oh well, thanks for reviewing!
GASP DONE! NOW LET ME REST! This should keep you guys happy for a month… right? (Is attacked by reviewers and bricks) FINE! OW! A WEEK? (Is attacked once more by reviewers) WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME! (runs away)
Sigh. I still love you all though. Despite your slight impatience, I'd be a hypocrite if I complained. –sends plush cat toys- That should keep you entertained!
Ending Quote: 'You can only see as far as your headlights go, but you can make the whole trip that way…' –Some book.
And this one for Molly: 'I should be a freakin' Peace Maker or somethin'…' –me. (Don't ask, I'm too tired to explain)
Luv you all… well, maybe not Molly, But I love the rest of you! (Jk)
Farewell, may you walk freely under the stars tonight!
Rose