Hi there!HyperRyu-chan here ! suck so badddddd! I apologize for the stories jerry springer and secret love.I was in a weird mood when i wrote them.When i get depressed i kill off my favorite characters and as for jerry springer..don't even remeber writing it til' i got reviews!

So here's a better story!NO FLAMES!Pleez i beg of u!Ill give u big huggles.Criticism is...okay if neccessery .so here goes my new ryuichi/tatsuha It will not be too sad.promise!

Evil tod keeps tellings me to kill the.But sute-chan said that tods a stupid slut.So enjoy my slightly weird story.

Love me do

Ryuichi POV

I'm sitting here all alone on a park bench.It seems like I'm always alone.Even being famous and having rabid fangirls attack me I'm always so lonely ..so ..empty.I was in love once.A loooong time ago.She was a beautiful girl.Naomi.She broke my heart.But recently I have had these feelings again .I seems to good to be true.I mean he's such a great guy.Yes..he's a guy.But he's so beautiful.I never really pegged myself as being gay.Bi-sexual yes.Gay...well I guess you can't help who you fall in love with.I mean ,look at Shu-chan and Yuki-san.I envy them on some level.Knowing that I could be that happy.If i weren't such a coward I could feel whole for once.God how I love him.My beautiful light.shining..My Tatsuha.

Tatsuha POV

Why am I being so shy about all this.I know I've loved Ryuichi since I first saw him onstage.And when Shuichi introduced us at Tohma's party we both knew it.I know it , he knows it ..HELL even tohma knows it ! I love him.I love him with all my heart and soul.Tohma said he's fragile.he told me Ryuichi was in love once...they were so happy .They were going to get married,but a month before the wedding she runs off to cheat with on him with another woman.Ouch.So I can totally understand that he wouldn't want to be with me...

But I won't give up on him .Love like this isn't very common.I mean love knows no boundries right ?Whether it's age or gender or whatever right ? I just want to be with him.My beautiful sexy god..my honey Ryuichi...

Ryuichi POV

I won't stay trapped like this anymore .I have to go to him!I mean I really,truly love him! Who cares if he's not only a guy ,but half my age ?Love doesn't exist on limits.Hm...But he;s all the way in Kyoto and I'm in Tokyo ...I don't care I will get to him anyway i can!My koi...i will hop on the next bus and get to him.1He will know how muchI care and love him ,finally he can have the chance to love me back .

Tatsuha Pov

I hope Ryuichi can understand why I;m doing this.No matter how much i try to convince myself I know this isn't right.Dad's always disapproved of Eiri .To him being gay is immoral and wrong.I'll..he tells me that Eiri will forever burn in hell.Is that the price of love ?Is eternal fire the price of passion? TruthfullyI I don't want to stick around to find out.After all I feel so pathetic.This is so wrong ,but at least if I take my own life I won't have to risk rejection.What I thought before could easily be wrong.He may like me ..but what if he doesn;t love me like I love him? I'd die.I won't risk it.I'm just going to skip the whole dramatic "Goodbye cruel world!" I'm not really suited for the poetic type of ending.Graceful.Like the end of one of aniki's books.And so now I'm sitting in my room for the last time ,holding a knife to my wrist .A single tear slides down my cheek as I look at my favorite picture of Ruichi ,and pull the blade across my wrist.I'm soaked in my own blood as i whisper my final words .

"Aishiteru Ryuichi ..." and then I sink into inevitable darkness.

Ryuichi Pov

I caught the last bus in and I'm almos there.But something deosn;t feel right.I freeze up.Something is definatly not right.I take out my cell and call the Uesugi temple.My heart stops in my chest .There's no answer.Please tatsuha ..don't be doing anything stupid.

ten minutes later

The bus ride is drawing to an end and I rush from the station to the temple I have visited often to see my koi.The house is dark.far too dark for my liking.An eeire silence descends on the house..I run a mile a minute .Rushing up the stairs and pounding on tatsuha's door.

It's locked,Damn.I yell at him to open up.I start to freak out.yelling,begging him to let me in.After my failed attempts I break my way through the barrier.And there's tatsuha allright.Face down in a pool of his own blood.I cry and start to shake.i roll him over and he says something ever so softly.

my name...

"Ryuichi..."

Tohma Pov

I;m sitting at my desk when my phone rings.The caller I.D. alerts to me Ryuichi's cell phone.I pick up the phone expecting to hear his loud,childish voice.But to my utter dismay sobs greet my ears .from his explanation i can only make out a few words."tatsuha..suicide..blood..help"

He says only this and I am on my way immeadiatly to kyoto.

Ryuichi POV

Im watching you.The I.V. in your arms looks weird and so wrong.It wasn't meant to be there.None of this was.it shouldn;t have happened.Why did you do it Tatsuha?did you share my fear of rejection and confusion?Even so , this was no escape.This was the cowards way out.Your eye opens.i almost shout with joy You're alive!When you are up and fully awake you are going to get it ! ...WELL AT LEAST YOU HAVE SOME EXPLAINING TO DO!

End chapter 1.

i hope ya'll like it okay.im a bit depressed so ..No one will die .i pinky promise pleez review.i know i suck but it will get better .More pormising.

tod:yeah right .U suck!

ryu: You'll see.she can do it!

sute:she can do it if she tries!

tod:yeah and I'm a man .

Ryu:your're not ?

Sute:tod is a boys name (giggles)

Tod:shut up!

Me:would you personalities fighting already!Oh the joy of multiple personalities,(insert eye roll here)

Anyway pleez do not flame me.I prefer positive reviews ,as they motivate.No reviewsno story.so please review!