I Can Stop the Pain
By Rose
Bad News: If any of you have read my story, It's a College Thing, I have bad news. It has been deleted, but I am not sure how, I never touched it! I swear! Don't fret, I will not abandon it, but I am going to repost it!
I am in such a foul mood.
Do you want good news? Fine.
Good News: TRACK IS FINALLY OVER! NEVER AGAIN! Oh… for you? I'm updating… and I have a new story in the working process, AND I am working hard to update RedX FILES and this story as well.
Many of you are asking how long this story will be and I will honestly tell you, I have no idea, I make most of this up as I go along, or I plan it out during math and social studies class.
If no one else objects, I shall proceed in updating.
Disclaimer: Titans Teen the own not do I.
Chapter Eleven: If You Are My Friend...
Robin groaned loudly as he rolled out of his bed and hit the cold ground. "What time is it?" he asked himself groggily, his eyes seeming to be glued shut, still adjusting to the light. (A/N: Don't tell me that hasn't happened to you)
"Nine o'clock? You have got to be kidding me," He moaned, and he crawled back under his covers, hugging his pillow close to his body.
"Morning babe," the pillow cooed and Robin's eyes shot open and he groaned.
'Please tell me this is not who I think it is…' He thought desperately.
"Sandra?" he asked cautiously.
"Mmm?" she hummed, her blond hair spilled all about his bed. "Great party last night, glad you came, I had a fun time" She giggled when she emphasized the word fun, then kissed his nose softly and went back to dozing.
Robin inwardly screamed at himself. He had completely forgotten about the club he and Sandra had gone to!
-Flashback-
"Robin?"
Robin looked up and gave a forced smile as Sandra walked into the room, all dolled up in a black leather skirt, pink long sleeve tight cotton shirt, and Chinese Laundrey. (A/N: In case you don't know what Chinese Laundrey is, they are a type of shoe, more like sandels. From what I've seen, they look very much like sandels with ribbon/ pieces of cloth wraping around the leg to keep them up. Very cute.)
"You look nice, a special occasion?" he asked.
She smiled, "A Rave tonight in about an hour, I was actually wondering if you wanted to join me."
Robin considered it. 'Raves are fun, but I was hoping to catch a movie with Cyborg, Bee, and Starfire... hmm, I think this will be alright, it'll probably be fun. Besides, the House of Wax sounded about as entertaining as Raven,'
"Love to." He replied curtly.
-End of Flashback-
'Holy shit,' he thought, as he struggled to remember.
'Okay, let's see… bright lights, loud music… lot's of drinking, wow nice going Robin, you're setting a great example. Let's think some more… er… more drinking… dancing, coming home… getting into bed with Sandra… wait.
…oh god, she is in my bed. Are her clothes off?'
Robin slipped his hand beneath his sheets and softly touched Sandra. 'Yes… I am so screwed…'
(A/N: Damn you Robin, I was starting to like you! Reviewers: (stare at Rose angrily) Rose: Oh right… I wrote that… hehe…)
Starfire sighed sadly touching all the dead or dying plants she had worked so hard to keep alive and beautiful. Winter had arrived and she already was beginning to miss her colorful plants, all now blanketed by thick white snow and frost. Ice sickles hung from the top of the tower and grew larger and gave off a Christmas look. Sandra, Cyborg, and Robin all hung wreaths and colorful lights to celebrate Christmas, despite Raven and Starfire didn't celebrate it and Beastboy celebrating Kwanzaa.
Starfire shivered and crossed her arms tightly around her. Raven stood behind her, not saying a word. Every time the plants left for winter, Starfire grew more secluded. 'Although it wouldn't be much different than now,' she thought darkly.
Starfire had gotten more secluded over the previous months. She was practically a whole new person. Raven felt sad, as much as it amazed her, she missed the old Starfire: the innocent, fun loving, happy girl. Raven knew that the young girl was dreading her future.
Raven knew Starfire more than even Starfire knew herself, her thoughts, emotions, dreams, and even fears. And Starfire knew Raven just as well too. Lately, though, Raven was spending more and more time with Beastboy and less time with Starfire.
Starfire bent her knees and sat in the snow. "Good morning Raven,"
Raven nodded to her and joined her in the snow. "Pleasant day for a picnic, no?" she joked, a very rare occasion.
Starfire smiled. "Yes, we shall go for a picnic on the beach, perhaps taking a swim as well,"
Raven playfully leaned up against Starfire, knocking her into the snow and Starfire shrieked from the cold and pushed Raven back, who gasped.
"Youare so dead." she threatened, but Starfire threw a snowball before Raven could even block it.
Soon, they were deep into a snowball fight, dodging each other's snowballs… or snow mounds to be more precise due to Starfire's alien strength and Raven's ability to levitate objects. They both screamed and even laughed, as they pounded snow into each other. At one point, Starfire picked up a large amount of snow, so large, that she staggered under its weight and collapsed with the snow on top of her, making Raven explode with laughter, blowing up their mail box.
After a while, they both retreated back inside and made fun of how red each other's noses and ears were and how wet their hair was.
Then Beastboy got one glimpse of Raven and flipped out. "YOU'RE GONNA CATCH A COLD!" He worried and she rolled her eyes.
"I think I can handle colds, Beastboy."
But he didn't listen and shoved her into the bathroom with a towel and cup of herbal tea shouting, "Raven, stop acting all weak and take a god damn hot shower and drink herbal tea like an adult!" and kissed her on the mouth before she could protest.
Cyborg laughed at the display. "You'll make a great mother."
Beastboy grew pale, "WHAT? WHAT ARE YOU NOT TELLING ME?" he screamed at the bathroom door, and inside Raven's burst of shock and fright exploded the shampoo bottle. (A/N: Mind you, Raven can hear what they are saying)
Starfire came to the rescue, amused with the current conversation going on in front of her. "No, friend Beastboy, he is not implying that Raven is with child, he was only poking fun at your motherly ways with her," Starfire calmly explained, and Cyborg hooted with laughter.
"YOU MEAN YOU'VE DONE IT!" He laughed, and Beastboy grew pale. Inside the bathroom there was a crash and the sound of glass breaking.
"I'm fine." Raven called while muttering curses to Cyborg under her breath.
An hour later, Robin stumbled into the kitchen and grabbed a piece of toast. Sandra followed him and to his misery, wore a giant T-shirt that said Grayson on the back. 'How am I going to break it off with her?
You're going to?
Yes, of course
Why?
Because… I just can't
Because you love Starfire. You have always loved her. THIS IS OLD NEWS! Learn to listen to me!
Okay, you're right, sorry George. I love her… but I screwed up.
Everyone does, you know. You're no different'
Sandra kissed him lightly on the mouth, and she smelled slightly still like beer. Robin gently pushed her back and sighed, "Look, we need to talk."
She looked a little bit worried as he led her out into the hallway and towards the privacy of his room. "Look, yesterday night was a mistake. I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings, but I can't do this." He said quickly, nearing towards his door, the words tumbling out of his mouth.
Sandra's eyes widened and her jaw dropped, "What? Excuse me?" she asked loudly, her feet frozen to the ground.
"Sandra, shh! I don't want any of the titans knowing about what happened!" Robin pleaded.
"What? That we screwed each other Robin? Is that it? How dare you play me like that you bastard! I... ITHOUGH YOU CARED ABOUT ME!" She yelled, tears spilling down her face. "IS IT STARFIRE? MAKE UP YOUR MIND ROBIN! HER OR ME?"
Robin looked pained and he tried to comfort her but she shoved him away, "Get your filthy hands off me! I never want to see you again, and until you choose between me and Starfire, don't expect any love from me!"
Sandra stomped away and Robin groaned. "God damnit!" He swore and turned to go to the gym and stood motionless. There stood the entire team, all gaping at him; they had been there the whole time.
There was an unbearably awkward silence and every second felt like an hour. Raven and Beastboy exchanged glances, and Cyborg's face displayed a mixture of amusement, anger, and disappointment.
Robin didn't care about them or what they thought, but he didn't dare look at Starfire. He turned and walked towards his room without saying a word, without breathing and collapsed into his bed in regret and sorrow.
'I am such an idiot'
Later that night, Starfire made her decision. She had heard everything and simply wanted to end her life, especially when she learned that Robin and Sandra had made love.
'What if Sandra gets pregnant? …I couldn't live!' she wondered and without warning burst into tears.
"Why?" she cried. "Why does this have to happen to me? Please tell me why I deserve this! What did I do? TELL ME WHAT I DID!" She grabbed her pillow to muffle her sobs.
'THIS ISN'T FAIR! NOTHING IS FAIR ANYMORE! I WANT OUT!' She screamed inside her mind. She suddenly remembered Sandra's crying, pained face. She knew it, it was oh so familiar.
'No one deserves what I'm going through…' she noted, and felt a sudden burst of sympathy towards Sandra. 'Even though she is a nasty- bitchy- annoying- self-centered- brat... she looked so unhappy, she doesn't deserve what I go through… no one does, how do I solve his?'
Starfire knew. She wanted it, and it needed to be done. 'I need to talk to a friend; they will give me advice and maybe even help me,'
Starfire picked up the phone in her room and quickly dialed a number.
Ring, ring, ring-
"…Yeah?"
"Friend Charlie, it is I, Kori." Starfire whispered into the phone.
"How the hell has life been treating you?" RedX answered, glad to hear the voice of his friend, but unhappy to hear her sound as though she had been crying.
"Funny you mention the term hell…" She noted, her voice cracking.
"That bad?"
"Yes, I killed Terra to save Raven and Beastboy, and nearly got myself thrown off the team. I had a horrible vision with Robin trying to kill me. Also, he and Sandra recently made love,"
"That really beats my stubbed toe…"
"I wish you wouldn't joke, it is not funny for me."
"Right," RedX apologized, "I am so sorry Kori, what can I do to make you feel better?"
Starfire took a deep breath, "I have given it some thought," she spoke, "And I ask you to do one thing for me, and if you are really my friend, I know you will do this..."
"Anything, in a heart beat," he reasurred.
Starfire smiled. She knew Charlie would help her do this, he would do it for her. She felt a great sense of relief. "Please do this for me… as a friend, I ask you to do this one thing…"
"Spill it Kori, all the gory details,"
"I want you to kill me." Starfire declared, a small smile creeping up on her face, and the other line grew silent.
"I'm coming over. Don't do anything, Kori, do you understand me?" Charlie begged.
"Yes," Starfire murmured, twisting her hair into a small braid. The other line clicked and the dial tone ran into her ear. She laughed suddenly, not knowing why, but feeling so jovial, so ecstatic. Then she realized… 'It will all be over soon'
I know it is short, but I think it is a good ending to the chapter. :sniff: I just finished Troy... I love that movie, always makes me cry at the end though. Huzza for Achilles, but more importanlty, Ajax who I cannot believe dies! HE HAS THE BEST LINE!
(from the movie)
Ajax: (glares at Trojan beach) Look at them > Look at them run.. (turns his attention to old man rowing the boat.) ROW YOU LAZY HORSE, ROW! GREEKS ARE DYIN', ROW! (flings old man across the boat)
That is so great... I love Ajax. CURSE HECTOR FOR KILLING HIM!
Back to Teen Titans...
I have new poll!
After this story is finished, (and yes the time is coming) which new story do you want me to start? Here are they're summaries.
Choice:
Oh and these are all mostly Rae/BB and Starfire/Rob and Cy/Bee, some Rae/BB/Terra
1#. Slade injects a substance into Raven before releasing her from his captive. Confused and lost, she makes her way back to the tower, and woo-hoo we got a BB/Rae. After a bit, the titans battle with Slade again and he gives Beastboy a choice. He can either kill Starfire and get Raven the cure to the disease injected in her body from Slade, or letting his love perish with a horrible unknown disease with no known cure, but saving his friend and fellow titan's life.
2#. Starfire 'perishes' (hint, hint) when a bomb explodes in a building, and it is Beastboy and Raven's fault. Both extremely guilty try, but Robin's pure hatred towards them drives him insane and he dedicates himself to a life of crime, trying to cope with the loss of his fiancé.
3#. A RedX/Mad Mod and a Trigon/Larry. It is a bright and sunny afternoon and- (gets mauled by angry reviewers)
4#. Sort of like a LOST thing. But not really, no giant polar bears. I know: huge loss! Anyways, the titans are all on a plane that crashes. On the plane are Faith Andrews (Starfire) and her older sister Julie. Also Raven Black with her Dad, Logan Beast (Wonder who he is) all alone, traveling to see his parents in Africa. Also Victor Stone, Bethany Honey (Bee), Terra Markov, and Richard Grayson with his whole family. Other people to, but I'm not going to get into it unless you all like the plot!
That enough? Please tell me which I should do! But do not worry, I haven't given up on my College story or my RedX one! More updates on that… sometime…
Most likely during summer. Or not! Don't despair, those who are despairing! Maybe I shall update sooner!
-Reviews-
Cassire: Is sad a good thing? I've always enjoyed drama, I guess sad goes with that! Happy ending? I will try! You hate Sandra? Gee... wonder why, was it the bitchiness, or do just not like the name? -sarcasm- Don't worry, I hate her too. I'm glad you reviewed! I enjoyed what you said!
dramaelfie: Thanks, I'm glad you noticed! I have never seen the comics, they are practically IMPOSSIBLE to find. Oh well, one day I'll find them! Until then, thanks for being a fan!
xotaybabyox: Hey, thanks for advertising your story, I'm always up for reading! (That makes me sound like such a dork... YES!) Thanks for reviewing!
Metalligoth: well, it may be the longest chapter I've written, but this was the shortest review you've written! Lol, jk, I won't nag! Glad you understood it, and sorry this is a short chapter. Thanks for your review!
Soycaliente: (smiles) You had a really nice review, thank you so much. It also made me laugh, I'm glad I amused you with Robin's pain. Me writing a book? Meh, I like fanfiction a bit better, I don't know why, it just seems like you can get really into it, and not really worry about having people like it. Plus it is so much fun! Glad for your opinions, I love your reviews!
sticksandstones123: (sigh) still emotional, I know, I feel like I'm writing a freakin' soap opera! Think I'm too dramatic? I think so... curses. Oh well. Thanks for your review!
FreedomDreamer: Thanks for your review, I'm overjoyed that you liked it! Did you like this chapter?
FallingDarkAngel: Yes! I haven't talked to you in forever! You're grounded! ARE YOU GOING TO BE ABLE TO READ MY CHAPTER? (like you can answer...) Sigh. Miss you girl, I curse whatever reason which has made you grounded. Hey, this review was the one with Leah in it! (waves to Leah) Hey Leah! I know, last chapter was all sad-sappy-unhappy-depressing-like. I am way too dramatic in my writing, I think. I miss you darling! (lol, I love that word for some reason) Come back to fanfiction! (some how?) Luv ya, bootiful girl! (Brian waves hello)
Dane278: Really? One of the best stories you have ever read? I feel flattered! (Since I'm a sucker for flattery, like you are with happy endings) Speaking of which, I will try ot make this a happy ending, I cannot promise you anything. Thanks for your review!
Starfire-Koriander: Your thirteen too? ...cool! I very much dislike the age though, I miss my childhood. Sorry if I bashed your story, it's just like me to... oh, I remember now! Well, if it was for a friend, good job!
D-I-WaRrIa: Love your new story! Oh! The name for your upcoming story? Hm... um, is Emily Andrews okay? Don't know why, but all my friends say that if I weren't a Rose, I'd be an Emily. (smiles) I'm very excited... but you won't make me be completely insane... will you? -looks nervous- Okay... description of me, coming up!
(Those who aren't D-I-WaRrIa: you don't have much use of reading this... merely a discription of me!)
Looks: Wish I could say tall. Well, not the tallest, but medium height with very long brown hair. Grey eyes, I get them from my Grandpa! Style of clothing is anything but girly. I like things that are edgy and comfortable.My friends say I'm pretty,but whatever, I can't see it. Molly once said, 'You have really classical dark features,' (I love that girl sometimes!) Being pretty doesn't matter to me, I still can't see it. (looks in mirror) WHERE IS IT!
Pet Peeves: Perverts. School. Wanna- bees. Copy cats. But what I hate the most is probably cold dark water... oh, that doesn't make sense, does it? I absolutely HATE the idea of being in cold dark dirty water at night. Especially inside a well -shiver- a nightmare I've had since I was six. Down with wells.Scares the living shit out of me... anyhoo, my fear and hatred for it is probably because of nightmares. (twitch, scary... creepy... nightmares)I love the water... in the daylight. At night, I'd rather kill myself then jump in. Something from my past? I haven't had the best childhood. Not the best parents either. I've had great friends, but just a lot of things that can really freak a kid out have happened. Just... not all happy-like, in fact I'm pretty much the oposite. Just... a really angry dad who likes to yell and a mom who criticises everything you do. Good enough?
What I like: Books. Writing. Viggo Mortensen :-). Solitude. er... being alone? I hate crowded areas, I'm a bit shy. (are you totally not understanding this?) Well, let me explain. On the internet, I can easily be funny, be nice, be cruel, I mean... it's the internet, you can be whoever you want! But after you talk to someone for a long time, like you, you learn to trust them. I could probably be hyper or silly around you. Not my normal nature, but around my friends, I'm sometimes like the way I am on the internet. Sometimes I'm that cynical girl who lives inside her head. (my friends words, not mine) Overall, I am what my mood is. I don't believe in 'being yourself', I think that you can be whoever you want to be as long as you are happy.
What I love the most: Winter, snow. I love, love, love, love, love, love snow! So much! I just love it, I really do. Love the winter, curse the heat.
Is that enough, my friend:hugs D-I-WaRrIa: Almost your birthday! I hope you have a great time!
Next reviewer!
Kayla: Thanks! You are so nice! Hope you liked this chapter!
StarfireLover: Yeah, Robin was being a bit of a dork. I updated! Aren't you proud?
Avovisto: Yes. Orlando Bloom obsessors piss me off. You're thirteen too? Awesome! I hate seventh grade though. Hope eighth's better! The bunny? If you hate terra, COPY IT BY ALL MEANS!
PinkFlamingo44: The monkeys hate you? Why not try llamas? Sandra is still a (censored) but I'm just making he an idiot. Anyways, no (censored) off my (beep). (jk!) Lol, that was fun. Glad you like my chapter!
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XxJeterxX: With me, the annoying drama writer, anything can be sadder. But I'm glad it doesn't bother you! Starting to bother me, I feel like I'm just being cruel to Starfire. Thanks for all your reviews, you have been a very loyal reviewer:-)
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PhoenixOnFire: I made you gawk! Sweet! Thanks for the review, I cannot believe I made someone gawk!
Absh: Well, now I just feel left out. (throws brick at sandra). Now I feel better! Why should you get to insult Sandra when I cannot? Oh right... I made her. Oh well! (throws more bricks at Sandra) DIE BITCH! CRASH AND BURN!
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Pauline: Er... sorry I made you cry! Hope you liked this new chaptet though!
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You make me so happy! I am glad to here your opinions, thoughts, and even death threats at times! Sorry for taking so long to update! Next reviewer!
I –heart- you all!
Lurve, Rose!