10—All My Fault
As Theresa walks home to her house, the cold New England air hits her skin, causing her flesh to become cold. Rubbing her hands over her bare arms, Theresa stops in the park, sitting on a bench to think.
"All I ever wanted was to be happy with Ethan and my children. How could I have stooped so low to get what I want? Ethan, mama, they're all right. I'm my own worst enemy. I played with the devil, and I got burned. What the hell was I thinking in going along with Alistair?"
Reaching into her pocketbook, Theresa pulls out a picture of her children. "Jane. I did this for you. I wanted you back so much, I never stopped to think of the consequences. Maybe Ethan's right. Maybe you don't deserved to be raised by me. I mean, look at me, I was just raped tonight because I was trying to get you back. Maybe what Gwen and Rebecca have said all this time is true. Maybe I am a lousy mother."
Letting the tears fall, Theresa buries her face in her hands, feeling alone in the cold world.
After a few minutes of crying, Theresa wipes her tear stained face, and takes a deep breath. "No. I can't cry. I have to be strong. Strong for my children. I have to get myself back to normal. I need to do this for my children."
Taking her pocketbook, Theresa begins to walk home, and makes promises to herself.
Theresa, you are a strong woman. You can overcome anything that comes your way.
Theresa, your children love you. You will have Jane back one day soon.
Theresa, you will be happy again, and you will find love again…
Coming to a stop, Theresa shakes her head. "No." She whispers. "I can never find someone that I love as much as I love Ethan. That's just not possible."
Continuing her walk home, Theresa prays. Dear God, please just let me find my way…
Coming Up
Ethan comes to a realization
Please R/R