Title: Leave the Past Behind You

Author: xxShadowSpiritsxx

Summary: You can't change the past; you can only change the future. After being dumped by Takuya, Izumi is unsure if she has the strength to move on... that is, until one boy turns everything around. Kouzumi fic. (Swearing and slight suicide)

Disclaimer: I don't own anything in this fic.

xxShadowSpiritsxx: Hey! So sorry I haven't updated in a while…again. LOL well at least the summer's here and I have more time to write! Actually…I finished this fanfic years ago, but I just hesitated for a long time. I didn't want to post it just yet, because to tell you the truth, I was really unhappy with this fic. After reading the whole thing over, I found it really sucked XP. That's probably because I set my standards high and I criticize my work too much. But hopefully you won't think that is so. I hope you like how it turned out, and I apologize for taking a long time. Please review and give me your suggestions as to how to make this better.

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LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND YOU

Chapter 4: Try To Remember

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This is it. No more misery. I can end all this pain and suffering…

I felt the sharp end of the scissors the hand that held it. The blade…the pain…it felt good. I lowered the edge down to the wrist of my other hand. Slowly, steadily, I prepared to strike…

Just then, a strong fist gripped my arm tightly.

"Izumi, you have to stop this," I heard a calm voice say to me. It sounded somewhat familiar…but I didn't bother to think about it. Everything was going to end now. It didn't matter. Nothing mattered.

"Izumi…listen to me."

I struggled to break free, but I couldn't help myself from looking up at the stranger's voice. I saw a tall wolf-like creature with a gloved hand holding me back. My eyes widened as I gazed in fear. Who…or what was it?

Not knowing what to do, I screamed, "No! Let go of me!" I tried to force my arm out. He was too strong.

"Izumi, trust me! You just have to listen," it continued, almost mocking me with the calmness of its voice.

"How can I trust you if I don't even know who the fuck you are!" I screamed again, trying to escape. But it was no use. I had no idea what was happening, and I kneeled there on the wet ground, scared as hell.

"Open your mind and try to remember, Izumi."

I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. He did sound familiar. But who? No. I didn't want to remember. That would just cause more and more pain. I yelled once more in a desperate attempt to get away.

"Just calm down. I'm not going to hurt you."

"Then why are you doing this to me!" I cried.

"Izumi…" I saw him pick up the picture that fell from my pocket when I had taken out the scissors.

"Don't tell me what that is! I already know--it's just another picture of me and that fuckin' Takuya!"

"Izumi, look closer. What do you see?"

The voice took the picture and put it right in front of me, so I couldn't help but open my eyes to look at it. Indeed, it was a photo of myself with Takuya, but four other kids were in it too. Who are they?

"Try to remember…who's in the picture? Where was it taken?"

I started crying again. "…I…I don't…know"

"Think…where are we now?"

I looked up at him…then at my surroundings. For some reason, images started flashing through my head, one by one, and I tried--really tried to put the pieces together. This definitely wasn't the human world…Wait! Could it be? "Th…the…Digital…World?"

"Yes, that's right…" the voice said as a blazing light of data flew around. The wolf…seemed to transform. What was left was a boy, my age, from the photo. "Izumi," he said softly, "It's me…Kouji…Minamoto."

"…K-…Kouji?"

He nodded.

I collapsed again, crying, only this time in his arms. How could I possibly forget him? How could I forget everything that happened--how we saved the Digital World? And most importantly, how could I forgive myself for forgetting?

"Kouji…I'm so sorry…I--"

"Shhh….It's alright. We should probably just focus on getting out of this rain."

He took off his jacket and wrapped it around my shoulders. It was wet, but still had a comforting warmth to it.

By now, I had no more tears to cry. "So, how exactly did we get here…and how do we get back?" I wondered.

"A portal through a computer. We need to find one, quickly."

We walked for about twenty minutes in the downpour, until we finally came across one.

"Do you have your D-Tector?"

'D-Tector'…so that's what it is… "Yeah, I think." I searched my pockets for that pink and purple device. I held it up and a bright light shined around us.

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We returned into Kouji's room. It was warm and cozy, compared to that dreadful wet place.

"Are you going to be okay now?" he asked me.

"Yes…I should."

"Good. Just try not to think of Tak--'you-know-who' too much. He can be a jerk at times."

"Yeah…I know."

"Um…Izumi?" He looked up at me, straight into my eyes.

"Hmm?" I really had no idea what was going to happen. What was it now?

"I, uh…well, I understand if you don't feel the same way back, but I've been meaning to get this off my chest…" he spoke fast, as if nervous about something. At the same time, he sounded so serious, that I braced myself for something that was yet to come. "You see…Izumi…I…I love you."

I gazed up into his beautiful, ocean blue eyes. There was something about him… I leaned closer and kissed him gently on the lips. I don't know what made me do that, but I always wanted my first kiss to be with Takuya. But now, Kouji's light has reached deep within and purified my dark heart. He was a loyal friend, who'd never hurt me--something Takuya could never be.

"I love you too, Kouji."

And with that, my first kiss was stolen, along with my heart, by Kouji Minamoto.

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xxShadowSpiritsxx: Well, I really hope you enjoyed this fic. Again, I am really sorry for the delay, and I apologize if this fic wasn't quite what you expected. Oh and one more thing: PLEASE DON'T ASK ME WHY OR HOW IZUMI FORGOT EVERYTHING! (I know it's not logical and I haven't given any reason for this, but that's the thing--there isn't one XD. So sorry…lol I just don't know what to write…)