Disclaimer: I don't own dragonball z.

Note: This is yet another chapter with kissies in it, both het. and yaoi. Also rated R for rape.

How great it is to be loved by you!

by: Pic's Pixie

Chapter 20: All better & Nightmares

The next morning Vicki woke up almost as good as new. She was energetic and full of excitement but more than anything she wanted Gohan by her side. So she quickly devised a plan and sprang to her feet to get ready. She put on a short pale green dress and some matching sandals, also she let her hair down and wore the slightest applications of pink lip gloss and eye shadow, plus a bit of mascara. She ran down stairs greeted everyone and grabbed a quick breakfast. She then dashed out the door and flew off towards Gohan's. Vicki flew over to his house and suppressed her ki so no one would notice her. She knew that Gohan enjoyed sleeping in and was hoping today was no exception. Her guess was confirmed when she flew up to Gohan's window and peered inside. There he was sprawled out on his bed underneath a mass of blankets. She quietly stepped in and over to his bedside. He had such an innocent face on. She then silently tip-toed over to his door and locked it with her ki, then went over to the window and drew the shades. She then returned her attention to her sleeping fiancee. She licked her lips in anticipation and carefully slid the blankets down his entire body. He was sleeping in the buff/jackpot/ thought Vicki as she soaked in the sight of her mate in such a vulnerable and natural state. She looked him up and down getting a good look at what was now rightfully hers. She traced her fingertips over his lips and slide over his jawline and down his neck. She heard him take in a sharp breath but she knew it would take more to rouse this demi-saiyan from his slumber. Her hands travelled lower to his chest, she gently ran her hands all over his chest catching his nipples on her descent stirring a moan from deep in his throat. She smirked to herself then allowed her hands to go farther. She ran her hands on either side of his hips and down to his thighs above his knees, she brought them to the inner part of his thighs and started to stroke upwards while pushing his legs apart. Gohan was moaning in his sleep. She finally got to her destination and marvelled at how aroused he already was. She just smiled then took his length in her hand gently. Gohan hissed in pleasure and she began a slow rhythm of sliding her hand up and down his staff. She bent down and while keeping a hold at the base of his shaft Vicki took him into her mouth. She just waited a while letting the heat get to him. His head was thrashing on the pillow and yet he did not wake. Vicki bobbed her head up and down locking him in a warm suction. Vicki slowly pulled away and moved to nip and suck at the expanse of skin on the underside of his member. Gohan groaned loudly announcing his consciousness. She looked up and locked eyes with the bewildered Saiyan.

"Ahh, ....Vicki???" was Gohan's breathless response. She just gave him an evil smirk and one last torturous lick before she crept up his body to be face to face with her lover.

Gohan wasn't dreaming she was actually here. His body shook with need from her teasing and he went completely rigid when Vicki crept back up his body to look him in the face.

"Are you shy?" Vicki mocked when she felt how stiff he had become. She smiled then leaned down and crushed her lips to his. Vicki was in no mood to go slow, she thrust her tongue into his mouth and ran it over his teeth and tongue, sucking on his tongue and begging it to join in her exploration. Gohan was immediately relaxed by Vicki's kiss and joined in shortly when he felt her play with his tongue. His hands slid up her sides and were rubbing her back. She let a soft moan escape her lips as Gohan's hands became more persistent. His hands reached down lower and he palmed the backs of her thighs as she left a trail of kisses down his throat. He slid his hands higher and gripped her dress and started to pull it up and over her head, she made no complaint and left his slender neck for the moment needed then returned. Gohan tossed her dress to the side and felt around for more annoying clothes. He undid her bra and got that off with minimal difficulty, she helped by kicking off her sandals. Gohan started to feel for her underwear but didn't find any. He pulled her back for a moment. He sent her a quizzing look and she giggled.

"I came commando style." She laughed at his peeked interest. He just smiled devilishly and pulled her in for a sweet chaste kiss. Vicki settled herself so she was now straddling his hips ,she was a little taken off guard when Gohan decided to sit up.

"What's wrong?" She whispered.

"Nothing." He assured her and started to kiss her shoulder. Vicki smiled and melted into his touch. Gohan was sitting up and Vicki was in his lap, he saw what to do next and lifted her slightly. Vicki knew after that what he wanted to do and smiled to assure him. Gohan slowly lowered her down onto his aching shaft. Vicki's face shrunched up for the briefest of moments at the slight discomfort then she was fine, and involved in a whole new exquisite sensation. Vicki wrapped her legs around Gohan's waist and he fed her slow deep thrusts. Their movements were slow but demanding, they felt so good, it took a lot of willpower on Gohan's part not to throw her under him and ravage her with affection.

Vicki couldn't believe so little movement could cause so much pleasure, the friction was perfect. She let out a low groan and wrapped her arms under Gohan's armpits and around his shoulders pulling him closer. This was torture, pure blissful torture. For both of them, finally Gohan couldn't take it anymore and leaned forward forcing her to be underneath him. She looked shocked but grateful at the same time ,she was feeling her climax build as well. Gohan slammed into her with unbridled passion, hard enough to cause them both to shack but not enough to hurt her even the slightest bit. Vicki clawed at his back as she felt her climax increase in urgency. Gohan was going forcefully now, she had never really seen much of this side to him, before he was usually such a gentle lover but now he was a true warrior, she liked it. She moaned and kissed him passionately causing him to just let loose. He did something very unexpected, he turned super Saiyan. His speed and strength seemed to double and Vicki didn't know if the bed would take much more, if she could take much more. It was slightly painful but the pain mixed with the immense pleasure increasing it. She groaned deeply and grabbed his ass urging him to continue. Gohan was mad with need and desire. This wasn't usual but it felt natural, like some part of him that he didn't even know about had surfaced and was taking over his body. He was shocked himself when he transformed into a super Saiyan he was washed over with worry for Vicki incase he hurt her, but he saw no pained expression, he even felt her prompting and was greatly aroused. Vicki had to raise her ki in order to protect herself Gohan was really letting loose. She was at the brink of the most intense orgasm of her life, she never dreamed such pleasure was possible or if she even deserved it. She grabbed him around his waist and pulled him tight against her body as she was stripped of all remains of sanity and coherent thought she screamed out her rapture subconsciously increasing the forcefield that she had made earlier around them both to block out sound. Gohan screamed out his release as he was availed of his seed and was washed over with wave after wave of pure unadulterated ecstasy.

Then out of no where this sudden urge to claim her came over him and he had no choice but to go on instinct. Gohan roughly gripped Vicki's hair and pulled her head to the side, exposing her neck, he cleared away some stray strands of hair and then bite down hard on the soft curve of her neck breaking the skin and allowing blood to leak into his mouth. Vicki was too engrossed in her orgasm that she hadn't felt the full force of what he did but after a while she became very aware and slightly worried. He was biting her, hard. It hurt. She squirmed under him and pushed at his shoulders lightly. Gohan slowly became aware of his surroundings and released her neck. Two streams of purplish-red blood trickled down her collar bone and shoulder and onto Gohan's bed. He was frightened she'd be mad at him but she wasn't just a little confused. They just lay there panting and looking at eachother. Then Gohan's energy ran out and he changed back down from super Saiyan and collapsed onto her chest. Vicki grunted as he pulled out of her and she pushed him over so he was on his back. She then curled up close to his side and pulled the blankets back up around them. Gohan had already surrendered to sleep and Vicki was quickly following. She let go of the force field and slipped away into her dreams. Her dreams were filled with Gohan as they usually were and of course just when it was getting good she had to wake up. She opened her eyes a bit annoyed then noticed that yet again Gohan was thrashing about and calling out things. But this wasn't like all the other times, he didn't seem to be in pain or sadness ,he seemed to enjoy it, very much so that he was even quite aroused. Vicki smirked to herself guessing that he was probably dreaming of her and what they had just done. Just then the mark on her neck started to itch, she fingered the dried blood and started to think about what this could mean. She would have to ask Vegeta about it later, in case it was a Saiyan thing. Her thoughts were pushed away as pain overwhelmed her senses. She looked down at the sleeping Saiyan he had punched her in the chest, a very tender area. He started to moan and whisper things, Vicki had thought it slightly humorous so she just laughed quietly before she heard Gohan whimper 'Piccolo' over and over again. She leaned in closer and could tell that Gohan was enjoying his dream an awful lot, he was bucking his hips, moaning, and thrashing about. Vicki was shocked at first then a gleam of hope shown on her, if Gohan was dreaming of her in her old form in that way, then there's a chance he would except her for being a him. She smiled contentedly and then dodged another wild shot as Gohan moved around.

Gohan's dream

Gohan was in his old training grounds ,he was training with his old mentor Piccolo, he loved spending time with him but this felt different somehow, like a different kind of love. Piccolo sent him flying into the mountainside when he dropped his guard and Gohan watched as he flew down to check on the cocky teen. Piccolo landed right infront of him.

"Had enough boy?" Piccolo asked in a mock tone.

"You wish. I'll tell you when I've had enough." With that Gohan disappeared.

Piccolo looked around frantically but couldn't see him until it was too late. Gohan reappeared behind him and kicked him completely through the mountain itself. Gohan landed on the ground a few feet from where Piccolo was lying face down ,his gi torn in some places. Gohan walked up to him and knelt down beside him, he reached over and pulled his head up to face him.

"Had enough?" Gohan asked in a softer mocking tone as Piccolo trembled slightly partly from pain but also partly from embarrassment.

"I think I'll take my prize now."

Gohan suddenly pressed his lips onto Piccolo's who stiffened instantly.

Gohan didn't pay any attention to any of Piccolo's attempts at pushing him away ,he was stronger than the namek and he would prove that. Gohan broke the contact and sent Piccolo flying towards a cliff face. He hit it hard but not shatteringly hard, only bruiseably hard.

Piccolo slid down till he was sitting with his back leaning against it. He was panting hard and was shaking even more, from fear. Almost like fear, he knew Gohan wouldn't hurt him too bad, but this was a side of Gohan, Piccolo had never seen before. Quicker than Piccolo would have liked Gohan was standing over him looking intently as his chest rose and fell. Then suddenly Piccolo was standing ,well almost standing, his feet were on the ground but he was not putting any weight on them ,he was being held up by Gohan's grip on his waist. Gohan looked him over, a bit beaten up but still irresistible. Gohan's hands started to roam his captives body. Piccolo squirmed but could not move out of the embrace. Gohan's hands pinned both Piccolo's wrists above his head and created two glowing rings chaining them to the rock face.

Piccolo was worried, now he had no chance of getting away. Piccolo looked up at the apposing rings of ki, he didn't know how to get out of this situation, then Gohan pulled Piccolo's face back down to face him. Piccolo looked him in the eyes and found this dominating predatory gleam in the deep dark depths. Gohan's hands then slid back down to his shoulders. He leaned forward and lightly placed a kiss on Piccolo's green lips. Piccolo gasped at the soft contact, how could this be happening to him? Gohan immediately started a trail of butterfly kisses down his throat and over his chest, his hands busying themselves with riding the namek's body of his garments. His shirt was opened and torn off of his strapping chest. It heaved with each nervous breath he took in. Gohan ran his hands up and down his chest making him unwillingly let out a low groan. Gohan smirked as he traced mysterious patterns along the green flesh with his tongue. Gohan was almost kneeling, he had a hold on Piccolo's hips steadying him as he kissed, and nipped along the red banded muscles of his abdomen. Piccolo bucked into his touch causing the Saiyan to increase his speed. He undid Piccolo's sash and threw it to the breeze, allowing his pants to fall freely to around his ankles. Piccolo went red in the face, he had never been so exposed, so vulnerable, so aroused. Gohan looked in absolute joy as his view was filled with the magnificent sight of the namek naked. He was infact a he, since Gohan found out that nameks were asexual he thought they might not have anything. He was very impressed, it was perfectly proportioned with his body size ,which was huge. Piccolo looked down nervously waiting to see a disgusted face of Gohan but instead found him smirking up at him.

"very nice." Gohan whispered seductively sending shivers down Piccolo's spine.

Gohan allowed his hands to glide down Piccolo's hips and reach behind and squeeze his firm ass. Piccolo tightly shut his eyes and threw his head back as Gohan took him into his mouth. Gohan relaxed his throat muscles taking him in all the way. Gohan flicked him tongue along the underside of Piccolo's length and added a long torturous lick. Piccolo was growling faintly and Gohan knew that that wasn't from anger as he felt how aroused Piccolo was. He bobbed his head up and down as he tried to steady his partner's thrusting hips as they bucked uncontrollably into his warm mouth. Gohan found the taste of the green man very addictive, he hummed while he was pleasuring the namek, this action was very affective and caused the namek to get quite vocal for a short time. Gohan wanted his mate to be pleased so he continued until Piccolo had no choice but to scream out his release and empty himself into Gohan's waiting mouth. Gohan licked his way back up his body, Piccolo's eyes were shut tight and his breathing was hoarse and erratic. Gohan smirked and kissed him out of his stupor. When Piccolo regained some control over his body he moved away from Gohan's mouth.

"Heh, you're not going anywhere, not till I'm done." Gohan said in a low seductive, almost sadistic voice. Piccolo trembled as he felt Gohan's hands move smoothly up and over his stomach to along his chest, and cup his face. Gohan pulled the namek's face towards him and locked him in a searing kiss, Piccolo held his mouth closed tight but Gohan gripped his jaw causing it to open and give Gohan access to his. Piccolo could do nothing but allow his former student to finish his assault. Gohan did not break the kiss, just deepened it as his hands slipped down Piccolo's sides and gripped his hips. Gohan bucked into Piccolo's straining body, grinding their sexes together strangling a cry from Piccolo. Then Gohan's clothes disappeared. He was standing their pinning the also naked namek to a cliff wall and enjoying himself quite a bit, he licked his fingers then returned to kissing the astonished namek. Gohan's achingly hard shaft was pressed firmly against Piccolo's thigh.

Piccolo groaned as he felt one of Gohan's hands slip back to grab his ass again. Gohan squeezed the taut flesh and moaned in satisfaction. He then slipped a finger between the cheeks and dove into Piccolo's entrance. Piccolo cried out at the invasion. He wriggled trying to get away from the moving finger. Gohan added another finger and Piccolo's face scrunched up. Gohan kissed Piccolo again in an attempt to ease the pain. He licked along Piccolo's full bottom lip and tugged on it gently. He pried open his mouth and sucked on Piccolo's lithe organ greedily, his fingers never stopping their movements.

Gohan couldn't take much more, he started to inch his way up until his rock hard member was aligned with his busily moving fingers. Gohan broke the kiss and removed his fingers. Piccolo was only given a mere second to breath when Gohan rammed his cock into him to the hilt. Piccolo screamed at the amount of pain radiating from his tender bottom. He tried desperately to get his hands free and when that didn't work he tried to kick at the young teen. Gohan steadied him by palming the backs of Piccolo's thighs and lifting him up.

Gohan was taken by the slick warmth of Piccolo's tight passage. He pulled back and roared out in amazement as he slammed back in. He paid no attention to the struggling namek as he continued to thrust violently into his unwilling partner. In no time Gohan could feel his climax building, the screams of pain and refusal turning into a mantera urging him to persist. Piccolo hurt and his eyes were watering with tears from the shear pain of it.

Gohan turned super Saiyan and that only made it worse, his speed and strength only increasing. The more Piccolo resisted the more of a harsher response he got from Gohan, he could do nothing but scream.

Gohan rammed into him, taking him, taking all of him, god how he needed this, how he wanted this, how he wanted Piccolo. And now he had him, and it seemed he couldn't get enough. Gohan increased his ki turning super Saiyan 2. This was too much for Piccolo's body to handle, he could smell blood and knew it was his own. He could feel it as Gohan's massive staff stripped him of whatever innocence he may have possessed and robbed him of his respect for the young man. Piccolo could also feel as Gohan punctured organs with his persistent stabs of his cock, digging deeper than Piccolo's body was able to grant. Piccolo could no longer feel the pain ,it had faded away as he tasted blood and bile rise up his throat, his vision blurred until the only thing he could see was Gohan's intense features, and the only thing he heard was Gohan's heavy breathing and his moans calling out Piccolo's name. He had never thought he'd go this way, he had grown into a warrior and this was not an honourable death for a warrior. Gohan pumped his seed deep inside Piccolo's stretched portal, screaming out an air-splitting cry. He slowly ceased him movements, and leaned his forehead against Piccolo's chest.

Gohan slowly became aware that he could no longer hear anything from his chest, no heart beat, no erratic breathing, no nothing. He slowly released his grip on Piccolo's thighs and watched as they fell lifelessly downwards. It was then when he noticed the blood, there was so much blood, it was still coming, from where?! He looked up to Piccolo's face and found a dead expression there, no life in his eyes, and blood was seeping from the corners of his mouth. Gohan jumped away and starred in disbelief at the still form of his sensei's body hanging from his wrists against the cliff wall.

He was dead.

He had killed him.

He had killed him in a horrid sense, he had raped this honourable man, and killed him in cold blood. And for what?! For his own selfish pleasure.

Piccolo's protests came flooding back to him in such emotional force that he covered his ears trying to drown out the sound.

"Stop! Gohan please!"

"God, please stop, please."

"Gohan!!!!"

He was being driven mad with it. He started to run, no where in particular just to get away from the truth. Suddenly the world darkened and the earth was taken from under his feet, he was falling.

Then he started to hear the song that had appeared in his other dreams. He could hear Vicki's beautiful voice singing it, until suddenly...

She screamed, a blood curtling scream.

End of Gohan's dream

Vicki had been trying to comfort him when she sensed his dream turn from good to bad. He woke up with a start and looked around frantically. His gaze met Vicki's and he pulled her to him, murmuring about how awful it was and asking if she was okay. Vicki didn't know what happened to make such a good dream turn to a nightmare but she didn't care all she cared about was comforting Gohan. Gohan couldn't get the images out of his head, the blood, the cries for him to stop, and those dead eyes, and knowing it was all his doing. Gohan was so ashamed of his dream, he was mortified at what he had done. He was the one doing the damage and yet in his dream he could feel all the horrible emotions that Piccolo was feeling, and he still didn't stop. Gohan pulled Vicki even tighter to him, remembering her scream and not wanting to ever hear it again. Vicki murmured tranquil words and ran her fingers through his hair. His breathing slowed and he became still, not letting go of her though, not giving an inch.

"Did you want to talk about it?" Vicki silently asked.

"NO!" Gohan urgently said.

"It is suppose to help. pause It was about Piccolo wasn't it?" Vicki quizzed.

Gohan sent her a confused and scared expression. He bent his head so he was in shadow and nodded lightly.

"It was. It was horrible, I did such horrible things." Gohan was crying.

"Horrible things? Like what? At the beginning of the dream you seemed very happy if you know what I mean." Vicki joked.

"I know and that is what was so horrible!" Gohan snapped.

"Horrible because he was another guy." Vicki stated disappointed.

"No, not just that. It didn't bother me that he was a guy or anything."

"Then what was so horrible?" She looked at him lovingly, he knew she wouldn't leave him just for a dream.

"I....I killed him." He whispered. Vicki's heart dropped.

"What? You..you killed him." Vicki repeated in disbelief.

"Yeah, and it's not just that, it's the way I killed him."

"How did you kill him?" Vicki sort of didn't want to know but was too curious to pass up the chance.

".....I raped him." Gohan said just above a whisper.

Vicki didn't know what to think. Gohan took her silence as a bad sign and tried to defend himself.

"I ..I didn't mean to. It was in a dream. I would never do something like that in real life. I could never hurt anyone, especially not him." He must have said the right thing because she just snuggled up closer to him, and let him cry out his frustrations and regret.