Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon or any of it's characters. The title isn't mine either—taken from Sheryl Crow's 'The Global Sessions' for Am I Getting Through? Part I and Part II… that's about it… yeah…
Chapter Three:
Love and Regret
"Usa," Mamoru whispered to his fiancé, "I love you, no matter what." His words, however, were not enough to soothe her like so many times in the past. Tears still lined her eyelashes as she looked at him with her tear-stained face. She looked down, as if ashamed.h
"B-but… the future." Se whispered with red-rimmed eyes as she stared at her love. "It's…" She had messed it up--her chance at happiness. For once, things were going the way they should have, and then she screwed it up. She tightened her fists--she screwed up everyone's chance at happiness.
"There are so many different paths that can lead to the future." He soothed, "That was just one of them."
Her eyes were dull, filled with an aching sadness, "But I want to be a mother…" She whispered ever so softly.
Grasping her hands gently in his, he looked her straight in the eye and said, "There's always that slim chance." She sniffled at him, knowing he was just trying to make her feel better.
After three days of resting in the hospital, she was allowed to go free. Mamoru took it upon himself to bring her to his apartment and cater to her every need. Most of the time, however, it was comforting his fiancé.
"You know," he started, "You don't need to be a mother for me and the others to love you." He gave her a comforting and reassuring smile.
Usagi looked at him sharply; "Don't you understand?" She all but openly sobbed, "It's selfish of me—but I want to be a mother! I want to be able to care and tend to something that you and I created out of our love!"
He bit his lower lip, "Usa, we can always adopt."
She turned away towards the nearby window and stared out with distant eyes as a lone tear streamed down her flushed cheeks. "I want to hold my own child, not answering questions to a child that's not mine of why they don't look like me or you."
"Usa…" He tried, hoping to pull her from her forlorn thoughts.
Turning back to him, she looked at him with her now dull blue eyes filled with sorrow. "Remember what happened to Chibi-Usa in the future because she didn't look like us?"
He held his tongue, knowing it would probably end up the same way.
"I'm sorry," she lowered her head in shame, "It's just… I want a child so badly." Am I getting through to you?
He looked at her tenderly once more, shifting in his chair beside the bed, "I hear you."
TBC
Author's note: I'm glad people like this story--I hope you liked this chapter everyone! The next will probably be posted tomorrow. Thanks everyone for the reviews!
Reviewers Responses:
ffgirlmoonie: Yeah, it is a sad thing. Don't worry though, it won't be an angsty filled ending...hopefully. Thanks for the review!
SwimBunny123: Thanks! In truth, I feel like strangling the plot line since it wouldn't leave me alone until I wrote it! grrrrr... /attacks story/
ladytokyo: Thanks! I hope that you enjoyed the chapter and continue reading on!
Rising Fire: Yeah, I figure that since I've never actually completed one of my GWSM or SM stories, why not try and update as much as I can and all. Besides, this way people won't threaten me with death and all if I suddenly decide to stop updatingXD Thanks for stickin' with the story /glomps/
secretguest: Nope, not going to be an OC (I don't care for those, which is why I usually end up killing them)...however, Chibi-Usa isn't going to be adopted either... XP Thanks for the review!
SteamedDumpling: Nice username! It rocks! XD Don't worry though, they'll have a happy ending /muahahaha/ Thanks for the review!
ChibiRikku1: O.O /looks around/ Who... me? Naw, I'd never make it so that Usa wouldn't be able to have kids, leave her heartbroken, and then make her possibly commit suicide...no, not me XP Naw-- I'm just kidding. Dun worry, it'll probably get better--hopefully!
LKLTB: Yes! I will dedicate a story to you for being a faithful reviewer (and to the other people who have dealt with my random updates and such as to not make them feel jealous)--it'll hopefully be up soon XD I hope you like 1xR!
cherrybunny: Thanks for the review--I didn't think that my story would actually make people cry... Thanks for the review anyhoo!
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Endy's Girl: Dun worry, it will (unless I suddenly decide to make Usa commit suicide... /evil cackle/) /glomps/ Thanks for the review!
Serenity Maxwell: Yes, angst is my middle name. XD This is probably the most romance-y fic that I've done for a while. Long live the angsty stories and the sadists!
Pamela: XD /glomps/ Thanks! Your review made me update! (I'm a guilt-filled person and reviews only add to that)
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Love, Red Tail