I Can Stop the Pain

By Jackalobe

Disclaimer- I don't own the Teen Titans, and apparently I don't own this story.

Notice- I do not believe in happy endings.

Chapter Twelve: What I've Done for You

Starfire's POV

I was brought to this world by force, and yet it was my chance of freedom, my one chance to forget everything of my childhood and start a new life. On Earth, I found peace. I made close friends, the closest friends I could ever ask for, who became my family.

I lived with them, in a home, a tower, more marvelous and dear to me than any palace I lived in before. I was praised, honored, and admired. I had thought life to be a gift, I was in such bliss. I fell in love, and suddenly my whole world revolved around him. I had hopes for a future with him; I had hopes that he would love me as well. I was a hero.

Alas, I learned that in a moment, everything can change.

The next thing I know, I wish to leave my home. I'm insulted, betrayed, and mocked. One of my friends becomes my enemy, and I kill her with no mercy. My home grows cold and frozen, as does my heart. My mind plays cruel tricks in my sleep, my love loves another. I am no hero; I am a sad and cruel outsider.

I'm living in a cold, dead hell.

Normal POV

'The night is quiet,' Starfire observed, waiting for RedX to arrive. He had promised he would come, and Starfire felt impatient for his arrival.

She had convinced everyone to go out for the night. It wasn't easy, but she managed to do it. Starfire first brought up the new movie 'Crash' during dinner, a movie she knew Cyborg and Robin were dying to see. Within minutes, Robin and Cyborg called Bumblebee, and Speedy and they all suddenly plans for the evening to see Crash.

Next came Raven and Beastboy. Earlier in the year, this would have been impossible, but now it was a cinch. Starfire turned on some music after dinner and caught Raven dancing slightly. She watched and complimented on how good she danced, just as Beastboy walked in. He laughed loudly in a fake haughty voice, describing how Raven was one of the greatest dancers he had ever seen, and how this was hardly her dancing.

"If you think she's good now, you should see her when she's really into the song, it's incredible!" Beastboy praised, and Raven blushed fiercely.

"You know, you're not bad yourself, don't give me all the credit," She answered shyly.

Starfire fake grinned, "Oh! Why do you not go out dancing tonight? I believe two brand new clubs just opened, why don't you…um… 'Check them out'?"

'This is too easy,' Starfire laughed inwardly, as Raven's eyes lit up and Beastboy nodded enthusiastically.

"Yeah, Raven come on! Please?" he begged, and she opened her mouth to say yes, but suddenly froze, her mouth open. She turned to Starfire, who pretended to frown.

"What is it Raven? Don't you want to go?" she asked, her voice betraying her and sounding a little pleading.

"Starfire, do you want to come?" She asked, her voice showing concern, but her eyes looking suspicious. Starfire's insides froze for a moment, fear flowing through her blood. Did she know?

"N-no, Raven! Please, have fun with Beastboy," Starfire smiled warmly, trying to make her eyes look soft and friendly.

Raven stared at her for a moment, and then smiled back. "Okay then, as long as you don't mind. Yeah, Beastboy, I'd love to go dancing with you."

And so you see, they were all gone. Raven and Beastboy were out dancing, Cyborg, Robin, Speedy, and Bumblebee all decided to go and see 'Crash', and Sandra… well, Sandra had left.

Permanently left, as in, packed all her stuff and walked out the door. Starfire thought she'd be overjoyed, ecstatic, but she somehow felt defeated and tired. Sandra had announced she was leaving right when Starfire walked into the Common Room, after dinner, shooting a cold an icy glance directed to Robin. She had her trunk with her, as well as her two other suitcases.

Robin didn't say a word; he didn't even look at her. He glared at the remote sitting halfway underneath the couch, his arms folding and his face set frozen in a scowl.

Sandra didn't even say goodbye to him, the boy she'd been crushing on all November, October, and the first few weeks of December.

Sandra nodded goodbye to Raven, hugged Beastboy and Cyborg goodbye, and to everyone's surprise, actually said goodbye to Starfire.

Flashback:

"Well, that's it. Been great knowing some of you…" Sandra glared at Robin, who worked up the courage to look at her, an impassive expression on his face.

"Been great having you here," Cyborg half lied, and Beastboy nodded, both giving her an awkward hug.

She grinned, "I'll miss you guys playing video games and arguing about breakfast,"

Raven did a half nod goodbye, standing in the same position as Robin, her arms crossed and glancing downward.

Sandra turned to leave, then froze, as though forgetting something. She turned and looked Starfire directly in the eye. It took all of Star's courage not to look away.

After a small staring contest, Sandra was the first to drop her gaze, "You are a much better person than me," she confessed, forgetting the rest of the titans.

Starfire didn't blink, breath, or look down. She kept her emotionless gaze. She saw tears burst up in Sandra's eyes, and before she could acknowledge it, Sandra dropped her things and threw her arms around the alien, to everyone's shock.

Starfire, extremely stunned, stumbled back, but held the shaking girl. She had the distinct feeling as though she were holding a sobbing child. Sandra's body racked with sobs, and Starfire patted her head, stroking her hair. Raven, Beastboy, Cyborg, and Robin all looked at them, obviously bewildered.

"This is getting too emotional for my taste…" Raven muttered, and Beastboy and Cyborg were still gaping at Sandra. Robin looked at Starfire somewhat sadly, not fully understand why Starfire wouldn't just act normal and push Sandra away.

'I gave up Starfire and all her forgiveness for Sandra?' he thought bitterly.

For once in a long time, Starfire didn't cry. She felt sad, but her body had grown numb to the feeling. Sandra stayed there for a minute longer, then got up and smiled. Her make up was smeared, her nose was runny, and her cheeks were tear stained. For some reason, Starfire didn't find her unattractive. 'This looks like the real you.' she thought.

Starfire didn't feel sad when Sandra left, but she didn't feel happy either. Sandra had made her mark on Star's life, not exactly a positive one. 'But I still forgive you...' she thought. She didn't know why, but a part of her was sympathetic towards her. Sandra left Titans Tower much wiser and more kind, then when she had entered. Starfire was certain Sandra had changed for the better, and because of that, she should be forgiven.

End of Flashback

Grey slushy rain smacked against the windows, not helping Starfire's mood at all. She shivered, despite the thick, soft blanket wrapped tightly around her over her green tank top and black stretchy sweat pants.

It was dark and cold inside the tower, and she felt confined. She walked from room to room, trying to cure her restlessness but in the end, she decided to watch the slushy snow from a better point of view: The roof.

She abandoned the blanket, letting it slide off her shivering body and walked the long staircase leading to the roof.

Her teeth began to chatter as she opened the door, and she clenched her teeth when the rain hit her skin. Goose bumps traveled across her arms and legs, and she edged closer and closer to the edge of the roof. She didn't know what she was doing or what she was going to do, but let her body lead the way.

Nothing could stop her, RedX was no where to be seen, and the titans were out. She could do it now; she could easily just throw herself off. Starfire's eyes were alight with lust when she realized that. She walked to the very edge and gazed at the deep, dark waters below her.

"It's so simple," she said to herself, licking her chapped lip. "So easy, so desirable," Her long, now wet, hair danced and whipped around her shoulders and face. A sick smile grew across her face and she stood tall. As though being crucified, she raised her arms higher, higher and closed her eyes.

"It's too easy, and yet so hard." she murmured, and leaned forward…

Yep, I'm leaving you there! Moo-hoo-hahahaha!

I'm sorry, I won't be answering reviews this time, I will next time though!

Poll:

-What did you think of Stranded?

-What did you think of The Prophecy?

-If they do a Starfire season, what do you want it to be based on? (You know, Beastboy/Terra season, Cyborg-brother blood, becoming a man, Raven-her past, her father, her destiny, Robin-Slade)

-What is your favorite fanfiction pairing?

Please review!

I love you all,

Jackalobe