"Hermione, Ron, I've been looking all over for you two, did you forget about the meeting?" Hermione looked shocked and Ron looked like he could care less. Lily could see Harry's face slowly turning red and suspected what was going on.

The girl finally spotted Lily and smiled at her as she walked over. "You must be the new girl Dumbledore mentioned," she said offering her hand, Lily took it and shook it heartily, nodding slightly. "My Name's Cho Chang, I'm the head girl this year, so if you need anything you can come see me, or Hermione and Ron too," she said looking at her through wide brown eyes. Lily smiled as politely as she could and said thanks, wanting the girl gone quickly, not very fond of her over exaggerated smile. She turned to leave as Hermione and Ron left the compartment, Cho spotted Harry who hadn't looked at her once.

"Hello Harry," she said in an almost shy tone.

"Cho," he said nodding, not even glancing in her direction. Cho quickly walked out, not looking at Lily again.

The compartment fell into a stiff silence, causing Lily to become uncomfortable, she didn't like silence that much.

"So what's out the window?" she ventured to ask as she looked at him, hi turned his head and looked at her for a while.

"I'm watching my life pass me by," he said quietly.

Lily noticed that his green eyes didn't look in the least bit happy, but extremely sad. He sighed and she blinked, smiling at him. "News flash, Harry. Your life definitely isn't outside in the scenery, but in here. So technically you're watching landscapes and you're missing your life passing you by," Harry looked startled by what she said, but a ghost of a smile appeared for a moment. "Life isn't something you watch, its something you take advantage of, its something you do, no matter how hard it gets." Harry leaned back in his seat and ran his hand through his hair, Lily giggled and flashed him a brilliant smile. The corners of Harry's mouth twitched and that was it, causing Lily to frown.

"Why do you do that?" she asked quickly.

"Do what?" Harry asked puzzled.

"Only kinda smile. Why?"

Harry shrugged. "I'm just not that happy these days. Stuff happened last hear, its been hard to deal with it all.

Lily nodded. "I think I get that, I had hard stuff... what happened to you?"

Harry stared at her, surprised, no one had ever really asked what had happened before, sure, they had asked, but no of them had ever meant it, they were all too wrapped up in their own problems, they had only really wanted information.

"Sirius Black, have you heard of him?" Harry asked, saying his Godfather's name for the first time since it happened without wanting to shutdown followed by an agonizing breakdown.

Lily grinned. "Yeah, he was that guy that got put in Azkaban for supposedly killing all of those people, I definitely didn't believe that... but my mom knew him growing up, she was a year younger than him, had a huge crush on him, but her brother hated him so she gave up on him and met my dad, but keep talking."

Harry nodded. "Well I'm sure you heard how my parents died right?" Lily nodded, determined to let him finish. "Good, so my third year Sirius got out, well escaped from Azkaban, I found out he was my Godfather, he was really the only father I'd ever known, and he died last year, trying to save me; it was my fault he died you know, I believed a lie." Lily nodded, and saw the tears starting to well up in Harry's eyes.

"Harry everyone believes lies, its ok. Don't ever feel guilty. I heard about what happened Harry, and its not your fault, he came because he wanted to, because he cared. Just because he's not really here with you, he's still here, you have memories of him, that's what keeps him alive, and that is something to smile about." she finished. Harry only stared at her, she smiled shyly, afraid she had said to much and he would not talk to her for the rest of the ride, but to her great surprise he smiled at her, his eyes shouting joy for that short amount of time.

"I like you Emily," he said quickly, blushing, Lily cocked her head to the side and stared at him and he quickly noticed his blunder. "Not like that, no, you just seem rather sincere. Ron and Hermione have been being sensitive, and I'm sick of being treated like I'm going to break. Do you understand that?"

Lily nodded. "I think you broke a long time ago and you just one help putting yourself back together again." Harry stared at the girl in front of him. She had barely spoken to him during the whole ride and she had seemed to see through everything and to understand him in a way no one had. Harry nodded and she smiled, but he noticed it wasn't a smug smile, it was definitely kind.

"So you're Malfoy's cousin?" he asked skeptically, it didn't seem possible that someone this nice could be half Malfoy.

"Yes, but, please don't remind me, we aren't alike in any way, well except for the smirk, we both have the Malfoy smirk," she said. He looked at her and she smirked at him, a mischievous glint in her eyes. "So what's going on between you and that Cho girl?" she asked.

Harry rolled his eyes and snorted. "Me and Cho? That was last year too. She's like the human garden hose... she cries... allot. Its not that funny, it got annoying. It was an incident, durring my fourth year...Voldemort killed her boyfriend."

Lily nodded. "Cedric right?" Harry nodded. "Yeah, I got told that story allot." she said glancing down at her hands. "I know allot about you to be honest with ya. I've heard every story that involves voldemort, but I did my own research on the side, but well, that sounds bad, just you and your third year, with the whole Sirius thing, my mom still liked him, I', rather convinced she loved him, and his death along with my father's made her go insane."

"Your father is dead? I didn't know that." Harry said looking at her, his hear tipped to the left.

"Maybe because I didn't mention it, but yeah, died that same night.

Harry nodded. "So you lost everything then too?" he asked leaning forward, closer to her.

"I guess you could put it that way, I mean yeah, I lost my fam and my best friend, I was banished from my home, but it could have been worse. I could have died that night too, and... well, never mind. Yeah, it could have been worse, but you know I got things in return. I think that when you lose something, or someone really special you get things in place of it. Like, even though I lost my school, home, family, everything; I'm still gonna go to school, a better one. I had a place to stay, and family. Plus I stayed in a huge house all summer, filled to the brim with idiots and my aunt, she helped me deal, and they took my mind off of things."

Harry smiled, wishing it could be that way for him. "So one could ever replace Sirius." he said quietly.

Lily looked shocked. "Of course not! No one is ever going to replace Christina in my mind, but I'll still be able to have a best friend, someone I can tell my secrets to, but it wont ever be her."

"Well I can't just get a new Godfather, Emily, it doesn't work that way."

"I know that, but you can still have a father figure in your life, a new one. Both of us can, we'll look together...well only if you want to."

He smiled, "I'd like that allot. You make me feel like a normal person and I barely know you."

It was Lily's turn to smile now, "I'm only treating you the way normal people should be treated. You have to talk to them before you judge them and become friends with them after you judge them. I think people get hung up on the hero side of you and don't want to get to know you, because in their minds they already do know you."

"But they don't. They never even tried. Never become a hero Emily, it ruins things for you."

"Nah, you just have to know how to handle the crowd, don't let them intimidate you... and pretend you could care less about the rumors, just be you, not who they want you to be... wanna play exploding snap? I'm really bad, but hey, who cares. We'll talk Quidditch while we play. I'm a seeker too, well a chaser as well, but I've played seeker for the past three years now." Harry readily agreed to the game and what he was sure would be a great conversation, he and Ron hadn't talked Quidditch for weeks, and he missed it.

thanks for the reviews. this will be my last update for a little while, i'm going away, but i'll return on Saturday, so i figured i'd give you a little peek into things like Lily's mind... & if you've read the latest addition to the HP series,which i just finished reading today, this story no longer makes sense, but i never figured it would... but i had most of it written, but i think eventually, i'll start to tie things from THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE in, but after the halfway mark, which will be sometime around thier summer break... so thanks for reading, i hope you are enjoying it... & give me reviews to come home to, please...it would really make me smile.

Nessarose