Another Hole in the Head Nickleback Chapter 2: Easir To Run, a teen titans fanfic

Disclaimer: I do not own the teen Titans or Linkin Park.

The Rap part of the song (in parentheses and bold) pertains to Beast Boy's feelings. The singing part (Italics) Pertains to raven's feelings.

Easier to Run

'God damn him. What was he thinking trying to be my friend? He can't understand a simple math problem, let alone me. He knows why I can't smile, why I can't show happiness. He shouldn't waste his time on me. I'll never smile for his stupid jokes. He is repulsive and weak. We are nothing alike. I don't know what the other Titans see in him, he has no potential, I could beat him with my arms tied.'

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

'Why can't she just accept me as I am? Why doesn't she realize that that's just my personality? Being funny is just being me. All I ever try to do is make her happy. All those jokes are for her. Why can't she see that? Why won't she just enjoy it? Why, why, why?'

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

'He thinks everything is so simple. He thinks that he knows what I have to go through. But he doesn't understand. He knows nothing of my life, my pain. It's not like he can experience it, not like he has experienced it. He thinks he can help, but he can't, no one can.'

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

'If she would just open up a little maybe we could help her a little. How does she expect us to know what to do if she won't tell us what she's dealing with. Some friend she turned out to be. I thought I knew her better.'

Beast Boy landed in a wooded area outside Jump City and sat down on a fallen log, tears starting to creep past his angry posture.

'I wish she would just let me in, let me help her. Let me love her.'

Raven laid herself down on her bed, pressing her face into her pillow, she sighed and then straightened up as her empathic powers sent a sharp pang of sadness through her heart. She sat up and grabbed her mirror off of her bedside table. She peered into it and saw instead of her reflection, the picture of Beast Boy sitting on the log in the forest, crying. She could feel his sadness. She looked closer, the gem on her forehead glowing as she realized the cause of his sadness. Then, her own sadness gripped her. Beast Boy loved her. How could she not have seen it, felt it, for so long? All this time she had been pushing him away, just dismissing his foolishness for stupidity. All this time all he wanted was for her to remotely like him, even though he felt so much more.

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

Chorus
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Raven put her mirror back and morphed into the big black raven and disappeared into the ceiling.

'Raven doesn't want love, she must be happy alone. She must just like it being all by herself. Maybe she just is so used to it, she doesn't think she can change. Maybe she forgot what it's like to love.' Beast Boy reasoned to himself, wiping a tear off his cheek.

"Beast Boy?"

Beast Boy looked up at the sound of his name being called. Directly in front of him was Raven, standing there, tears streaming down her face.

"What do you want?" Beast Boy said, looking away.

"Beast Boy, I'm so sorry. I didn't realize you felt that way."

"You mean that the whole time I was trying to explain to you that I liked you before I left it didn't click that I care about you? You're an empathy for Christ's sake!" Beast Boy said, looking at Raven. The anger, that was once there, returning.

"Listen, I was just so mad that my anger clouded my judgment. I was mistaken, Beast Boy, please forgive me." Raven pleaded.

"You think I'll forgive you, just like that? After what you said? It seemed like you really meant those things, that you didn't like me. What should I think now?"

"I don't expect you to forgive me just like that, I want to make it up to you, anyway I can. Beast Boy, can't you see that I'm sorry? Beast boy, please. I want to give you another chance."

"What is that supposed to mean? Another chance?"

"It means that I want to try to accept you, I want you to help me, make me happy. I want you to love me."

"You what?"

"I want you to love me and I want to love you too."

It's easier to run
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It's easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

"Beast Boy, please." Raven said, the tears renewed, streaming down her face again.

"Alright Rae, I forgive you." Beast boy said, standing up and looking Raven directly in the eye.

Raven flung herself into his arms and hugged him, pieces of wood and plants lifting off the ground. Beast Boy hugged back and the floating objects shattered into dust.

"We'll have to work on that." Beast boy said, hugging Raven tighter.