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Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade.

Rating: PG 13

Warnings: Contains yaoi and Ooc-ness.

"Let's see the movie, then," said Tala.

Tyson nodded, looked back at me, and took my arm.

"Come on, Kai." I couldn't do anything. I was not able to. What was that? She…I mean…he kissed her didn't he? And she… That was definitely weird. But something was weirder…I was happy about it. "Kai?"

"Hm?"

"You did nothing." She looked serious. But what did she mean by nothing?

"Nothing?"

"Usually you would have pushed me away."

"Eh…" I was surprised about that. But she was right. Now that I was thinking about it… ever since she turned into a girl I'd been really - nice- to her. The only person I was ever that nice to was Tala. "Err…let's go."

So we walked off, leaving an almost dead boy behind us. I was not going to remind Tyson about that, now that she was happy. She spoke with Tala on her left and from time to time glanced at me on her right. If anyone out there would make her sad again, he would regret it…

"What about Ray, Max and Kenny?" Tala asked Tyson excitedly. "I mean; are they okay? What are they doing while we are here?"

"I…don't know what Kenny is doing, but Max and Ray said they wanted to train in Ray's village. They are all healthy and happy. Don't ask me why, but they seemed to me like they would really enjoy spending time alone without us. What do you think, Kai? Am I right?" Oh…she was a way too beautiful…

"…You are right." I think I was blushing again, because my thoughts were somewhere else…

"Kai?" I looked up and right into Tyson's blue eyes. I loved them. How can someone love eyes? Well; I could. Those eyes were forbiddingly beautiful.

"Y..y..yeah?"

"I…I…eh; you didn't have to come if you knew you were sick."

"What do you mean?"

"You get that bad colour all the time. I can see you have fever."

"Wha?…OH! No, it's not fever!"

"He he he he he he he! Kai and fever? Never! He has never been sick since I first met him up until now! I don't think he has fever…" Tala smiled at Tyson, and then he looked at me. "Right Kai? I would be really surprised if you have…"

I shook my head. Tyson sighed in relief.

"Nah, I am not sick. Ju–" Tyson cut me off with a……

…..HUG

"I am so happy you are not sick, Kai!" Wha Oh! Huh? What the hell?!

"T..t..t..Ty?"

"I myself hate it to get sick!"

"She is right. But you are not a person who gets sick easily. You should be happy!" Tala said seriously.

"I..I..am." I was, really. She hugged me, for God's sake! I loved it…

Suddenly she let go of me and looked at her watch to check the time. "We are late! In 3 minutes the movie will start!!" Then she took both Talas' arm and mine and started to run. After a few seconds, not she, but we, dragged her. She was very light. I could tell that because as she hugged me, I felt it. It surprised me a bit; she was shorter than when she had been a boy, but that did not mean she was short. Stop it! You are a serious person Kai Hiwatari – not a lovesick little boy! Ah, that's better. Then I looked back at her and started to blush again. So much help, those psychological things. I could stop it and admit to myself that I loved her. Nah, I couldn't. I was Kai the cold bastard and I couldn't stop being like that right away. Maybe later…

When we sat there I was on Ty's right and Tala was on her left. I was happy about that. The movie was about some guys who had a battle or something like that…I spent the whole time looking at Ty so I didn't really concentrate on it. Man, she was hot. Afterwards, we went to eat ice cream. I couldn't stop the damn staring.

"Who was you favourite character?" Tyson asked us. I remembered a name, maybe the only one.

"Aragorn." Seemed to be right, because she smiled.

"Thought so." Hm? Why? Who was that guy anyway? Whatever; I didn't really care at that moment.

"I liked that elf, what was his name? Lago..no..eh..L..Ah! Legolas." He remembered again. I knew Tala had always had his problems in remembering names correctly. It took him about a week to know mine. But he was getting better.

"Hehe! A Lego-fan?! You?! Wait until I tell the others!" She giggled. Tala shrugged.

"Can't help it. He is cool. But I would have liked him dead."

"Ugh. Dead?! Why?!"

"That's better. Then he wouldn't have to speak with the others again. Especially the Frodo-thing. He is gay isn't he?" Hm, that was Tala-logic. He was always like that.

"Gay? Hmh, maybe. But don't you think it's a bit weird that you want your favourite dead? I mean…is that Russian humour or only yours?"

"Mine." He answered serious and calm. Tyson blinked. Then she started to laugh. And, as always – I was used to it by that time - I felt jealous.

"Kai?" I snapped out of my thoughts and noticed Ty spoke to me.

"Yes?"

"Aren't we going to practice at all?"

"…hn."

"Kai…" She stepped forward. "…could you talk, please?" One single thought I had- it dominated everything else- she was cute! And here it comes again….I can't love her. She was 1. not a 'she', 2. A team-mate, 3. Too fucking young (An: I never read anything about that so here in my fic it is! ---) , 4. She doesn't love me, 5. I don't even believe she thinks I'm cute, 6. Everything about her is cute, 7. Oh no she did it again! She blinked- wah!!!, 8. I have to look away….otherwise….., 9. But I can't!, 10. Why the hell did I count?!, 11. A miracle. 12. Or am I sick?, 13. Yes. "So say something."

She was right. Ah! The count-thing is gone!!! Yeah! Well….

I shrugged because my mouth was really dry.

She sighed. Suddenly she looked really sad. "Let's go back."

I was worried about her. Why was she sad? Was it because of me? And then something unexpected happened….

Next day Tala and Tyson went out to buy some food. I was left alone at the hotel. I decided to do something good and clean the mess we (3 boys 1 room chaos) made. Then I found a journal….Tyson's journal….Normally I wouldn't have read it but I wanted to know why she was sad. I wanted to change myself if it was because of me….

Kai did it again- he shouted at me. I tried to hide my tears and started to freak out when I noticed I was unsuccessful. I did the clown-thing. Took his Beyblade and ran around in the hotel-room. I think he bought it. When I was alone I cried myself to sleep. Like always. I am hopeless.

Note to me: You are a scared little idiotic clown. Kai is too good for you. Forget him.

It's creepy. Kai stared at me the whole time! Was he angry? What did I do? I can't remember anything. Look how pathetic I am! Don't even know what I did! When he did that stare-thing I couldn't concentrate on anything. Maybe I should ask him what I did. But then… he would think I am completely stupid.

I am starting to freak out!!! What was it?! I need to know what I did! Kai stared again. I tried to act as if I didn't see him. Earlier I wanted attention from him but now when I get it I start to hate it more and more.

He's been at it for a whole week now! I need holidays! That clown-act thing is really complicated. I think it's not good to bottle your emotions up but I can't tell him that I cry every single night, can I?! I don't get enough sleep and it's getting worse. He shouted at me every practice. Now I am sure he is angry with me. But what did I do?! God, please help me! I need help! Seriously. I can't stand it anymore.

The next thing was hardly readable since there were tears all over the Journal…

He said I was pathetic. Told me I should leave the team. He was right. When he said that my tears started to come again. I tu… ….. …. ….. …. …. Then I ran into my room. I locked the door. He banged on it and told me I should come out and speak to him but I couldn't. He shouted…. …. …. …. … Ray calmed him down. I stayed in my room for the whole day. T-

"Hey Kai! We are back!!!" Tala shouted from the door. I closed the Journal and placed it where it was earlier. Then I ran to the door, opened it, and did the only thing I could- I grabbed Ty and hugged her tightly. She jerked at the sudden hug.

"I love you." Then something very weird happened. She seemed to grow in my arms. When I looked down I gasped. She was back to normal! My Ty was back! The weird girl was history! "Ty! Oh, Ty, you are back!!!" That was the first time I realised that I liked him more then her. True- she was a beautiful- but my Ty was way better! I couldn't tell why. But I was sure about it. Suddenly I felt him struggling. I let him go. He stepped back and stared at the ground. Then I saw a lonely tear running down his cheek. I was shocked.

"It's a dream. I am dreaming again. All not true. . . Never true . . . I need to…" He took a deep breath. "…wake up. Need to forget…" More tears fell to the ground. "…need to wake up. I am dreaming…dreaming…why?" He fell down on his knees. "Say it when I am awake…when I can be sure…so cruel…these dreams…hunting me…killing me…" He whispered a last word that made me shiver. A last word spoken so lovingly yet so awfully hopeless. "…softly."